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...then  abba fell sick  badly,  both elder and younger brothers  gave him  full attention and  the best treatment,  doctors also tried their best to save his life,  but his lungs had collapsed,  no hope  was seen  of his surviving,  there was a dissertation in the college that day 

Abba s condition had worsened  from the Last night  yet you left uncaringly,  Abba s gaze was fixed on the door,  he wanted to see you for the last time  but you deliberately returned  later than usual  because you were  partying with your friends on your victory,  Abba  s eyes were filled with  waiting for you  then the waiting eyes closed for ever,  his wish of seeing you stopped throbbing as his heart 

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....when  you  would see  a magnificent car with an ordinary looking woman in the window you would  draw my attention 

Look noshi what an ugly face  do tell truthfully  if she really deserves to be in there 

Your tone  drenched with desire   desperation  covered up wishing you owned  such a life  , instead of that useless woman you were driving it,  because you possessed  an attractive  personality and pretty face  you  thought you were worthy  of it ,  befitting  and  perfect,  but life wasn't happening that way,  poor you  the world  didn't want to take instructions from you,   you were  struggling  to exhaust your previous  unknown  sins 

Strange it was  I thought  why your arrogance  added  more dynamic charm  to your personality  instead of making you incredibly repelling,  you seemed more unpredictable  and exciting  than  egoistic,  perhaps  it was because we all had taken you for granted  and as a better off

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....it was the final  year of medical  of elder brother,  he was working very hard,  he gave home tuitions to raise funds to pay his fees, Maa ji was  restricted  to abba mian  s  nursing and  became a dedicated  care giver,  giving him medicines on time  , giving him food punctually,  spoon feeding him citrus  and apple juice  frequently,  helping him to swallow  smoothies and soups to keep him hydrated  , changing  abba s bedsheets  pillow covers and clothes  every day,  , sge did all the washing  herself with her own hands,  washing tge s7ck room  twice a day  with   disinfectant phenyl water 

The whole family was   affected by abba  s  illness,  only you remained  aloof and not  involved,  abba Mia  constantly coughed all night,  both elder and younger appas would  religiously get up to check on him   ignoring amma ji  , standing by the bedside  holding  a glass of water,  to give him pills,  sometimes  waiting to  give him glucose water , I was full two years younger to you  also would get up  to look at abba ji nervously,  amma  would rub his back gently so he could  breath better  but abba  s  cough  never reached your ears,

Abba would become breathless panting heavily coughing  but you  enjoyed   listening to the music  cassettes,  engrossed in reading,  bent on books  writing something  , your head   regal y  sunk in soft pillows  dreaming of some prince to arrive  to wake you up 

pas aina

....and I have to write down a story 

Your story,,,but look  I am waiting  ready with a pen in hand  but  words simply  slip out of hand  before I can catch them  , how easy it was for you to  write down stories,  stories that were just heart touching,  imaginative   true and all sorts  just now you  said you would write a story on me sometime

 certainly , and perhaps you will when I am dead on me 

Dozakhi,, something on that  pattern  a reality  theme  asnat chughtai  spun a narrative  a mixture of truth  and falsehood 

Story of younger appa  elder brother  tales you could  write yourself  before I am dead 

You have  always been doing so  when you are in rage  and annoyed  you  quickly write a story about it  covering up a small  truth  with  lots of  pretentious  vocabulary  giving it a fake outfit  a false  appearance  to present it  attractive 

teen cheezein

....never ignore three following things 

Farz qarz marz

Duty  loan  sickness 

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..the following three once  in a lifetime 

Waldeen husn jawani

Parents  beauty  youth 

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...the  three unique things each one has 

Maut seerat qismat

Death  nature  destiny 

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Be sincere in the following three 

Rehem karam dua

mercy  work prayers 

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.three things  bring shame 

Chori chughli  jhooth

Cheating  backbiting  untruthfulness 

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always remember three following 

Sacchai faraiz  maut

Reality  duties  life ends 

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tanhai

....pitch dark grave night 

Complete silence prevailing all around 

Deadly  silent  stillness  everywhere 

Sorrowful  air

And 

Then 

This solitude 

From nowhere 

Gradually 

Tiptoing

Your memory 

Aboard 

In the sailing mind

Arrived 

And 

In the seas of my desiring heart 

Me

Began actively working 

in the noisy  memory 

It happened like this 

It became enjoyable 

And 

I wasn't alone anymore 

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...why are you here  Hamid asked faridi 

For the same reason   for the woman you are following 

What!!!!exclaimed Hamid  confused,  goodness gracious  aren't you a true wizard 

Not at all,  just that I am more experienced than you are 

I happened to learn that from your attire 

How is that 

Simple,  had you started from home for this place you would have been dressed in an evening suit,  perhaps you spotted the woman  and  started following her as is your bad habit 

Hamid remained silent 

Faridi puffed on his cigar relishing it and smiling  added  he was certain Hamid didn't even know  who the woman was 

Hamid argued  how can you say that 

Your suit says that of course,  if you knew her you would be dressed in the evening suit 

I don't understand 

Let me explain 

Sarcastically Hamid waived off he will understand  it  but your hardship  since when have you   started chasing women 

My answe to  that r is  that  I find some women are very interesting