from previous....

.....he spent some time  roaming around aimlessly,  shopping some  daily  needs  and then turned the bike to go back  , suddenly tge sky became  black  as tge dark  clouds rolled in, before time  it became  very dark,  big fat  rain drops began  falling  and  winds   changed their moods aggressively,  it was dangerous to  drive the bike in such  conditions,  he looked around  for some  temporary  shelter  to wait and watch the storm pass by 

from previous....

......he didn't want to feel defeated  by Nasir, s  no, he borrowed his bike and drove off happily  on the  spiral road  leading towards the mall road  ignoring  his friend. S remarks  that if he got lost  in the  imminent  storm  nobody will come to rescue him 

! Both had just  taken charge of their new jobs after  completing  their house jobs, it was a beautiful hill station,  attractive natural surroundings  displayed  flowering slopes and cool waterfall  and lush  green   hills

page 14....

......it was a boring  and  off day, he asked his friend Nasir why not they  go outing somewhere  to kill time,  nasir  expressed his opinion  saying  he was crazy and  weird ideas  cropped up his silly  mind  and it wasn't  hi off day,   because it was so dull and  musty day it might rain and thunder,  tge storm  definitely will  destroy  their outing,  his lengthy  answer  was tiring 

summer and sweat....

.... every one wants to look  fresh  and pleasant  but   come summer  and  sweat   makes them all appear  tired  exhausted and  stale, though nature is at work  , appocrine  and eccrine glands  function  to maintain  body heat by letting  it cool  by secreting  chemicals  that are released  through the skin  surface which is porous  

But the sweating person feels  sticky and smelly

garden mint

.....nature  has   bestowed  garden mint  with extraordinary  properties,  usually  it us used to add more aromatic  flavor to foods  turning them  into  rich and tempting foods  , ordinary people  use mint fir flavoring  but  there are more  hidden  properties inside those  tiny green leaves mainly  rich in Iron and  vitamins,  its dry and warm in nature  , old timers used it for different purposes 

There's an old story in Greece  Pluto the God of love was passionately in love with  his wife menth but the second wife was wicked and  turned er into a green plant to which  later Pluto  added that peculiar   fragrance  when he couldn't   undo  the magic 

Its widely known to grow from South Asia  to Arab countries to Europe to America  and  added  generously  to their meals 

page 101...

.....all life long he searched for  ultimate destination of love 

As a result  he returned   surrounded in  tired dust of travel 

The couplet  slipped out of his mouth  Tariq looked at him 8n surprise,  him and interested in  poetry,  so his doubts were confirmed  he was involved,  argument was that doubts have no solution  and  better was change  the topic 

from previous.....

....meher bano  desperately  waited for her husband  or at least he could have  phoned her     she even thought of ringing him up herself but hamira  discouraged her daughter,  it was an ego war,  if once  the woman  lowers  her guard  before the man  she  remains  in that  position all her life, specially  when such  men are   husbands,  hamira  poured her experiences  into  her  daughter's  mind  stopping her from  taking any positive decision 

page 262.....

....if  the temper of meher bano  touched the seventh sy sky    nobody  was taking trouble to reform her ways, hamira  was also  another one,   mainly alam was  an ideal husband who remains  quiet before wife and  dares  notice nothing ,  but he was a good  man  who  loved his  home and family,  he wanted  his children settled  and therefore  tried to explain  affectionately   but now sulking meher bano had gone to stay with her maternal  family  expecting her husband to follow her asking for her forgiveness  missing  her ardent admirer  Shahid  who revolved  around her but curses to affat who entered the scene  and took away the man, curses to  her now  life without  any admirer,  her husband  was  practical not a romantic  and above all  shamina  had come to provoke  and instigate her

from previous....

.......sajida beghum  hugged  gul tightly  wrapping her arms around her,  this was unexpected  sudden  attack  that surprised  gul, amma  said she was  very sorry for her behavior  because she was responsible  for gul s life  but she never tried to understand  her , she was not  a good mother  because of her negligence and  carelessness  turning her nature to bitter,  if mother isn't good enough how can she teach her daughters to  be good women   her tone was loving  but she was herself emotionally scattered 

from previous....

.....oh  God,  head was spinning and  exploding  , when she didn't know what to do  she hid her face  with both her hands and ran  inside the  room  not knowing why  , she  fell onto her bed  and broke into tears,  

Azma  approached amma  to tell her appa was crying  and was unstoppable  , amma also was crying,   all she had for her future was these  children 

page 252..

.....he said he was sorry to  his chachi aunt,  perhaps he  had spoken  too much  and  ought to have  held his tongue,  he was leaving  in two hours,  he  passed a moment to take a deep breath,   he glanced at sajida  beghum  and then quietly  climbed up the stairs,  gul s condition was to see,  she was  completely  taken aback and  in a state of shock,  unable to  believe it  that  Hamid could  possibly have said  all that 

from previous....

....gul approached her mother asking if she had called for her,  Salida beghum was  readying  her apartment namaz  and turned to look at her,  she explained today  nafisa appa was  to visit them  accompanied by some  women  from the neighborhood,  Salida gad already met them all,  but they were  coming to see gul  for matrimonial  purpose,  they were  nice decent people,  the boy was a government  official   and lived  just  two  streets away 

from previous.....

......gul returned from the school very tired,  these were  the examination  days  ,  she had  to strain herself on setting the examination papers,  check them and recheck  again  , her head spinning she turned  crazy,  first thing she did was to  swallow her food then at  zahar offer  her namaz then  she went to her room to  take rest,  the moment her head touched her pillow she was fast asleep  , she opened her eyes at asar, she turned to get up,  she came down stairs  unexpectedly all things around looked very cool  and clean,  bedcover was neatly  spread  out on the veranda cot  the leaves of the growing plants  in the vicinity  were  dust free and  seemed  washed,  flower beds were clean and free from weeds, all looked  taken care of

page 245....

......fakhruldin s pension,  regular rent from  shops,  gul s salary  and azma  sgazya s  tuition  fees  was running  their  financial   aspect  smoothly,  they were not  very  well off yet they  were  doing  well and  living  well,  sajida  beghum had  kitty  groups   and   she was collecting  big money  , some  bonus amount was also  added   from fakhruldin  s side   they were planning  for  girls  future  security,  they  depended on nobody  and  were  managing  their  lives  themselves 

from previous....

......gul was informed by her younger sister  that ahid bhai  had arrived to stay  regarding his job so amma  was parading  every one  on double quick for past couple of hours making room for tge guest , gul screamed  why was someone  staying  8n their house,  was it a hotel  or a guesthouse,  why didn't he find  a better place to  stay,  her house wasn't an inn, sajida beghum  scowled  and snapped at gul because   the guest was a relative  who had a right to  stay with them,  gul yelled  but  why was she and her luggage  thrown out 

chlo abb maan bhi jao....

.....amma,  what  s happening,  why the whole house is turned  into  a trash dump,  why was  all the luggage  thrown scattered in the  court yard,   gul  was screaming  when she  woke up in the evening  after her afternoon  nap,  , her head began  spinning   madly,  usually amma  was a good  house keeper  but  today  all things  were  thrown around 

hawayein rukh badal gayi

.....hyder and  Ahmed ali  were  both  bothers, hyder was elder and   like  a  father  to  his  younger brother  , Ahmed ali expired  but  hyder  still  was emotionally  attached  to  the family  and  regarded as their father figure  but  his    own wife  Hamida beghum was exactly  opposite in nature to hyder  , he was gentle and kind  and she cruel and greedy  and  bad tempered 

from previous...

.....amna explained  to  the  teacher  rafya was a daughter of  a farmer  family  who  never  allowed  their  girls  to  go to school,  education  hardly  helps  them, if rafya passed  her eighth  it would  be all because girls should be trained  to be good wives and homemakers and caretakers  , rafya needed  to learn  it all  staying home  before she  is  married off 

from previous....

.....miss Nadya    had  rafya s amma  called,  raafi was very weak  in english  in school,   if she  just  took  extra classes  in english  she could definitely improve,  , tuition fees was meager  and very much  helpful,  rafya listened  to her class teacher   not breathing  at all carefully  , amma  also  heard the teacher out to the end  then  said  they were  farmers and grew  crops and vegetables 

ghalti.....

.......one  fogg morning  rafya was tying bundle of  damp dewy leafy mustard in  her ceil , amma  yelled  what was she  doing,  rafya explained   miss Nadya had asked her to get mustard leaves  freshly  cut,  she showed  how much  she  had plucked  fresh  from  the field   along with  green  leaf  vegetable  there were  roses for miss Nadya who was admiredable  and praiseworthy  

Of course  she must be  heavenly  but it was so  cold  severe and  harsh  she  could have  caught cold  plucking  leaves

from previous.....

......khalda  invited   kanwal to  come and  sit close  to her, kanwal obediently  approached and stiffly  took a chair  ,   khalda  aunty  began enquiring  her on various things  but  kanwal  answered  them  all quite  confidently,   arifa  observing them both  engrossed  8n conversation  left for the kitchen  to prepare the dinner,  she was  readying the  gravy  when she noticed  kanwal and  khalda   got up to walk up to the stairs  , minutes later  kanwal entered  the  kitchen  breathless 

from previous.....

.....khalda   extended her  empty glass  speaking  , arifa  happily nodding  stepped forward with the jug,  gazala  left  because  Hyder was waiting  for her  outside  , she promised to see them again,  if khalda appa needed something  all she gad to  do was phone her,  khalda appa was requested to take a rest for  there was still  time  to dinner 

from previous.....

......gazala declared she  must  check  upper  rooms  if they were properly  cleaned or not,  she  speaking  to herself  climbed up the stairs  quickly,    at that point  kanwal stepped into the lounge  through the main door  looking tired dressed in pink and her head too covered  in pink  , she stopped  in surprise  to see a stranger woman  sitting  in the  yard,  the woman was looking at her simply   with a faint  smile 

page 144.....

.......khalda  chirped  merrily  as gazala  listened smiling  that  living  abroad  for many years  her heart was getting  crazy,  life was spent  there,  heaven's  sake  all the  four  children were  happily settled  in their lives  , she  had  been planning  for  long  time to  visit Pakistan  but her father was dead  and others too busy  getting  along   with no time  to  spare  but thankfully  there were  many  known   and close friends  who would willingly  accommodate  her so she  decided  she  had to come  to her native place 

from previous....

......grandmother's  so called  granddaughter 

Kanwal  stuffed  the last morsel of  pickle  and  fried paratha in her  mouth  and  looked at  her mother  in surprise  who was eating  plain  roti with  leftover  gravy from previous night,  both  mother daughter  would  get  up early  at Fajr   followed by routine  cooking  starting with  morning  breakfast  usually  kanwal  landed a helping hand  or  sat by the kitchen window looking outside  at the chirpy  birds    hopping in the trees 

from previous.....

..... kanwal  mumbling to herself   sat down  again  in her  chair  and  opened her magazine  she could have   completed her story  but  she was   instructed to go upstairs to help clean up the rooms  because  soon  enough  gazala bhabhi  s guests were  arriving,  kanwal  s expression  charged  as she  looked at arifa but instead of arguing she placed the magazine before her face   showing   her  annoyance  silently 

fun e zaiqa......

......fish and potato  croquettes 

Musoori kheema 

Chicken  ginger 

Villayati Chicken  chaat 

Tomato  corn  cream  soup 

Chicken  pahari pullao 

Kala chana kebab

Alu zarda

Stay home 

Eat well 

from previous....

..... Aftab declared  from that point  onwards he had two sons,   zartab and sharable, nobody should    differentiate between the  two  because  both  were now  equal   heirs and  inherit  equal shares  , Aftab explained it to his whole family  , zaryab immediately  embraced  sahrab  as a brother 

from previous.....

.....Aftab  felt guilty   for supporting   sharable and not  sharing his feelings  with anyone,  keeping  his  diary  and keeping it utter secret,   he had vowed not to reveal a word of  it to anyone,  not even to amma,  as luck would have it,  ammi passed away within a month    it was a severe fatal  heart  stroke,   she had willed her all to Aftab,  sahrab  decided to bring  Aftab  home 

from previous....

......and  the  clear green eyes of  little  sahrab  whose head was in his  mother's  lap somehow  saw Aftab  retreat   slowly  his  heaviness of   backing off  explained him he had overheard  mother's and son  talking    it was hope giving  that  now  Aftab definitely  will  find a solution,  Aftab wali khan  was not one of the ungrateful  , he  always did  something good in return,  and soon enough  he  paid them back  for the  sacrifice  made by their  grandfather  by  buying an entire village  and gifting it all along with the house they lived in to sahrab

page 187...

..... all of  them  were  shocked,  sabin, Laila and amma , amma asked  shave what  was he  saying,  amma,s voice  thundered,  explained  shave that he was  talking  right not affected at all by their anger,  , there  already  had  happened an accident  which  couldn't be  reversed  , they couldn't even  touch  tgat big shot but  they  could take a chance  to take  advantage  of the  situation  , whole  world's  sympathy will be  with them and  tge culprit will be punished  and destroyed  and they can  get  benefit  out of this 

from previous....

.....zaya said  he would keep on breaking  all glasses  till he got to see her image in one of the crushed pieces,  she spoke  in a sad tone looking at the  crushed pieces of  glass  scattered around if it were   only possible  to wipe  away  the  pain  inside the  heart  just   by breaking  outside  glasses 

from previous....

..... the  noise of  mirror shattering was  quite loud,  she  reached the lounge  running,  zaya stood by the glass window    , tge glass was completely  broken,  how many   glasses  do you  intend to  break  she asked  him  approaching  slowly towards him,  he turned to look at her with  hurt  in his  eyes to turn  away from her 

from previous....

.....he didn't know them  but the information  that was given him  was enough  to  introduce  them,  he listened attentively  as if they were  his sympathizers,   sehrab ali khan was that   devil  who could swallow anymore  and likewise was his  son  , but  how did his  sister reach  his  farmhouse  was to be  explained  either by him or  his  sister 

muhabbet lafz hy lekin....

.....Aftab wali khan  gathered all the  luxuries of life to bestow  on his  son,  because he was the  protector  of the family,   and  Aftab wali  exactly knew how to take care of  his   loved ones  , yet all the  luxuries of life  around  were  unable to keep   asandyar s widow happy 

from previous.....

.....there was a function  being held by  elder appa   for her newborn  granddaughter , surrounding lawn  was  arranged for the  occasion,   entire  vicinity was  decorated with  shimmering lights,  arisha  and her mother  directly  went inside to meet  elder khala  whose granddaughter was  sleeping peacefully in the cot,  the governess  of the infant was present  and attentive  , mother of the child was gone to the parlor,  no other  guests had arrived because it was too  early  but arisha and her mother were warmly welcomed 

from previous....

......once upon a time  arisha , s   parents were  quite well off but the  increasing inflation  reduced them to  financially  weak  because  they had five daughters to raise  and just one  bread  earner  poor majid sahib,  he was an employee in a private company    he lived in a compact house  grateful to have  a roof over his head  in a city where  if   it's  not impossible to  find  it's very hard to get a burial place  and to have a  small house was a  definite  blessing 

page 178....

.....hearing the azaan  both   got out of their beds  , it was   their  daily routine,  abbu  left for the mosque  ammi  finished her walk and   offered her  fajr   but before   that  she  had not  forgotten to shake up  arisha  who would wake up   but  when  abbu  was back home from the  mosque  and ammi   completing her nanaz and  dua  sat telling her tasbih

from previous.....

.....kanwal  stepped into the courtyard and  threw her   charger  exclaiming  it  was tge heat and needed  a glass of water  quickly  then   froze   on the spot  to see so many  unknown  faces looking at her,  she  asked who were they  and  doing what,  

They  explained that they were  khalida aunty,s  guests  and  was she  not  arifa  aunty, s daughter  and  moving forward  the three of them  admired  her looks,  she was so  embarrassed 

from previous....

.....kanwal  was sorry for her behavior  and promised her mother to always  remember in future  to give her a  helping  hand    but  arifa was  not pleased at all  because  kanwal always made  promises  to break them  to  lose herself in  reading  magazines  she  loved   and would forget  the world and her surroundings  completely 

from previous.....

......kanwal was enjoying  reading  her favorite  magazine  sitting  on an old chair in the court yard  observed her mother  was in a serious  mood  so getting up  she  began helping out her mother  finish  her  chores  , arifa sharply  looked at her  and commented  she was already  finished  she had nothing  useful to do 

page 138...

....kanwal opened her   almond  etes wide to look at her  mother  and asked   her what was she  saying  but  arfa didn't bother to respond  and instead  pulled out a white  shirt  from  the   laundry  bucket  placed  before her  and   tightly  wrenched  it squeezing out enough water  then   flipped  it several times   to spread it out neatly  on the   line  fixed in the court yard  for  drying out the washing 

from previous.....

......she said she would speak to bhaisab herself  but maniza  had  failed  completely  in life  and  not  learnt  her life lessons well because  she was  merely  a little girl in seventh grade  when  chachi   quickly married her off to a man  double her age , she began  producing  children  not sensible enough to take care of herself  nor  was she  a good home maker at that delicate  age  nor did she know how to raise children  so several of them  died 

from previous......

......what class in school are you  asked khala najma,  she began giving her details of her tenth class and section  and  her age , khala  rolled out merrily  laughing  exclaiming how simple she was unlike other girls her age,  amma  added she liked her girl  simple  , khala  listened  patiently  the simple girl was trying to impress her by her grades and  first position,  khala  said  let  her study and don't rush her into  an unwise marriage  

page 122....

.....since her  childhood  to the  threshold of her  youth  she was  influenced  by the attitude of her father,  all other siblings got quickly  habituated to his ways except her because  secretly she  desired to be independent  , master of her own life and lifestyle,  she didn't like being  ordered around,  she dreamt  only of herself  being the authority  and not the  docile  subordinate  following  instructions  like a  slave  in silence,  but how could she  get that  position  was bothering her

from previous....

.......she was born in a middle class family,  her mother was an  ordinary  homely woman   like  others  less educated and  highly obedient,, 

Her father was a school head master,   disciplinarian and strict and hard   , he carried back his school attitude home every evening,  the moment he  reached home  all five of the children  and their mother  turned  speechless   monuments  he actively disliked   noise and got annoyed  by  voices disturbing him 

ek hi raah hy....

.......she was a working woman,  a professional who  is considered  successful,  in fact  that's what she used to believe  of herself  that she was a successful professional woman,  but her belief  was  for  past few months  getting    shakey,  she was doubting  her own  ability and capability,  she was a woman  self independent  and  it us meaningful to be  that because  this  attribute of self reliance  is  rare and not every woman  possess it   but whoever  is self reliant   takes off    to touch the  seventh  sky 

from previous....

.....all guests  who  visited them  declared  that they wanted a fair  bride  and she was awfully  dark,    their  tones  stung mother  but she remained  silent  , mother  was turning  stressed and  panicky  for sheza because  Fatima  and  sabiha  faced no obstacles  and easily got married  and  meher and afroz were  sought after  , all suitors who came  to see sheza   rejected her for  meher and  afroz 

from previous....

......many  marriage proposals were  coming  but  she was getting fed up of everyday  exhibition  of herself  presenting herself  in  style to impress others,  she couldn't  deny mother's  orders  or offend her , just for her sake  alone  sge tried to please  her by performing  her smiling  presence  before  the  expectant  audiences  

benaam...

.......she and her two brothers had taken after  their  grandmother  in looks,  dark skinned  tall  lean and  all other four sisters   inherited  their mother's  looks , fair rounded bodies plump and pretty, attracting  attention of others  but as long as grandmother lived  she was ger most favorite  child of the family  who resembled  her 

from previous....

.......he sat listening to  the softly playing  musical 

....that i completely forget you 

Now this seems  right 

But impossible it is to forget you anyway 

Because you are a reality

And  not a dream 

Here the condition of the  heart is such 

Crazy 

Not  able to forget  that  trail

That never was

Merely a t  shadow of a hought 

That  never  transformed   to words

That one  point 

I couldn't  utter ever

That one  connection between us

That  never was

I remember all that 

That never happened 

If this is  the  condition of feelings  someone  explain 

Even if someone wants to  forget you 

How  to get  that  done 

Because you are a  reality 

Not  just a dream 

 

from previous....

.....she was simmering tea when Akram came back again  from whose eyes her condition was  not hidden,  he asked her if she was making tea for  izhaar, she  was trembling still from  the   beastly  manner  izhaar treated her,  akram sent her away to stay with  grandma  till the wedding of rawa was  not over and  carried the tray himself  to serve  izhaar,  she confused took her pills and slept like a log 

Mera sara zang utaar do....

.....Izhaar  Ansari shamelessly  was expressing his personal feelings  to her who was his  wife's  sister  that he was interested  in her, she was fuming  offended  , he had fallen from  her eyes  to disgrace,  how  vulgar  cheap and  humiliating  his thoughts were  for her,  relationships  are not  built  on  dirt, embarrassed  she  stood alone as he stopped her way,  at that moment  akram emerged  suddenly  from his room  , as the door opened   izhaar quickly jumped  away  to be  seated  on a sofa some distance  away 

from previous....

.....a new doctor  was unable to establish himself  in practice  , one day he was home when the phone rang up,  his doctor  friend was on line  asking him to join them  for a game of cards  as tge fourth player,  the wife hopefully asked if it was a patient calling,  the poor  doctor explained  three doctors were already   got together  and   without him they couldn't do  anything 

from previous....

.....a  woman  to another.....want to become  beautiful  youthful and attractive like me

Second woman....if only  as  imaginative  as you will solve  all 

from previous....

.....a man who fell down from the stairs  was advised by his doctor   not to climb up  tbe stairs as long   as the  plaster was  not removed  after a month or so  ,

When a couple of months later the patient was checked and declared  fit to climb up the stairs,  the plaster  was removed,  tge patient  was relieved and said  hexwas so  thankful  because  he was using  water pipe to climb up and down to his  upper floor apartment 

from previous....

.....now  you  tell what would you  say about this unreliable nan who embezzled  a huge amount and hid it somewhere,   there the three men  got together  near the rows upon rows of neatly arranged chairs in the meeting room,  nadim  sahib, arshnan  and himdani and  nobody  bothered to  ask  hamad to sit with them  who stood  lowbrow  feeling guilty  culprit  alone  on one side 

page 56....

.....nadim sahib   in a moment turned  statue  , stunned  into silence,  meeting his brother after a gap of  many years,  both brothers  emotionally  nostalgic  yet completely  speechless  communicated  with each other  complaining  about  the other's  behavior,  embracing  each other  in their old manner   that they were used to,  nadim sahib invited him to come home for  a family  reunion,  

from previous....

.....nasim sahib  would  envy his brother  for  raising  sanbal his daughter  in such a  manner  of values and  traditions  , her sensibility and  sober nature  stability and  understanding  behavior  was impressing upon  his  thinking  that  real education was not  a collection of degrees without  knowledge and values  but  correct  education  was   the ability to  define  right from wrong  on principles  , to cultivate an  ethical  mind 

from previous....

,....sanbal was  n extraordinary  specimen of beauty personified  yet she was extremely  simple  and  unaffected  by her royal dignified  personality,   she had no airs,  she  had a natural  bent of art to touch  the hearts of  all who  came to know her,   he realized  he had been  feeling warm  for her  for quite some time  lately,  anya beghum  had started  liking  his  regular  frequent visits to their house  believing he was still interested in her daughter sana a reason for  satisfaction and pride 

page 55....

.....hyder ali was stepping into tge lounge when  he  overheard  sanbal  lecturing  sana that everyone had  a right to a personal  opinion and what  sana and her type of  other women believed  was backward  was actually  their  traditional   approach  handed down  from generation to generation,  suddenly  he  thought  sanbal a stranger  had  plucked his heart strings  that  others couldn't 

from previous....

.....anya beghum  flung a dirty look at the girl sitting  with a satisfied  smile,  after the meal was over all got  to gossiping  cheerfully,  sanbal was engrossed in her own thoughts  ,  indifferent to her surroundings,  nasim sahib  noticed her and read her  mind  , he instructed her to take a rest,  she nodded   and turned to leave 

from previous....

......he sat  upright,  he actively  disliked  being  given  instructions,  reaching the threshold of youth  he was given  freedom  to step into  the world  of education,   modern life  allows one to take all decisions  right or wrong  for himself,  now it was no  big surprise to see him  in a bad mood, he was not  used to  any kind of interference  in his matters 

page 50....

.....he sat  in quite a rage  behind  his long  office table  in a  revolving chair,  because of one  of his  worker's  carelessness  a  most  profitable  project  slipped out of his  hands,  he was  unable to provide  necessary information and documents  to the relevant  party,  his company  lost  to grab the chance  , he was blamed,  arshman was in a bad mood

from previous....

.....hyder ali shah  explained he had seen  her enter the scene,  tge food 3as  served in one  particular  direction he pointed,  his eyes  were  showing  too much concern  for her  that was disturbing,  she walked off silently  towards the  tables,  he was left gazing  at her  back offended,  what a strange person  who  didn't thank  him for guiding her

from previous....

.....the maid stood still before her perhaps waiting for her to accompany  her , she decided to first  freshen up,  the maid left shaking her head, , sge emerged  covering her head with a  very fine scarf  and walked  in the  direction from where she had come,  now the  crowd had thinned,  perhaps  the  feasting was  kept in another  location,  she realized ger mistake,  she ought to have  accompanied the maid,  she  was rooted to the spot,  she was uncertainly  looking around  when  a voice  called her out , she turned to stare  point blank into the tall man's  brown eyes

page 49....

......she  placed her traveling bag  in a corner  and   lay down in her bed,  new place,  bew atmosphere  , new  people  all so  different  was confusing,  how will it be possible  for her to get along in this strange  place  amidst strangers,   her mind  got stuck  with the  fact,   it was then  the  maid spoke again  that  beghum sahiba  gad announced  the neal was served,  she must   come  forward to have it

from previous....

.....Tahir  asked her  sitting alone in a corner  near the back stairway   what was she doing there,   the stairway  lead upstairs where just a   store was   made in a room,  it was hardly frequented,, he sat down with her , she looked  quite  lost,  , 

Why is that  one  becomes so helpless  that he can't even  decide  correctly  accepting  the decisions made by others  that are imposed upon him against his wishes  but  gives in and makes  compromises,  her  tone  brought a smile to his lips 

from previous....

.....nasim sahib felt  all old relationships,  old  friends,   old  addresses  were  merely  passtime,   he  had  now left  Karachi   for his  new  base,  if nadim sahib visited  there he would meet them all , all if his old associations  and they also  fleetingly  see him  not  even  inviting him to stay the night  with them  after  such a long journey,   its not the distance  between  places that really matters but the  distance between  hearts  that  tears them apart 

page 47...

.....how strange  that people get charged  dramatically  in their  attitude , tone , style , nadim sahib   absolutely believed  some old time vintage  spirit  resided inside him and that  thrived  on close  bondings,  the reason  nasim sahib ,s ignoring  the rough surfaces of each  and every  relationship  tried to  maintain   sincerity  and genuineness  

from previous....

.....nada  beghum  tried  her best to make   her understand  she was in the wrong  in  making  extra demands  stubbornly  choosing a field like  medical  degree course   that was very expensive,  Karachi wasn't  far away,  just next door from where she could  easily   stay connected  , quietly she  was to pack up and leave,  as a doctor  one  had to learn to adjust  with all types of crowds and be able to  and willing  to  mix  in the  wide range of family backgrounds 

from previous....

.....they who are like  paths trodden on

 Scared to breathe  a sigh of relief 

Life  is like a crumpled heart 

Moaning  widow  wails lamenting  clad in white 

Who  stays on for a while in the hope 

She  breaks into tears in  cooling empathy 

All your knowns

Soulmates 

Traversing  at night 

Spent entire life time  in separation 

Nocturnal travelers 

They become 

page 46....

......soulmates of love 

 Life that is spent  in  measuring separation  

Soulmates of love 

Distant  are together 

Travelers of night 

Commencing  journeys  at night 

On the  fires of burning  memories 

Spirit that is  aflame  in rains

Remains  unquenched

Falling at night

Deep in to the emotions 

Who shall  rescue from the sinking 

Who  can   change the fate of fallen leaves 

from previous....

....bisma entered  the scene  looking  at sanbal enquired if she was well, sanbal explained  her head was heavy  because last night she  spent  a sleepless night  reading  a most  interesting book, sometimes it happens  one  wants to  be left alone,  sanbal  did not want to share  her feelings  with anyone  not even with  bisma, she tried to shift her  glances  unable to directly face bisma 

from previous....

....sanbal silently  got herself busy in making an omelet  for herself,  she was cutting onions when  nada beghum peeped  into the kitchen and seeing her helping her bhabhi left them satisfied,  all the children   making  noisy arguments amongst themselves finished their breakfast  and ran towards their school van honking impatiently,  hugging  their elders who kissed them  pasting their  invisible inaudible prayers onto them,  Safir bhai minutes later holding his office bag left

from previous.....

.....with a heavy heart and  heavy head she turned  slowly towards the kitchen    located  outside , where tanya bhabhi was busy  making parathas for everyone,  on one   firewood  stove  tea water was boiling,  on her  arrival  tanya bhabhi  turned just a little to see her without a  word,   , morning time is always rush hour on its  hyper active peak,   Safir bhai getting ready for office,  parshohan, adnan  have their school,  rawa seen noisily  moving around,  morning routine is  lots of work 

page 44....

.......it just started to  lighten up  at daybreak,  but as if  she  was not bothered at all  of the passing time  when it  was crack of dawn and  when dusk descended,  her eyes  were vacant of sleep,  love is  ruthless to  its followers,   endless waiting turns them hopeless,  drawing the window curtains  aside she inhaled  fresh morning air,  cooling breezes  welcomed her presence,  the backyard  lawn  scene presented a delightful  sight  touching her heart,  life was  full of many  magical moments and  attractive  offers but her heart was heavy  with grief 

from previous....

.....residual of  separation lives on 

Leaving  merely  the discard

 When there is  no hope  

Consolidation  is  left

 Several hurts  are received 

No time is left 

Pain  torn  away from the heart 

Remains  fully active 

Tides  toss turn touch to return 

Shores stay eternally thirsty 

Under the spell of  acquaintance 

Just  sorrow  stays on familiar 

Time  helps forget all

Just  an explanation is left 

from previous....

.....rajya was a home  caretaker  who stayed home to finish the entire household chores and manage  the  running smoothly  and  her mother in law  raqya pressing her purse under her  armpit  ran around  the market  looking  for expensive things  she could  throw her money  generously  on  thinking  of the foolish woman at home busy   doing things  but had no taste of high society  and  the woman at home  argued with herself  how right was her mom in law  in thinking  only tge rich  knew  how  to spend money 

meri rajdulari...

.....regrets were hanging  heavy on the heart   not at all  getting of,  sorrow was quick to  multiply,  she had come to  sit in azra, s place  unaware of what all  thoughts  surrounded  her,  rawa noticed her mother in law  lost in her own deep  reverie  and looking worried   that she  understood  there was again  some   recent matter troubling her, she  gave her a cool glass of drinking water but not a  fraction of change was  visible  on  raqya, s facial expression 

from previous....

...... nobody  heeded  granny when her daughter's  children were married  but now  granny was adamant and it was her will or nobody's  because her son's  daughter was getting married,  granny had absolute  control and  was happily ordering everyone around,  her sons and daughters-in-law  were all ears unlike her sons in law,  there was just one  young protest  presented from one of granny's  weird crazy   grandsons who threatened her police might catch her for air pollution  her  cooking  on open  firewood  will produce  smoke 

from previous.....

...... it was  a special occasion  of Nikah function  and granny  never  liked the idea of  readymade  foods served by  famous caterers,  she  believed  getting  choicest meats  cooked  in the  vicinity of your residence  on  chopped  wood   burning  in old-fashioned traditional manner  brought  good fortune  and prosperity  to the family 

page 17....

...... farugh  had been several times  to house  of bigger  granny in the neighborhood accompanied by  big amna,  in fact every  visit to husband khala was followed with a visit to the  neighborhood, it was considered  against  cultural  ethics for common relatives to just visit  khala and not visit granny who was the oldest reigning  granny  of the clan 

from previous....

....farugh  stood up quickly  shuddering,  what was the  use of reading so many books,  stiring them in piles, alia explained  books were addictive,  reading was a  habit  like addiction,  once  a person  catches this  virus  of reading  books  doesn't  get over it all his life,  alia  poured  steaming hot  boiling water to  their cups  and dipped  green tea sachets  for  a few minutes  before removing them  and then pushed the  tray  towards  farugh asking her to carry the tray to serve the guests,

from previous....

....ali bhai  was quite a learned man  of tge Wikipedia kind  she gad been listening to for past four years increasing her knowledge,    she was free to share and speak  up on any  topic  with him,  alia mixed freshly chopped veggies into the mayonnaise  showering fruits  onto  it,   finishing her  task she  began washing off her hands in the sink,  farugh  rather tentatively asked if ali was also  like that,  she didn't want to add tge word bhai  to such a handsome man, 

from previous....

....fraught and alia were talking why wasn't she married 

She was beautiful and intelligent,  it was easy,  if she were just  beautiful  someone  might have  noticed her and  seriously  proposed  or she  herself would    have reached  a conclusion and taken a decision  but  extraordinary  intelligence  sometimes  proves  and poses  obstacles 

Farugh added  specially  for women,  their society was still lagging  far behind  in such progressive  matters,  an intellectual and intelligent woman is considered an intolerable  problem  not  just by men but  more often by women  who actively dislike  brains in beautiful women 

page 15...

....alia put the  tray inside the oven  adding  more  information  to her  knowledge,  western culture,  oriental culture,  South Asian  politics,  from worldwide to modern  world,  from history to religion  , she could  get long lengthy  lectures explaining   thoroughly  in detail  each and every  topic in his conversations,   four years ago she was doing her matriculation  , now she was in her graduating degree course,  sge had been  listening to him all these years, 

from previous....

.....husband khala was a poor sweet thing without hassles  no attitude  plain simple and  nice,  not a single streak of ego cunning or rudeness,  farugh  was aware of her daughter  was a friendly  soul  , she got  along well  but  she  was  not  much  acquainted  with  the son of th family,  she  had no  desire to  make  any  speculation,  there was no need for it,   husband khala and aila were  enough  

At night  she could hardly sleep,  every time she  shut her eyes  distorted  images were highlighted 

from previous....

.....farugh   used to visit this house  as a visitor  for a couple of hours  now  she felt like  a captive  for three  months  ,  in her heart she was really annoyed with amma  but  reality and facts  remained  unchanged  whether  she  liked it or not  nobody was bothered  even if she  remained  fuming  

from previous....

.... she was left behind  by amma  in hasna khaka,s  care,    in jiddah first  amma   on priority  basis  would  go on umra with her son  and daughter in law  to  stay on for the expectant mother  for her delivery  the  following month,  for farugh  the family members were not so  unknown  like absolute  strangers 

izhar kyuon nahi krti...

.....farugh pleaded looking at ger  senior  amma  to take her along  with her,   the stranger who was now  more familiar   was with her, sge was leaving for   jiddah, amma  explained  if only she  could  she  definitely would  take her along  but she was so  helpless,  , just tgree months  wait will pass off in a   snap adding  gently  then  she will return  and  they will meet again and remain together  but three months  take three  months time  to pass not in three winks

hidayat for matala...

..... students  who are  willing  are eager enthusiasts  and can focus  better in their  subject matter if  they have  no inner and outer  disturbances  , they also   are more involved and more  deeply interested  in learning  their  lessons  and prefer  regular punctual  practice  time,  expanding their  mental  shapes  building  up brain muscles as a result  polishing their  intellectuality  and  increasing their  capabilities  

mian biwi aur jhagda....

.....Ohio  University  expert  team  conducted a  research  on forty couples  and found out   actively aggressive  couples  who  physically  hit  each other  their  injuries  take  longer  time to heal  even though  all types of  first aid and medications  are provided  their healing process  and progress is slower than those couples  who are  more strongly stable  and emotionally bonded 

shabb barat....

......rasool salallahoalleywassulum  thus spoketh  to his  faithful followers  to fast on tbe fifteenth of the  shabyan and stay awake  whole night because  almighty  that evening after sundown  turns to the skies of the world to look  for all those who seek  , HE  then fulfils  the wishes of the seekers,  granting   according to their needs and  asking,  jobs  to the job seekers, bread to the  bread seekers,  health to  the health seekers  till the night is over and daybreak  of the next morning  spreads  sunlight 

arq gulab...

.....rose is a flower  that defines beauty  romance  and good health  care significance of positive energy,  its petals,  fragrance and  extract  are also available for  several uses,    rose perfume  is air purifier,  its aroma  is additional  bonus  for foodies  because  rose flavors  are more popular,  rosewater  washes away  dirt  from  eyes