succhai ki manzil

...evergreen park  at that time was full of  women  and the old  and children , the life in the park was vibrant and colourful , , angelic children sat tight on the swings scowling ling or laughing merrily  their noises as melodious and musical  filling up the surroundings ,  enjoying every moment universe geld out to them, , these were the times precious and full of beauty , how absolutely ultimately  real the scene was , he felt an outsider a stranger intruding the  scene  in the ground from where he sat on a bench he had given a  disinterested look 

No, all thus us not absolute, if all the colours in the universe are complete  then why is his own life so empty and dark, he whispered to himself, once again he was overpowered by his depressing thoughts

There is nothing that is apparent and visibly clear, if only , if only life could be as good as our dreams and desires

gazal by kaniz zohar sayad

..night before the dawn of separation is yet to come

Chill air starless night without the moon is yet to come

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My heart my soul all are sold out

But talent of showering life on others yet is there

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Hopelessly in vain i try to forget him

Something of his essence of togetherness is yet in me

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Whole world was seen  with deepest interest

A corner  in my heart is yet to be seen

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.seeing him on the top of the world kaniz 

Presence of someone s prayers is truly felt

mana umr wahi

...he had just drove past in his vehicle this way, sun was shining bright on the black gate ,  the tyres  had risen a cloud of dust  visible still , when he was leaving  her heart  desparately wanted to stop him , but she could not  she would not , after all what right did she have to stop him , unaware a commotion  was already made  her emotions were stirred, he  had  crushed all her dreams settled on her eyes  like a victorious ruthless invader, she like always unsuccessfully tried to pat her stormy feelings  back to slumber  in the depths of her heart only she knew exactly where

But the winds teased her they were playing mischief  uncaring of her feelings ready to play with her naughtily loosening her tresses  caressing her face  and she discovered his  invisible presence  in the winds touching her

fun e zaiqa

...chutpati dhuandahi raan

Mutton pullao biryani

Mughlai chops

Kaleji masala with mayonese

Bhuna hua gosht

Shehnshahi koftey

Bakrey ke paye

Muthiya kebab

Mutton seekh kebab

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Chutpati dhua dahi raan is simple recipe of  mutton leg marinated in spices for a couple of hours before baking it in oven on 200 degrees for forty five minutes on one side then turn it on the other side to bake till tender , finally a piece of coal  is smoked to add the smoky flavour 

page 187

...van quodr

Run tiwards that thundering roar 

This was instructed by the old wuse to their youngers

That whenever you are threatebed , you are confused , uncertain what to do next,

Run to take shelter, to save yourself

Charge  insread towards the threat the danger itself  , confront the danger  you are scared of , that is the only way to reality to really protect yourself

That s the correct escape route

When the whole world shakes  in chaos trying to dusappear itself into oblivion , tgen run tiwards the riaring danger --mikal

I am nit divorcing zayad , this was the first thing she had spoken , she stood  with her faceturned towar the windiw , mahi could see from her place her loose hair bun  and her back, she remained speechless without reacting to her statement , finally to ask her did she hear it right what she said, sge came to stand befire her in sheer disbelief

page 231

...during the old  times an american soldier was returning , he caught a train in france , because it was over crowded he could not find himself a place to sit down, he asjed and old french lady to accommodate him  and  hold ger pet dog in her lap, she humiliated him for being an. american , without arguing he took another round through the crowded  train and he again requested the frenvh woman to move her dog from the seat next to her  so that he could sit down, he was already exhausted from the war , the woman again humiliated him for being an american, the soldier simply lifted the pet and threw him out of the windiw of the moving train, one english man was watching this whole episode with deep interest and commented to the soldier that the americans alwats did the right thing the wrong way, drive on the right side, held the fork the wrong way and now instead of throwing the woman out he threw the poor pet out

kinara

..manwar held a letter from appa in his hands, it was not her first letter,, in three months all three sisters  had sent several letters to him , its time to return to your native land

Having read the letter he was quite surprised, what to do next , he had his two children with him who were born and brought up away from hindostan  in a foreign land  their lifestyle was completely different from their relatives back home, after all how will these children adapt themselves to new culture  , they were absolutely modern and free  of any inhibitions open minded , grown up in the modern world without any reservations and no restrictions of tradtions to stop them , no boundaries were ever set for them anywhere 

His wife got ready early everyday to drive off to work, after that domestic maid reacged their place to help children to get ready for school, school van punctyally picked them up, the maid  was responsible to manage the household chores and served him his breakfast before leaving  followed by him leaving for his work 

Children would come home after school to eat maggyfor lunch or burger or pizza  and lock themselves up in their rooms

gazal by. wasim bareli

....skies so high shows arrogance

Forgets its visibke only from below

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Time is just time unstoppable as ever

Simply slips through fingers invisible

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Whoever comes entertains and performs

Left thirstying for more and more

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.ignorance is not  left  to remain silent

Speak up to resolve  a conclusion

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.my feet are not destined to

 cross your path  leading to your abode

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.noises rose pouring into the ears

Now it is clearly visible

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.only if you wish you may stop me

Or what is it to your world who i am

sb sitarey tum rkh lo

...my daughter cant be immoral

Exploded raunaq jahan s voice, tonight was going to prove impossible for all , and those fuve characters had frozen like theater  

Prifessir sahib  s rest was not disturbed  a bit , though raunaq jagan was still  hyper  , hiccups shaking her  , her wailing taking high notes ,  outside glass windows  all the stars sewn in the sheet of the ethreal sky were spread out 

Dont  dump so much filthy accusations on my daughter  for heaven s saje , sge folded her gands  humbly , standing near by was doctor uhala who swiftly discivered the condition of the mother, she quickly reacged her side, dont you wirry , everything will be finestay xalm and rekax please

Raunaq lifted ger etes, looked carefully at her daughter tgen turned to stare at the professor who was quite comfortable sitting there rather like a stupid man

angna phool khilengey

..shanya, what are you saying, they sat in a restaurant , there was not much rush yet it wss crowded , what do you think you can talk wasim into getting married to you, natasha tried to turn off the speaker  but she was stopped by wasim 

She did not care what the world believed , today was the day truth must be exposed 

You cant turn wasim against us  by sweet talk

Shanya what makes you speak like this  , we are engaged to get married 

There will be no marriage , shanya cut her in between sharply , you are not at all worthy of becoming my bhabhi, wasim s face turned red

Wasim loves me and i love him too , you cant  interfere in our life, natasha bent forward to clutch wasim by his hand 

He loves arram too so what

Wasim s eyes were burning now

She could not settle in his life nor will you threatened shanya

sb sitarey tum rkh lo

...my daughter cant be immoral

Exploded raunaq jahan s voice, tonight was going to prove impossible for all , and those fuve characters had frozen like theater  

Prifessir sahib  s rest was not disturbed  a bit , though raunaq jagan was still  hyper  , hiccups shaking her  , her wailing taking high notes ,  outside glass windows  all the stars sewn in the sheet of the ethreal sky were spread out 

Dont  dump so much filthy accusations on my daughter  for heaven s saje , sge folded her gands  humbly , standing near by was doctor uhala who swiftly discivered the condition of the mother, she quickly reacged her side, dont you wirry , everything will be finestay xalm and rekax please

Raunaq lifted ger etes, looked carefully at her daughter tgen turned to stare at the professor who was quite comfortable sitting there rather like a stupid man

jaltey sitarey

....preparations of eid of sacrifice had begun , air was filled with roasting meat aroma ,  streets were impatiently waiting for  their  turn to relish , condition of jamil was  no different, he was eighteen but looked  twelve , he was growing beard to look more mature than his frail  appearance, his family profession was  to clean dirt, but he chose to educate himself, his ancestors were honest and hardworking , his second year exams were just over when dilawar met with an accident leaving him incapable of work,  therefore jamil was seen cleaning up the streets, around helplessly , tge burden was shifted on hus weak shoulders

Abbu ji, why dont you apply for leave, he asked  dilawar

Its suicidal for our financial condition explained abbu ji  to his  inexperienced but educated son practically, we wait eagerly for festive eids in the hope of getting more, making more,  having more

page 128

....some days passed happily, but then her son became quite  aloof and uncommunicative , silent and stayed unresponsive , his job kept him otherwise away, , even huma s leave was over, mother had retired andwas obliged to stay home , huma started going back to the college, she started showing her true nature and colours , , she would wake only fifteen minutes earlier to leaving for college, put on layers of heavy nakeup, dressed up in heavy designers , left without pleasantries, after college visited her maternal parents and returned after dusk, these were of course early days after marriage so mother ignored her behaviour completely but after tgree months of such routine it was time to speak up her mind

Dear, try to give some time to this household too, let us know the taste of your cooking, let us get familiar and close to each other in several domestic ways

position holder

..what awesome crazy games life plays with us, its a normal common statement repeated by everyone, what games does life play, its so easy to shift all  the blame on life for all the mistakes we do ourselves to damage us, all the miscalculations  , arthmetic gone wrong is dumped quickly on lifes shoulders,  life is not a play at all , life is a challenge a test,  this test of life is so severe any carelessness any unwilling move every cheating and  wrong doing is watched directly by the supreme almighty, nothing goes unseen , , each mistake has its own consequences and punishments  no second chances no chances for rectifications , no life refunds merely miserable life left with pained regrets and tears  what if life is plainly defined as honest work

page 215

...nurse: there us a remedy for your obesity

Patient: whats that

Murse: just eat one chapati

Patient; before or after my meals

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Peer to murid: nake a wish iand it sgall be granted

Murid: make me unmarrued again

Peer: you can not ask for jannat

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 husband : today whatever i am its my own hard work

Wife: :so all my complaints against you  in prayers to almighty were in vain

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,wife: what if i become fat will you still love me

Husband: no, i took vows to be together in good times and bad times not in your obesity

Wife: please dont speak like that i  i would die of heartbreak

Husband:  you dont speak of your death i could die of sheer happiness

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,wife: dear husband  i have reduced to half my size in your separation and memory  in a fortnight  ,missing you, when are you returning

Husband: just wait another fortnight

dost

....yura reached the office to meet annie to find him sunk into deep layers of files 

How come you lost your way into my office today smiled annie curiously

I was just crossing this area  so thought of visiting you as well  dragging a chair yura answered as he sat down

Had i not known you i would have believed that spoke annie meaningfully glancing back at him, tell me the real thing

Overheard  henry is not well , i was out of town , ever since my return it was on my mind , his  phone was not answering so decided to see you personally because you both work in the same office, you can tell me about him

I have also not seen him for quite some time , last time i saw him was when we both had visited him together explained annie

That time he was quite well  , i was actually hoping he had recovered by now spoke yura stressing on his mind  

page 123

..it is believed he who has no resources to go on hajj  can get unexpected chance to make his holy trip if he prays regularly  and his journey brings peace and safety in his life.

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It is said the horrible satan has two attributes to control others , his followers use that method of carrot and stick to maintain their control on others, its like using carrot  to entice  or threatening others with stick  for complete surrender , greed and fear are basic survival  instincts people have that satan as predator and his ruthless followers practise on innocent preys

jungle

...we are always surrounded with nature  in its real form,  days and nights in rotation , bright sun shines , colourful floating clouds are revealed  , flying birds in the sky , lush  green growing fields, winds blowing in summer and winter , this all remains the same, its our inner climate of emotional moods that is forever changing , when we are disappointed the world is lost , a feeling of hopelessness fills up our life with miseries, everything feels is actively going against us, when unhappy everything feels is saturated with sorrow outside, , hapoy mind feels the world is showering happiness, 

beghr

...he glanced at tge dashboard, tge time showed seven   nearing dusk , he was driving through  new mexico  province , he stopped at a nearby  truck spot in the highway , he saw him sitting there on a bench 

It was july  summer evening , he had been driving for nine long hours , he had covered more than eight hundred kilometers, his plans included quick dinner followed by driving three hundred more kilometers on the road , to stay leftover   night at a motel on the way 

The first important thing was  his burn side chemicals  job keeping him going, second main point was karin  who was impatiently waiting fir him in los angeles, they had not seen each other for oast two weeks , he was madly in love with her , he hooed it was mutual feeling  though she spoke  not so frankly on the phone about her feelings for him

It was not that she did not love him , it was just that she was rather reserved  about articulating her love very openly

kuch qurbanya anmol hoti hy

....amma was miserable crying over  her unfortunate circumstances,  everytime she tried to reach out towards almighty some type of obstacle fell between her  path preventing her from  making it to her desirable goal , she was moaning  visibly and audibly  before others , her misfortune  relentlessly stopped her from  joining her almighty, she was cursed sinner , her pleadings were  gone unheard in her daily prayers, dear almighty , do something  to help me out she wailed  emotionally overwhelmed

Amma now what has happened lately to make you so theatrical , what makes you so accuse your own life , what obstacle is preventing you , asked daughter manza handing  amma a glass of water and then  sitting by her side warmly

gazal by dr nisar jaipuri

....crispy childhood hidden in arms

Little boats  move in  emotional heart

Some glowing worms  fly around

In my dried monsoon  of eyes

Desires of blossoms  keep me going

Gathered are rocks and pebbles in my arms

Bloom rose like  children  when

Smiles natural sunshine in my yard

Whoat  did know nisar would come

Paper flowers gathered in my arms

heerey ki pehchan

...hina had crossed the threshold of youth and the world stirred into action, ,  she was born beautiful and  youth  carved her perfectly , as a toddler she fondled by everyone , her cute apple red cgeeks were  pinched and kissed  , everyone liked the adorable kid and liked to cuddle her 

Her family naturally  adored her and the whole village  loved her for her angelic looks and amiable nature

She was birn to a poor village farmer , but she was raised  like a princess , she was loving and  generous, she had one more sister  but nit as much pretty , she also was quite attached to hina , shiwered with so much love hina  became arrogant and self centered, she did not respind to her sisters love fir her nor did she respect her feelings  at all , hina did not help in the fields nor at home  , mother did not care of her behaviour , father had other things to do

When hina crissed the threshold of youth from childhood  many  young lads list their  hearts , her height  , lovely eyes , shapely figure  strawberry cream compkexion all  were great attractions

page97

....hasan karim had returned  home from australia  and right now was sitting in his room  playing games  when his father gave a knock in the door before entering inside 

Hi dad

Father walked up to him to stand near him 

What gas happened to haris  he asked hasan directly 

Haris wanted to escape by thinking if saying who is haris  but that would have stretched his fake too far, instead he pretended innocence, what do you mean , he false innocence appeared so real, has something gone wrong

I  met him in dubai , he did not look good, he also gas given his job up from the enterprises , ahmed karim s eyes were watcged him thoughtfully

He lives in dubai, pressing a button online  spoke hasan  and you went all the way to dubai just to see him

Dont  pretend you did not visit him there , father moved forward and turned off the screen 

ek dost ke liye

...this journey of life

This relationship with you

If you dont come along 

How will i  get along

The limits of my thoughts

Incredible it may be

Not a single moment without you 

Is bearable to pass

You are not with me

When are you not with me

In the enclosure of memories

In lands of dreams

Depths of my deepest thoughts layered

In my eyes 

In my heart soul and body

In all my secret desires

During darknesses at night

During illuminations bright

Yes its only you

All around if

You are not with me

In all my prayers its you

Just one wish of you

Beyond this wish nothing exists

How much i love you

You have no idea

nehle pe dehla

...the  dimly lit rooms were surrounded with  absolute silence , the night had slipped into its darkest mood  yet the area had stirred  alive  with human commotion , fast food shops were  were arranging their stalls   and ciunting the profit they had made all night selling  fast food and  keeping the leftivers for the next time before going home, the night watchman  blew his whistle  fir the last time as a signature whistle and began smoking a cigarette his sense of duty ended with  the kast whistle  he was free to relax , he stretcged hus legs and  enjiyed hus smoke for a while leaning against  a general store before going back home , he would stop by a masjid on tge way to offer his fajar nanaz

Azan  was followed by compkete silence , within minutes  approaching footsteps were heard, all were snartly dressed and their feet  had barsoli shies in , these  footsteps  turned and stopped  on a riad befire a brown door

page 96

..fatima was ready to leave for office, holding her mobile  to her ear listening and speaking   to someone in  a rmal nanner, when  she heard a knock on the door , she moved towardx the door , zarar stood yhere  clad in white shurt and bkack trousers , a bandage on his firehead and a scar on his cheek , he appeared ready to attend  a meeting 

He only wanted  to iinform her to contact him immeduately whenever and if she was harrassed by anyone  like jamal or faced any type of danger

She nodded  her consent  in silence  , she wanted to speak to zarar and ask what was happening with him , but she stood tgere silent and unmoved, life became easier with him , his presence was a promise of safe boundaries, zarar moved ahead , it was true he came to tell her that but that was not all , he had a most important medting today , he secretly wanted to  have a glimpse of her before that   meeting

page 92

...both of them had come to the hospital, zarar was lying in bed, , fatima stood  some distance away listening to what the dictor was explaining , the doctor was checking zarar but all his attention was  focused on fstima  or thus us what he thought, before jamal  incident he was not like this at all, , but now he was more alert and  aware , fatima went outside to listen to her call,  , doctor appriached her, 

Where has that miss gone he asked casually

Why, asked zarar glaring to swallow him up alive , having a beautiful wife prived a curse somewhat

naiki

...

...jimmy decided to cooperate with the authorities , he had become a sworn informer witness giving details of dangerous  people, naturally  his own life was in danger now, he had disapoeared completely after getting  involved in this  deadly scenario, , the narrator is called by many names but to locate him easily he is popularly known as the office man , he is paid for his indispensable services to do the difficult job of cleaning up other people s mess, he was hired now to find jimmy,

One day he was in nanzel , he was handed a bouquet of white roses without any sender s name but there was the florist s card , after that it was not difficult for the office man to track and locate the florist and the sender, jimmy s location was found, in newyork

Reading

Huma urdu digest

my opinion

: Getting attention

Pretty bold woman  whatever age ,single too bad for men

 And for women who like those men

 Because single women are a threat 

 Such men take advantage  of being men These men are not above  parents or family

 Whats yr opinion

mahir nafsyat

...., he sat  in a chair opposite james looking at his face feeling scared a bit too, james face  was covered with old scars , even without these frightening scars his face was quite  frightful   evoking awe 

It was not just his face and looks that sent chills  he was the  top local bully  notorious ruffian in town , every decent citizen knew his name and was completely  scared to death  so it was not unusual for him to be scared too

His name was mikal a mexican just recently  come to america , he has been in this locality for a year now , a senior manager in a small company, , not paid well but because he had no family with him no wife no chilldren , just single  he was able to manage it  well for himself, he had shifted in thus area to save time in commuting

from previous

..two friends were duscussing  their expenses , one of them asked the other what was it the mist expenssive thing he ever bought

Marriage ring, replied the other, it costs  me increased  weekly expenses doubling with time

page 118

..he had just reached his cabin when one constable on duty salim informed  him there was someine come to see him , without asking who was it he asked him to send the visitor inside! Saluting him the constable turned around smartly and left, during this episode he was posted in gujranwaka city police station, he had jyst recently taken cgarge over tgere, he was sent tgere on emergency duty, the incharge of the station fazal mehmood sahib was killed in action , he was quickly posted there to fill up the vacum, 

The nan who entered was in hus fifties, a dark skinned short man , he looked quite worrued 

He welcomed him in a professional manner pointing to a chair next t the table , asking him politely how could he help him , dragging the chair he came to sit directly opposite him,

I am junaid ali he introduced himself heavily

from previous

... it was pouring rain outside, , inside one professor sat engrossed in reading his favourite book, , suddenly his wife shook him by his shoulder the cat is roaming around here inside ,

Ugh, he  did not take his eyes off from his reading

I asked you to  throw the cat out, perhaps you did not hear me out , the cat is still inside the room

Is the cat still inside?, strage , i  had thrown the cat out, then nervously asked his wife to check if their infant was there in the crib or not

page 115

..two traveling agents meet aftrr ages, , one of them compained about his life , it was a vad day today he moaned,   at several places   was rebuked , i was humiliated on other places , people merely frowned down upon me and shut the doors on me , others  many roared scowled and growled scaring me off , i could not sell any thing today

What are you selling these days

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