gazal

...every time our ryes met

Old memorues kindled

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Faces expressed clearly  emotions

Hidden and carried deep in the hearts

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.excellence in expressing  eloquence

Increased with each experience if hurt feelings

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.never be in love with the kinds

Whose very nature is faithlessness

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.temoting and ellusive this world is

Slipping out of catch  unobtainable far  beyond

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.heart  feels heavy in gatherinfs 

Almighty , orayers to you i offer

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.why speak  blaming of strangers  

Nazim  our souls are badly bruised by our own

deewangi

...  that  crazy lover  who has lost hus mind is usually seen sitting by a couple of graves in the  main city cemetery mumbling to himself , once upon a time he was a famius doctor , a reputed surgical specialist , owner of a  massive  private hospital , then one day what happened  was   everything  ended , now he like a spirit  of misfortune   roams the streets and crossings of the town  speaking to himself, his filthy apoearance   old rags dirty face  contradict he ever was a rich  doctor 

page 183

...located  amidst the vast blues of tge skies  the brightly shining sun casted its  white rays directly  on the ground bathing it in its divine light  , the ground was full of all sorts of people 

 Lush green  trees  and adjoining  roofs of cottages surrounded  the church  with its sloping roof and architecture that stood there befire him  in its full majestic form

Sir vatese church  absolutely fantastic , was a treasurehouse of heritage and renarkable history lineage built one thousand years ago  in german architecture  during the ekeventh century  contained ferman streak  explained serena  in her cool voice, sir vetese was a preacher fearless enough to promote christianity , he was buried  underneath  , king henry then  turned  the building into a chapel , serena was speaking in englush all this long but zaran s expression was clearly  uninterested in historic facts  of the building 

page 71

....sheru,  spoke wasi , i have lost my new pair of shoes, , their merry laughter escaped from their mouths , perhaps it was an episode of the stolen shoes , intense fear of ammi jan.  settled on  him bringing hot tears to his eyes

Next stop was at the boat swing 

Depositing the money they. All  climbed up to settled themselves on the wooden planks , they were unstoppable at their mischief  making , a woman sat near by , wasi s elbow hit her bloated stomach  , the expectant mother  gave him two hot slaps on his face,  screaming are you blind  cant you see i am expecting , it was quite embarrassing scene realised wasi

So what  me too , i too have a stomach to take care of 

She looked  at him with surprise  

 Meantime the swing had started  , the excited noise erupted from the criwd, as the speed incread, increased the volume and  crazy shrieks  drowning the screams if this group of boys , wasi dug his teeth in the expecting woman s arm, whose shrieks rose  drowning his  and theirs were sunk together in the rising cresendo , finally their heads began spinning and the swing was stopped mid air, no refund , and extra payment to the victim woman they got down  , he was still walking bare feet , fear of ammi jan  doubled his troubles,  sheru declared he would help and procurred folded pair of  thin handnade pair of leather  provincial shies out of his pocket , he had been hiding them all this time, 

They reached nanu s boundary wall scared to death murmuring is there somebody there

Nobody there, because somebody is here came the angry vouce if nanu from behind the wall

phir uss rah guzrein

...november 21  2005

Time  dusk rapudly descending darkness

To my dear friend adi

I am  constantly praying  life  may shower  on  you  all the wonderful  blessings  from all sides  and you stay forever carefree   happy  as i left you  when i died, i write this letter  addressing only you instead of others  because several uncounted years have passed  but i still remember quite clearly it was only you who always was interested in being the head  of  us all 

You are not jyst my brother  but more than that  like a mother   affectionate and sincere in your love fir me , you were ever ready to protect me and overly cautiious  , this courage to protect  comes naturally to mothers , we were four of us adi, now also we are four of us , because i am certainly present amidst you

yunhi rstey mein

....she was simply  taking one step after another walking forward without thinking unaware of the surrounding world

Mikal is quite nice , dear he will definitely take  wonderful care of you , on her mental screen the morning breakfast scebe replayed like a film scene 

But daddy i dont want to get married  just niw  , she refysed the proposal at her level , either sides of  the  walkway were  lined up with colourful flowers but sge did not see them 

Why  wont you marry him , its a million dollar contract , they are the top  industrial group ready to  partner with us, spoje her stepmom rina 

Still engrossed in her own worrying thoughts  turned the corner on the street

Your mother is right dear , they are willing to transfer several factories on your name 

She had looked into her fsther s eyes where she realised  rina had successfully   managed to register her own thoughts 

No way daddy, i am not agreeing to any of your business  deals 

She wanted desoarately to lose herself in that crowd forever so that she will never be found again 

plan

...it was absolutely unbelievable he tgought , that russle would do something like that  spoke  faltering christan in a voice  drowned in overwhelming sorrow , from his eyes and face   incredible  misery dripped , pamela looked towards him , he sat there on the carpet his head clutched with his both hands , he was powerless  and collaosed  with  defeat

Russle did absolutely wriong, taking  extrene wrong step is not the right solution to any  situation  pamela gently spoke up, she too was grieving why russle did this

When miserable man  feels its impossible to go on  all ways to get out are shut the end has approached  then he loses his sense of judgement, he cant correctly tell right from wrong  , rubbing his eyes commented christan 

 Its so  sad he was your clise friend , what all are you going through is unimaginable  pamela understoid his  situation  completely, just gather yourself  , pamela s tone was consoling

page 161

..in south california  university   he was  given admission and for over a year he was working very hard  earning his living doing part time jobs  overtime , they were not enough but still  he was  managing  somehow , he was a hardworking student like he was in college, he had no other friend besides arthur , he did not want to have a friend circle but then catherine came along into his life

She was their classfellow  but he bever oaid much attention to ger anyway , unlike nirmal girls catherine  was very tall  yet she was proportionate and looked innocent , tge following year both of them represented their class in comoetitions together, both shared  a passion for writing stories , bith were business students but were more deeply interested in literature,  outside their classroom they met a few times and  apparently she was drawn like a moth to him

dushman dost

...introducing catherine to arthur was his life s second most terrible mistake, now every one if you must be thinking what was his first mustake , so let me tell you , the first  biggest mistake  was making friends with arthur, it was when he had just stepoed onto the threshold of youth, he was like any other ignorant youth enjoying every moment in life  unaware of the troubles life   holds  , arthur appeared  with his brown gair  blue pair of eyes  , a clever looking face , the narrator had few friends in college  , he used to sit alone in the classes  and arthur occupied the seat next to him , introduced himself hi i am arthur just got admission yesterday , his tone was informal 

I am christan introduced the narrator himself , i am here from the beginning of the session  , his voice was rather rude , though he was not a loner nor bored it was simpky arthur himself whise prsence christan  actively disliked  then 

Christan, why do you sit so far  cut off from others, silent , dont you have any  friends in the class , his eyes were fixed on a girl sitting two rows ahead , her posture revealed every  attractive  angle  inviting  boys   glances 

pàge 147

...rukhsar ridiculed simply  if love was not an error and disturbance in mind 

Sayad murad stopped her gently to speak like that  because she was quoting  ghalib s coupket tge latter half part incomplete aand the twisted version to prove her point, but ghalib wrote it to explain his situation ,it was a narrative of his past experience. 

But i am not at all interested in listening to any piets  love life sge spoke impatiently  and i am not passing any law against love and romance  she added annoyed , nasir was in love  with nazbi  and this disturbed state of his mind sent him behind the bars 

I got my answer to my question , whether falling in love with nazbi was nasir s disturbed mind or a matter of heart  clearly rukhsar was unhappy that  nasir chose nazbi

page 60

...what

I got the job

Really, where

Women s university, temporary but will become regular, administration side sports coordinator , just come back from going through the mail , womens university what on earth is that, during the mughal era womens mina bazar was popular , where entry for men was not allowed, its so laughable 

Mumma what is your point instead of being happy you seem to be against it, 

Where is this university its not famous like mina bazar 

Near nahida khalas house

Then nira realised the university was located in a posh area and massive indeed 

Do like this,  you stay with nahida because its a long way from here

, you will save three hours commuting

case

....this particular case gad started somewhere and then soon enough took a different direction all together, and it was considred absolutely normal and not at all surprising, in  matters of law such things jeep on happening all the time , it has to ve handled most carefully

It was the last phase if the mon5h of august, as dar memory recalls oerhaps twentueth or twenty first of tge month, the investifatir sat inside his office cabin , outsude monsoon was aggressively active, , that year monsoon was hyoer active,  it was unstoppable even after  

He pucked up his intercom to speak with his secretary an update on the waiting room

It was cold and emoty perhaos because of the incessant pouring rains

khushrang hua manzar

....nahida s nand s marriage was fixed, sitting at the breafast table  shared nairo bi, her daughter minal doing justice with her food got up mumbling

As if  nobody cares about mushaim  and look they are busy  eating their food, 

Right, mushaim did not complete her  m s c  but you are free for past three months  commented nairo bi as if she was one of their wicked neighbour not the mother , maya  looked surprised her mouth agape  then spoke softly may god  bless all my children , 

Maya was an old veteran lady  sharing one bedroom attached bathroom set  with nairo bi , nairo bi a bank officer found  maya s presence very convenient and supporting though they had different personal   opinions   about matters in life

Nairo bi  had exploded her news highlighting it but felt it was becoming one of the inner page small print line  so she glared at maya for her inappropriate reactions , maya was dressed in light green sari  and grass green cardigan a shawl wrapoed around she was lost in happy thoughts of her own 

That crazy old woman gets ready every morning early  as if she has to catch a train , cant she just forget her officer life is over  she is  retired  ,  nairo bi bitter pressed her lips tight but the words escaped from them out falling out one by one clear enough

page 57

...today it was ali s sister s son s  wedding day, ali was surprised siema was not asking to get her a new outfit, nor did she pick up small irritating  arguments nor was she  showing any signs if bruised feelings , he returned in the evening to find  siema s sari she had wore once on his  brother s function , he was taken aback , how was this possible, it was even more surprising , siema entered the room drying her wet hair  smiled at him saying quickly get ready dear or at the last moment you become so dramatically confused , thinking about her good mood he went in for a shower , he emerged to find her humming to herself  almost ready and putting on her jewellery, her fluffy hair blow dried   looked very nice on her, , she observed his appreciation and asked him cheekily to quickly get ready  my emperor, 

They reached the marriage hall where all the sisters were gathered and noticed siema make her entry in the once before worn sari, quick to be sarcastic a comment cut the air if this was not the same sari she wore for the brother s function

Ali dreaded  this was the moment  which will spoil the whole show

But siema turned never dropping her self composure of course sisters it is tge same but how can i ever refuse to obey the commands of my emperor who wishes to see ne in some particular outfit, ali wanted me to appear like this and gave a pure flirtatious smile of a soulmate to him who smiled back  , the guests suddenly became spellbound their sarcasm shattered to pieces with their thorough wickedness replaced with envy

shaitan nama

...jene 

12 august 1985

 Have you ever noticed  it when you are all alone in your dark lonely room  at night  half asleep in your bed and right at three midnight you feel wide awake your peaceful calm sleep is broken  there is no apparent reason  but your sixth sense is hyper active and alerts you there is some presence in the room not directly visible to you , that you are not  alone in the dark room, some might say its madness but she had experienced this herself during her short stay at elene mansion, her mother used to say , jene elizabeth one day your senses will prove  beneficial to you

Jene would then roll up her eyes  and would  ignore her  predictions  of future hapoenings  not believing it at all that one day her mother s  observations would be realised , perhaps that alone was the reason jene became an investigative journalist , to know the unknown , it shot thrills down her spine , so when she was asked to  write a story on rwenty years anniversary of elene mansion murder case  jene took up the case  wholeheartedly

gazal fehmi badayuni

...more. cautious one should have been

Ought to have cried without tears then

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Now wailing is pointless  remembering  them

That ought to have done  on separation then

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Silence is maintained on my breeching the promise

Rage intense  they ought to show instead  then

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Certainly in dreams  they would have appeared

If only sleep would have descended on me then

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Love gave us all it had to give then 

If only  fabric had lasted and was  maintained

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I am asked how i am

You ought to have known that  already then

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Faithfulness is keeping you helpless

You ought to have been helpless then

ghr ki murghi

...in the center of the  colony  there was an ancient mulberry tree, it casted thick cool shade , under which were   built two rock benches on which sat men of the colony discussing women , low  mentality men s cheap entertainment keeps them occupied  with the topic of females , and it was truly a backward locality, it was a common expected practice that men worked whole day to spend their evenings together after their shifts under the old mulberry tree talking  their favorite  thing on women , these men gathered together  on the benches bringing with them newspaper or transister

shaitani hathyar

...alex reached the fifth floor in the medical center to check on her mother in the cancer ward, her mother lay unconscious still , she took her hand in hers and sat silent for s while , a sad air gripped her tight , was there anything in this world  that really existed as happiness , sge released her hold on her mother s hand , she quickly wrote small note and  handed it to the nurse to read it out to her mother when she woke up , dear mom, i was here, i love you so much, i am always with you,  soon again we will meet i love you always, alex

She left the ward and  walked up to the elevator , she stood waiting fir it to reach the floir, a man in  white ciat already was inside, he stood in the right corner do she took the left corner facing the exit, the the polisged surface mirrored  the man , he was rather tall , bearded, a.  Scar on his left cheek , perhaps a birthmark , in his sixties she noticed he was staring at her

km khrch balanashin

... the only leisurely   passtime her in laws have is partying,  whether to attend or not  its a nuisance mostly, what to wear on every different occasion is another

Siema was standing with her head inside her cupboard of clothes  worrying  about what should she be wearing , pulling out dresses and piling them up on her bed, when her dear husband ali saw his beloved wife s  heated appearance  he  like always  slipped out of the room unnoticed, not getting an answer siema turned her head to find  her husband missing, it rapidly doubled her building annoyance and  anger  , she noisily banged the doors of the cabinet shut and collapsed on the floor like a defeated player

page 37

...she tried a little harder and  got reconnected , conversation  was restored and  restarted from the same point where it had  broken off , the moment aman s voice  was heard he was wasting himself and what else was she doing with her life, not accepting to move on rejecting all allainces , even  discarded her first  cousin saifallah  her chacha s son , who was a great catch and  keenly soughtafter by all the young girls , her  refusal turned him crazy, he finds it unbelievable that his proposal was rejected, he is definitely the most handsome youth in the clan , well off and sound financial background , can you tell me whats wrong 

tamasha gaah

..the magical scene at dusk by the sea shore was captivating , harold was enchanted   

Walking on the shores he abruptly stopped, he dug his both  feet  deep in the wet sand , breathing deep twice  he mumbled incomprehensively 

Oh , the same dark shadow

The shadow had   been troubling harold for quite some time , he had tried to find a solution and talk himself out of this situation, that it was merely an illusion  , some error of thought that he felt a shadow  moving around him , after sundown the night fell quickly

Its easy to explain and lecture others but the situation completely changes when you experience the same problem yourself, harold was going through the similar cicumstances

gadhha murda

..third july 2019  evening eight past three minutes lake texas

The lake  was still and the surface reflected sundiwn  crimson bright , vessels sailed  towards their destinations ,  nightly activities had begun clouds were molten gold  amidst them shining shimmer of stars danced , benjamin  stood in his soanish villa valcony watching this scene , this villa was located  one stone away from the ninety years old dam built by the lake, he considered  it was bought at galf the price , he could sell it whenever ge wanted at double the price, it was the best befitting gift he ever could get for serving loyaly  the state for over twenty years

page 49

....office incharge  was  interviewing candidates asked the first one  to tell the spelling of glass

G, L, A,S,S. Answered the first candidate

Fail spoke the officer incharge

The candidate exited his face hung low

The long line of candidates one by one entered and exited with their dropped jaws 

But in the end one emerged grinning broadly and explained he had passed  the easy test

He was asked the spelling of glass

He did correctly  g.l.a.s.s

Fail

He again spelled it right

F.a.i.l.

page 11

...  the following year azim s factory caught fire , it was a garment factory  fuel  to the fire

It happened like this , one year after muhammed sadiq was thrown out of the house,  during winter when the sun was quite dull , the factory was working its routine on threads  , materials, cutting, stitching, sewing, machines clanged noisily, workers bent on their projects focused, , 

Azim looked  around owning the factory  proud and content,  success and  fulfilment showed on his face  but what was really in his heart was not showing

Play of destiny is incredibly unpredictable  by the evening a spark struck the clothes kept in the godown , it kept on moving through the bundles  unseen un noticed, nobody observed , the spark breathed  and the wind blew  it s lapping flames  to swallow hungrily all that came into its contact, smoke started rising , workers began panicking screaming jumping and running for their life , clanging nachines noise was drowned into absolute silence , as strong  whispering flames began consuming menacingly the.  factory

sabab aur hausla

....each and every person who comes across into your life comes with a purpose , from some you learn the true meaning of love and care, from some  you learn how to get along with others , some teach you lessons on becoming patient , some  teach you to dream big dreams ,some encourage you to muster more courage and face life problems fearlessly , i personally believe every person you meet has a role to play in your life 

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Maulvi teacges you to fear gid

Sufi teacges you you are beloved if god

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Real dirt is inside corrupting your tgoughtstream

page 14

...it was fifteenth of june, the country was  suffering from intense summer heat, but it felt a piece of paradise on the river kanhar, the sky covered tightening it with clouds , soon enough the sun disappeared completely amidst the overcasting cloudy sky, every soul was refilled with renewed energy as the air cooled down 

Zartaj  lifted her arms  and stretcged them out on her second floor room in the balcony  and shut her eyes , the winds were fragrant  coming through the forest of flowrrs , she inhaked   seeping in the divine  air 

Zartaj was an ordinary looking woman with common dark complexion , her height was good, what added color to her persona was her honey coloured eyes and hair , her whole family agreed she took these two honey coloured  features from her father azim ali the rest of herself was exact carbon copy of her mother

akhri scene

...nadya stood behind the rostrum in the classroom looking at the sixth standard students explaining to them the importance of hands 

Children, there was a poor boy in a village , his name was ali, he gad no wealth no assets but the almighty had given him two hands  strong and healthy, ali frequently thought what good were his hands , they did not give him foid nor money, one day the village was destroyed in a terrible storm, trees were uprooted, neighbours rooftops flew off , ali saw  the villagers were helpless and miserable, ali extended helping hands tiwards them, rebuilding their cotrages, digging the earth, piling up bricks, removing stones and debris, others followed him, the village stood back as good as new again, his village  rewarded him for lending his helping hands ,  ali had learned  extending helping hands to the needy  was his true wealth god had given him

page 259

...one who gives respect to others is respected because one can only give what one has

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When in distress start counting your blessings , the bitterness is instantly removed replaced by the sweetness of mercies

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Merciful is that almighty who does not let sins  be visible on your face

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Lord wants you to pray so that He can show you his power , just ask and it shall be granted

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Many a times  many die with one dead , on the other hand many start living on the death of someone, its the role of the character and nature of the dead 

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Lord knows  about every fallen leaf , so dont shed tears , be patient for He knows of your pain and the reason of it, the merciful lord  will  remove your suffering pain and distress 

page 256

...children loved him too , he was always surrounded with them , several girls looked at him admiringly, i had mixed feelings for the two brothers, i had taught them in classes, i found them quite likeable and attractive, , they were quite sensitive, specially tristan  was most adorable , but the crime that they had committed was unpardonable

Tristan sighed, the police officer looked at me and pressed the button on the door, two nurses rushed in, within minutes his bed was surrounded with technicians and nurses,  tristan lay there with his eyes shut, he opened his eyes fluttering and glanced about the room  as if searching for something , he spoke  in a heavy  and hard raspy voice surprising everyone  , for he had not spoken for over a week at all, , he asked for a lawyer and then shut his eyes back  again

Kevin  i thought looked more aged than before, he still had an attractive appearance, he had not shaven for a day, brown eyes brown hair  with touches of white , looking at me his eyebrows shot up happily surprised, miss its you

Our respected teacher favourite of all

Kem baker i introduced myself

....

anokha inteqam

...everything was normal, before the victim boy decided to climb up the hill top, actually he was not dead  , he was missing for four days , therefore he was declared dead , in fact he was severely injured , he was there with several head injuries, , his one arm and two fingers on the other hand were broken , his ribs were cracked besides his lungs punctured, one knee dislioated the other ankle crushed, his entire body covered in scratches and  his clothes got torn , his skin was grazed

gazal---wasim bareli

...sorrows in the present evoke  memories of the psst

Life waill pass like an accidental happening

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Dont call me back from any point in time  dear

life will settle down by itself on this point

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The world watches carefully your unhappy face

Nobody looks at my situation any more

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Your suggestion of discarding faithfulness 

Life is not just a night that casually was passed

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.if your constant chain of memories broke

Life will slip off from my sight that i behold

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Wasim keeps going in this one hope

Perhaps some day we will cross each others paths once more

suchi muhabbet

...a young man wanted to marry  the woman he was nadly in love with,

He mustered enough courage and propsed  to her one day, mocking him and humiliating him she refused him because  her daily pocket change was more than his monthly spendings

Many years later he happened to see her again in a top shopping  mall, she proudly explained sge was narrued , her hysband worjed in the shopping mall as salesman , his salary was forty thousand

Her husband arrived and exclaimed  before introducing the woman to the owner of the shopping mall 

pardes

....it was a small folded many times iver piece of paper  clutched in her fust and that thing had started to hurt her, she  unfolded it to find a number on it , it was not really possible to keep that helpless piece of paper with her forever , having it  was giving her hooe, its presence was  full of promises  of staying alive , it was ger lifeline support , , that phone number was her only  chance to survival , one day someone will arrive, ring up amma,  and then amma will free her , , she embraced the phone number and wept , overwhelming emotions sweot diwn her as she held on to the piece of folded paper  with all her leftover strength

That piece of paper was narrating untold stories of past two years , of her endless loneliness 

bharosa

..amma , tea container is emoty,  get more tea leaves, the moment hamida beghum had stepped into the kitchen elder bahu had informed her in complaining mode, holding the empty container she approached her mother in law

Gosh, what are you saying, this month three tea packets were  included in the groceries , month is not over and all the tea packets are finished, both of  you  have  nothing better to do than drink tea all the time, seeing the empty tea box hamida beghum flared up quickly

Amma , you are speaking as if  only we two bahus drink tea ,  by the grace of god ours is a large wholesome joint family, elders and youngers both are fond of having tea frequently,  but the blame is shifted only on us women , banging the empty box back on the shelf  she moaned 

It was the senior woman s experienced  trick if anything went wrong  against her wishes she shifted the weight of  all the blame on her bahus accusing them for doing it wrong

All right then, if we are so much problem we give up drinking tea, what else has this household to offer us except a simple cup of tea , that  pleasure also we give up for your sake

meri eid mubarak kr de

....wait a minute fauz , his steps moving towards the stairs were stopped by the voice  command of his bhabhi, as his daily routine  he was ready to leave for work  in his estate agency  when he was asked to stop , fauz please hand this rent to hurin  , she must be on her way to work too, , shagufta bhabhi  held out the envelop with the ammount inside , he looked  up at her in surprise

You still had not deposited your rent , though we had my brother and me  given ours to you on time

Its so dufficult fauz  , i am always kept busy , as you know just ten days ago  sweet eid was celebrated ,  women  from the committee   did not send their money , i was forced to use the money you had deposited to pay khala who lives opposite  to complete the committee , after that gradual inflow of money  enabled me to save slowly to rebuild the rent money

succhai ki manzil

...evergreen park  at that time was full of  women  and the old  and children , the life in the park was vibrant and colourful , , angelic children sat tight on the swings scowling ling or laughing merrily  their noises as melodious and musical  filling up the surroundings ,  enjoying every moment universe geld out to them, , these were the times precious and full of beauty , how absolutely ultimately  real the scene was , he felt an outsider a stranger intruding the  scene  in the ground from where he sat on a bench he had given a  disinterested look 

No, all thus us not absolute, if all the colours in the universe are complete  then why is his own life so empty and dark, he whispered to himself, once again he was overpowered by his depressing thoughts

There is nothing that is apparent and visibly clear, if only , if only life could be as good as our dreams and desires

gazal by kaniz zohar sayad

..night before the dawn of separation is yet to come

Chill air starless night without the moon is yet to come

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My heart my soul all are sold out

But talent of showering life on others yet is there

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Hopelessly in vain i try to forget him

Something of his essence of togetherness is yet in me

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Whole world was seen  with deepest interest

A corner  in my heart is yet to be seen

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.seeing him on the top of the world kaniz 

Presence of someone s prayers is truly felt

mana umr wahi

...he had just drove past in his vehicle this way, sun was shining bright on the black gate ,  the tyres  had risen a cloud of dust  visible still , when he was leaving  her heart  desparately wanted to stop him , but she could not  she would not , after all what right did she have to stop him , unaware a commotion  was already made  her emotions were stirred, he  had  crushed all her dreams settled on her eyes  like a victorious ruthless invader, she like always unsuccessfully tried to pat her stormy feelings  back to slumber  in the depths of her heart only she knew exactly where

But the winds teased her they were playing mischief  uncaring of her feelings ready to play with her naughtily loosening her tresses  caressing her face  and she discovered his  invisible presence  in the winds touching her

fun e zaiqa

...chutpati dhuandahi raan

Mutton pullao biryani

Mughlai chops

Kaleji masala with mayonese

Bhuna hua gosht

Shehnshahi koftey

Bakrey ke paye

Muthiya kebab

Mutton seekh kebab

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Chutpati dhua dahi raan is simple recipe of  mutton leg marinated in spices for a couple of hours before baking it in oven on 200 degrees for forty five minutes on one side then turn it on the other side to bake till tender , finally a piece of coal  is smoked to add the smoky flavour 

page 187

...van quodr

Run tiwards that thundering roar 

This was instructed by the old wuse to their youngers

That whenever you are threatebed , you are confused , uncertain what to do next,

Run to take shelter, to save yourself

Charge  insread towards the threat the danger itself  , confront the danger  you are scared of , that is the only way to reality to really protect yourself

That s the correct escape route

When the whole world shakes  in chaos trying to dusappear itself into oblivion , tgen run tiwards the riaring danger --mikal

I am nit divorcing zayad , this was the first thing she had spoken , she stood  with her faceturned towar the windiw , mahi could see from her place her loose hair bun  and her back, she remained speechless without reacting to her statement , finally to ask her did she hear it right what she said, sge came to stand befire her in sheer disbelief

page 231

...during the old  times an american soldier was returning , he caught a train in france , because it was over crowded he could not find himself a place to sit down, he asjed and old french lady to accommodate him  and  hold ger pet dog in her lap, she humiliated him for being an. american , without arguing he took another round through the crowded  train and he again requested the frenvh woman to move her dog from the seat next to her  so that he could sit down, he was already exhausted from the war , the woman again humiliated him for being an american, the soldier simply lifted the pet and threw him out of the windiw of the moving train, one english man was watching this whole episode with deep interest and commented to the soldier that the americans alwats did the right thing the wrong way, drive on the right side, held the fork the wrong way and now instead of throwing the woman out he threw the poor pet out

kinara

..manwar held a letter from appa in his hands, it was not her first letter,, in three months all three sisters  had sent several letters to him , its time to return to your native land

Having read the letter he was quite surprised, what to do next , he had his two children with him who were born and brought up away from hindostan  in a foreign land  their lifestyle was completely different from their relatives back home, after all how will these children adapt themselves to new culture  , they were absolutely modern and free  of any inhibitions open minded , grown up in the modern world without any reservations and no restrictions of tradtions to stop them , no boundaries were ever set for them anywhere 

His wife got ready early everyday to drive off to work, after that domestic maid reacged their place to help children to get ready for school, school van punctyally picked them up, the maid  was responsible to manage the household chores and served him his breakfast before leaving  followed by him leaving for his work 

Children would come home after school to eat maggyfor lunch or burger or pizza  and lock themselves up in their rooms

gazal by. wasim bareli

....skies so high shows arrogance

Forgets its visibke only from below

.

Time is just time unstoppable as ever

Simply slips through fingers invisible

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Whoever comes entertains and performs

Left thirstying for more and more

.

.ignorance is not  left  to remain silent

Speak up to resolve  a conclusion

.

.my feet are not destined to

 cross your path  leading to your abode

.

.noises rose pouring into the ears

Now it is clearly visible

.

.only if you wish you may stop me

Or what is it to your world who i am

sb sitarey tum rkh lo

...my daughter cant be immoral

Exploded raunaq jahan s voice, tonight was going to prove impossible for all , and those fuve characters had frozen like theater  

Prifessir sahib  s rest was not disturbed  a bit , though raunaq jagan was still  hyper  , hiccups shaking her  , her wailing taking high notes ,  outside glass windows  all the stars sewn in the sheet of the ethreal sky were spread out 

Dont  dump so much filthy accusations on my daughter  for heaven s saje , sge folded her gands  humbly , standing near by was doctor uhala who swiftly discivered the condition of the mother, she quickly reacged her side, dont you wirry , everything will be finestay xalm and rekax please

Raunaq lifted ger etes, looked carefully at her daughter tgen turned to stare at the professor who was quite comfortable sitting there rather like a stupid man

angna phool khilengey

..shanya, what are you saying, they sat in a restaurant , there was not much rush yet it wss crowded , what do you think you can talk wasim into getting married to you, natasha tried to turn off the speaker  but she was stopped by wasim 

She did not care what the world believed , today was the day truth must be exposed 

You cant turn wasim against us  by sweet talk

Shanya what makes you speak like this  , we are engaged to get married 

There will be no marriage , shanya cut her in between sharply , you are not at all worthy of becoming my bhabhi, wasim s face turned red

Wasim loves me and i love him too , you cant  interfere in our life, natasha bent forward to clutch wasim by his hand 

He loves arram too so what

Wasim s eyes were burning now

She could not settle in his life nor will you threatened shanya

sb sitarey tum rkh lo

...my daughter cant be immoral

Exploded raunaq jahan s voice, tonight was going to prove impossible for all , and those fuve characters had frozen like theater  

Prifessir sahib  s rest was not disturbed  a bit , though raunaq jagan was still  hyper  , hiccups shaking her  , her wailing taking high notes ,  outside glass windows  all the stars sewn in the sheet of the ethreal sky were spread out 

Dont  dump so much filthy accusations on my daughter  for heaven s saje , sge folded her gands  humbly , standing near by was doctor uhala who swiftly discivered the condition of the mother, she quickly reacged her side, dont you wirry , everything will be finestay xalm and rekax please

Raunaq lifted ger etes, looked carefully at her daughter tgen turned to stare at the professor who was quite comfortable sitting there rather like a stupid man

jaltey sitarey

....preparations of eid of sacrifice had begun , air was filled with roasting meat aroma ,  streets were impatiently waiting for  their  turn to relish , condition of jamil was  no different, he was eighteen but looked  twelve , he was growing beard to look more mature than his frail  appearance, his family profession was  to clean dirt, but he chose to educate himself, his ancestors were honest and hardworking , his second year exams were just over when dilawar met with an accident leaving him incapable of work,  therefore jamil was seen cleaning up the streets, around helplessly , tge burden was shifted on hus weak shoulders

Abbu ji, why dont you apply for leave, he asked  dilawar

Its suicidal for our financial condition explained abbu ji  to his  inexperienced but educated son practically, we wait eagerly for festive eids in the hope of getting more, making more,  having more

page 128

....some days passed happily, but then her son became quite  aloof and uncommunicative , silent and stayed unresponsive , his job kept him otherwise away, , even huma s leave was over, mother had retired andwas obliged to stay home , huma started going back to the college, she started showing her true nature and colours , , she would wake only fifteen minutes earlier to leaving for college, put on layers of heavy nakeup, dressed up in heavy designers , left without pleasantries, after college visited her maternal parents and returned after dusk, these were of course early days after marriage so mother ignored her behaviour completely but after tgree months of such routine it was time to speak up her mind

Dear, try to give some time to this household too, let us know the taste of your cooking, let us get familiar and close to each other in several domestic ways

position holder

..what awesome crazy games life plays with us, its a normal common statement repeated by everyone, what games does life play, its so easy to shift all  the blame on life for all the mistakes we do ourselves to damage us, all the miscalculations  , arthmetic gone wrong is dumped quickly on lifes shoulders,  life is not a play at all , life is a challenge a test,  this test of life is so severe any carelessness any unwilling move every cheating and  wrong doing is watched directly by the supreme almighty, nothing goes unseen , , each mistake has its own consequences and punishments  no second chances no chances for rectifications , no life refunds merely miserable life left with pained regrets and tears  what if life is plainly defined as honest work

page 215

...nurse: there us a remedy for your obesity

Patient: whats that

Murse: just eat one chapati

Patient; before or after my meals

,

Peer to murid: nake a wish iand it sgall be granted

Murid: make me unmarrued again

Peer: you can not ask for jannat

,

 husband : today whatever i am its my own hard work

Wife: :so all my complaints against you  in prayers to almighty were in vain

,

,wife: what if i become fat will you still love me

Husband: no, i took vows to be together in good times and bad times not in your obesity

Wife: please dont speak like that i  i would die of heartbreak

Husband:  you dont speak of your death i could die of sheer happiness

,

,wife: dear husband  i have reduced to half my size in your separation and memory  in a fortnight  ,missing you, when are you returning

Husband: just wait another fortnight

dost

....yura reached the office to meet annie to find him sunk into deep layers of files 

How come you lost your way into my office today smiled annie curiously

I was just crossing this area  so thought of visiting you as well  dragging a chair yura answered as he sat down

Had i not known you i would have believed that spoke annie meaningfully glancing back at him, tell me the real thing

Overheard  henry is not well , i was out of town , ever since my return it was on my mind , his  phone was not answering so decided to see you personally because you both work in the same office, you can tell me about him

I have also not seen him for quite some time , last time i saw him was when we both had visited him together explained annie

That time he was quite well  , i was actually hoping he had recovered by now spoke yura stressing on his mind  

page 123

..it is believed he who has no resources to go on hajj  can get unexpected chance to make his holy trip if he prays regularly  and his journey brings peace and safety in his life.

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It is said the horrible satan has two attributes to control others , his followers use that method of carrot and stick to maintain their control on others, its like using carrot  to entice  or threatening others with stick  for complete surrender , greed and fear are basic survival  instincts people have that satan as predator and his ruthless followers practise on innocent preys

jungle

...we are always surrounded with nature  in its real form,  days and nights in rotation , bright sun shines , colourful floating clouds are revealed  , flying birds in the sky , lush  green growing fields, winds blowing in summer and winter , this all remains the same, its our inner climate of emotional moods that is forever changing , when we are disappointed the world is lost , a feeling of hopelessness fills up our life with miseries, everything feels is actively going against us, when unhappy everything feels is saturated with sorrow outside, , hapoy mind feels the world is showering happiness, 

beghr

...he glanced at tge dashboard, tge time showed seven   nearing dusk , he was driving through  new mexico  province , he stopped at a nearby  truck spot in the highway , he saw him sitting there on a bench 

It was july  summer evening , he had been driving for nine long hours , he had covered more than eight hundred kilometers, his plans included quick dinner followed by driving three hundred more kilometers on the road , to stay leftover   night at a motel on the way 

The first important thing was  his burn side chemicals  job keeping him going, second main point was karin  who was impatiently waiting fir him in los angeles, they had not seen each other for oast two weeks , he was madly in love with her , he hooed it was mutual feeling  though she spoke  not so frankly on the phone about her feelings for him

It was not that she did not love him , it was just that she was rather reserved  about articulating her love very openly

kuch qurbanya anmol hoti hy

....amma was miserable crying over  her unfortunate circumstances,  everytime she tried to reach out towards almighty some type of obstacle fell between her  path preventing her from  making it to her desirable goal , she was moaning  visibly and audibly  before others , her misfortune  relentlessly stopped her from  joining her almighty, she was cursed sinner , her pleadings were  gone unheard in her daily prayers, dear almighty , do something  to help me out she wailed  emotionally overwhelmed

Amma now what has happened lately to make you so theatrical , what makes you so accuse your own life , what obstacle is preventing you , asked daughter manza handing  amma a glass of water and then  sitting by her side warmly

gazal by dr nisar jaipuri

....crispy childhood hidden in arms

Little boats  move in  emotional heart

Some glowing worms  fly around

In my dried monsoon  of eyes

Desires of blossoms  keep me going

Gathered are rocks and pebbles in my arms

Bloom rose like  children  when

Smiles natural sunshine in my yard

Whoat  did know nisar would come

Paper flowers gathered in my arms

heerey ki pehchan

...hina had crossed the threshold of youth and the world stirred into action, ,  she was born beautiful and  youth  carved her perfectly , as a toddler she fondled by everyone , her cute apple red cgeeks were  pinched and kissed  , everyone liked the adorable kid and liked to cuddle her 

Her family naturally  adored her and the whole village  loved her for her angelic looks and amiable nature

She was birn to a poor village farmer , but she was raised  like a princess , she was loving and  generous, she had one more sister  but nit as much pretty , she also was quite attached to hina , shiwered with so much love hina  became arrogant and self centered, she did not respind to her sisters love fir her nor did she respect her feelings  at all , hina did not help in the fields nor at home  , mother did not care of her behaviour , father had other things to do

When hina crissed the threshold of youth from childhood  many  young lads list their  hearts , her height  , lovely eyes , shapely figure  strawberry cream compkexion all  were great attractions

page97

....hasan karim had returned  home from australia  and right now was sitting in his room  playing games  when his father gave a knock in the door before entering inside 

Hi dad

Father walked up to him to stand near him 

What gas happened to haris  he asked hasan directly 

Haris wanted to escape by thinking if saying who is haris  but that would have stretched his fake too far, instead he pretended innocence, what do you mean , he false innocence appeared so real, has something gone wrong

I  met him in dubai , he did not look good, he also gas given his job up from the enterprises , ahmed karim s eyes were watcged him thoughtfully

He lives in dubai, pressing a button online  spoke hasan  and you went all the way to dubai just to see him

Dont  pretend you did not visit him there , father moved forward and turned off the screen 

ek dost ke liye

...this journey of life

This relationship with you

If you dont come along 

How will i  get along

The limits of my thoughts

Incredible it may be

Not a single moment without you 

Is bearable to pass

You are not with me

When are you not with me

In the enclosure of memories

In lands of dreams

Depths of my deepest thoughts layered

In my eyes 

In my heart soul and body

In all my secret desires

During darknesses at night

During illuminations bright

Yes its only you

All around if

You are not with me

In all my prayers its you

Just one wish of you

Beyond this wish nothing exists

How much i love you

You have no idea

nehle pe dehla

...the  dimly lit rooms were surrounded with  absolute silence , the night had slipped into its darkest mood  yet the area had stirred  alive  with human commotion , fast food shops were  were arranging their stalls   and ciunting the profit they had made all night selling  fast food and  keeping the leftivers for the next time before going home, the night watchman  blew his whistle  fir the last time as a signature whistle and began smoking a cigarette his sense of duty ended with  the kast whistle  he was free to relax , he stretcged hus legs and  enjiyed hus smoke for a while leaning against  a general store before going back home , he would stop by a masjid on tge way to offer his fajar nanaz

Azan  was followed by compkete silence , within minutes  approaching footsteps were heard, all were snartly dressed and their feet  had barsoli shies in , these  footsteps  turned and stopped  on a riad befire a brown door

page 96

..fatima was ready to leave for office, holding her mobile  to her ear listening and speaking   to someone in  a rmal nanner, when  she heard a knock on the door , she moved towardx the door , zarar stood yhere  clad in white shurt and bkack trousers , a bandage on his firehead and a scar on his cheek , he appeared ready to attend  a meeting 

He only wanted  to iinform her to contact him immeduately whenever and if she was harrassed by anyone  like jamal or faced any type of danger

She nodded  her consent  in silence  , she wanted to speak to zarar and ask what was happening with him , but she stood tgere silent and unmoved, life became easier with him , his presence was a promise of safe boundaries, zarar moved ahead , it was true he came to tell her that but that was not all , he had a most important medting today , he secretly wanted to  have a glimpse of her before that   meeting

page 92

...both of them had come to the hospital, zarar was lying in bed, , fatima stood  some distance away listening to what the dictor was explaining , the doctor was checking zarar but all his attention was  focused on fstima  or thus us what he thought, before jamal  incident he was not like this at all, , but now he was more alert and  aware , fatima went outside to listen to her call,  , doctor appriached her, 

Where has that miss gone he asked casually

Why, asked zarar glaring to swallow him up alive , having a beautiful wife prived a curse somewhat

naiki

...

...jimmy decided to cooperate with the authorities , he had become a sworn informer witness giving details of dangerous  people, naturally  his own life was in danger now, he had disapoeared completely after getting  involved in this  deadly scenario, , the narrator is called by many names but to locate him easily he is popularly known as the office man , he is paid for his indispensable services to do the difficult job of cleaning up other people s mess, he was hired now to find jimmy,

One day he was in nanzel , he was handed a bouquet of white roses without any sender s name but there was the florist s card , after that it was not difficult for the office man to track and locate the florist and the sender, jimmy s location was found, in newyork

Reading

Huma urdu digest

my opinion

: Getting attention

Pretty bold woman  whatever age ,single too bad for men

 And for women who like those men

 Because single women are a threat 

 Such men take advantage  of being men These men are not above  parents or family

 Whats yr opinion

mahir nafsyat

...., he sat  in a chair opposite james looking at his face feeling scared a bit too, james face  was covered with old scars , even without these frightening scars his face was quite  frightful   evoking awe 

It was not just his face and looks that sent chills  he was the  top local bully  notorious ruffian in town , every decent citizen knew his name and was completely  scared to death  so it was not unusual for him to be scared too

His name was mikal a mexican just recently  come to america , he has been in this locality for a year now , a senior manager in a small company, , not paid well but because he had no family with him no wife no chilldren , just single  he was able to manage it  well for himself, he had shifted in thus area to save time in commuting

from previous

..two friends were duscussing  their expenses , one of them asked the other what was it the mist expenssive thing he ever bought

Marriage ring, replied the other, it costs  me increased  weekly expenses doubling with time

page 118

..he had just reached his cabin when one constable on duty salim informed  him there was someine come to see him , without asking who was it he asked him to send the visitor inside! Saluting him the constable turned around smartly and left, during this episode he was posted in gujranwaka city police station, he had jyst recently taken cgarge over tgere, he was sent tgere on emergency duty, the incharge of the station fazal mehmood sahib was killed in action , he was quickly posted there to fill up the vacum, 

The nan who entered was in hus fifties, a dark skinned short man , he looked quite worrued 

He welcomed him in a professional manner pointing to a chair next t the table , asking him politely how could he help him , dragging the chair he came to sit directly opposite him,

I am junaid ali he introduced himself heavily

from previous

... it was pouring rain outside, , inside one professor sat engrossed in reading his favourite book, , suddenly his wife shook him by his shoulder the cat is roaming around here inside ,

Ugh, he  did not take his eyes off from his reading

I asked you to  throw the cat out, perhaps you did not hear me out , the cat is still inside the room

Is the cat still inside?, strage , i  had thrown the cat out, then nervously asked his wife to check if their infant was there in the crib or not

page 115

..two traveling agents meet aftrr ages, , one of them compained about his life , it was a vad day today he moaned,   at several places   was rebuked , i was humiliated on other places , people merely frowned down upon me and shut the doors on me , others  many roared scowled and growled scaring me off , i could not sell any thing today

What are you selling these days

Books on courtsies

page 75

...she reached her father s office carrying her files , dad, you have thrown haris out, she was again dressed in white   knocked before entering the office  and fired questions directly 

This is what he deserves, hashim was  busy working and his tone  straightforward  dry empty of all personsl emotions

What difference does it actually make dad whose son is he, comoany  wants his work , how can you...

Hashim looked at her straight  and cut off her statement in the middle 

This is my company noory, he pointed his finger at himself  tapping his chest, who stays and who does not  is decided only by me, now leave me alone  his tone was strict

shifa

...i got late she sighed, i wish i had not waited for you,  , i should have asked for his number from someine in the company

Of course, deepened noorys meaningful smile, now if anyone trues to get free with her  noory will cross  all boundaries , she had scowled pointing her firk tiwards him 

It is said  tge man who is not sincere is a disease to society, one woman man us respected, , she shrugged as she spoke , jinny is absolutely defuant even to her iwn mother, its not possibke to speak of each and every woman nor can tgey all be put into the same bracket , she spoke cupping her face  keaning her elbiw on the table

meri payal choodi khnky

...instead of looking at the soldiers  watch the luggage , the appriaching lights of the train are nearing , hold on to each other and clutch my   shirt corner  from  below , the moment i climb up you quickly follow me and get into the compartment , if you slip you are dead,  dont stare at the young men around , focus on my instructions , no prince charming will  come to save you remember that , all of them are in a hurry to get on , i always feel dizzy traveling in criwded trains looking for some breathable space and  making enough space to make myself comfirtable , nobody cares  about others, it feels like the world has gone crazy, pushing others, crushing them breaking their ribs to make way for self , its head spinning experience, khala relentlessly poured her bitter lessons on life on a train into their ears , they fiercely shook their heads  carrying  the luggage and  the other strongly in her arms following khala  the yhree of them were ready to embark  

page 26

...zakwan sat  with the safe open, files of his documents placed befire him,  he needed some of his important papers , all his documents were kept  properly by his mother,  after her his father had access to his documents  and he had a few times taken them out, , that was the reason all were  there but in complete disorder, zakwan had applied for a new job , therefore he needed his documents in hard firm secured, he took his required files and began pushing them into a bag  when his gaze fell on an envelope, it was an unopened seaked still envelope, curiosity and  spare eniugh time he opened the envelope , he read and re read the rext over and over again several times, a strange confusion  made him pull out his mobile from his pocket

hasin dhoka

...that man stood in the northern railway line crossing through albama  in the middke of the bridge , his gaze glued to the twenty feet below  clear flowing  blue waters , his hands  in the military style at ease relaxed behind him clasoed ,, his erists were tied up with thin but string silk  strings , a rope noise round his neck , the other end if the rope was tied to the bridge railing up above his head the rope s length was  extra long  therefore  rested in spiral in hus shoulders , he was  surrounded with two ex  army soldiers  standing on the beams to finish their duty , at some distance an officer in uniform watched the developments ,  his stars on his uniform showed his rank was  of a senior captain, on both sides if the bridge  two armed gunmen pointed their guns at him  perfectly pisitioned  and still, behind one of the guards the railway track  dusapoeared completely into the thick forest

gazal : fahmi badayuni

..i am merely asked how i am

But it was easier to take care of me

The eye of the hunter is sharp enough

It tells the condition of the prey

I am kept busy in work  always

The passion keeps going always

Pray send me some helpalmighty

I cant hold on the crown anymore

I am the king of love 

No laws can keep me bound  anymore 

page 105

....mom he is already engaged, if he does not care for his fuancee how could he be any more caring to me 

Dear , you are beautiful, well educated  , more qualified  girl and she is a homeless father less girl ,there is a  huge difference  between you two explained sheihla

But mom  i cant marry warish , it was final decision if shumaila

I am not forcing you to get married to him  but its you who sings his praises all day long , shehlas voice was saturated with bitterness

Come on my dear mom,  , shumaila fondly kissed her mother on her cheek , i do it because  he us a real wealthy catch

muszfir

...larry was dead tired today  when sge returned home from the university, preoaring for the exams  she was spending sleepless nights in a long row, muffling her wide yawn with her hand  she put her bag aside and clutching her mibile she slid into her bed, switching on her net messages started pouring in, , hi how are you,

Fighting fit and you

Swiftly replied larry

You have compketely  erased me out from your mind  tyoed back annoyed fiza her quick message with a red annoyed smiley sticker that brought a guggle to  larry s face

Madam its you who has forgotten  , after you got engaged you did not whstsapp your fiance s picture

It was a rightful complaint fiza realised, larry had demanded a picture on her engagegment day and it really skipped her mind to send her one

gazal

...who says i am dead  when death comes

I am that mud lamp that floats on seas

Where else can i be except  be at your doorstep

To be tied emotionally to scatter in deserts

If i leave your side its difficult because

I will have nobody else by my side

I come to your town as a traveler

 to pass unknown unidentified unwanted

Your presence  prevents me from drifting 

Or i would have  disappeared   any time long ago

Different i am from others in a way

They are destroyed but i am carved out with each blow

Khurshid drowned ages ago 

To find him search is created  in remote

Life burns like a flame

Turning me to ashes but lighting up the world

page 25

...carrying zikkialla on her shoulder , holding saifalkah by hand , she dragged herself forward , is everybody s life so miserable or its only her life destined to be so  lifeless

This was the fifth house she was rejected from work , nobody wanted a woman with two  children in their house , where could she leave her children anyway ,  the lifeline  she depended on completely  everytime where she used to turn to had handed her ten thousand lawful meher with a firever goodbye and divorce , ten thousand was the  reward given her as payment for serving them five years of her youthful days, taib had not kept anything  of hers and paid her fully as was agreed on their contract

page 17

... it was a message of gratitude for gulnain that she was expecting, she had conceived, , it was her last hope  her husband will come back to her , she gathered  the crunch of her emotions and her scattered ego, , she smiled after a long time to give this piece of good news to taib, just before sunset she  carefully got ready , going around  merrily  her steps had  a natural new bounce, her mother in law gave her all her blessings noticing her happiness spilling around, her blessing was  a fearful prayer may  taib also be filled up with light and joy as you on hearing this good news

page 77

..a few hours later alex was following thora on the main street, the  shadowing  began from the center, all that alex needed was photo of thora , she wanted to  clear all doubts from chris s mind by showing him the  evidence  of thora and  doctor  together , , it would end his  mental worries forever , suddenly alex s phone buzzed , it was glummer on the other side , telling her the lawyer andrews had susoected  the sgadow and quickly lost him another man must be sent to follow him ,  alex suggested to arrange someone at andrews house his final destination, glummer decided to himself to do the job , fine , she would speak to him later , alex gad seen thira stopping to speak on her phone  and suddenly turn around , alex in a flash  entered the near by store, , thora crossed the store window looking  extremely serious 

page 69

..google spoke give just one word and i give you thousands of results 

Wikipedea spoke up next give one word and i unfold thousands of explanations

Internet   s turn  came to speak up , it prided in its necessity without which others were incapable to provide  information

Computer explained it was only because of its prsence they all existed

Hearing them all the electricity laughed  at them and simply disappeared

shaitani hathyar

....alex stormed oast like a doctir on emegency code call but she was no doctor at the medical center in jackson, she was a begotiator on f b i pay roll 

Grace was in near coma situation  nearly half dead , though she was still breathing naturally , alex was nervous , showing her f b i card  driving rough she had managed to reach there, gradyally slowly step by step , five years ago jim morris her father had breathed his last in that hospital, , alex s mother margaret was fighting cancer  and now death stood by grace s side , she watched her ten year old son playing baseball in the stadium  , suddenly she fell down on the stairs

nijat darinda

...the sun was quite hot and blazing, , running away he turned to fure two shots  with his thirty caliber gun on the vehicle  chasing him , the windshueld of monte carlo s s  shuddred and shattered covering  the heavyweight man behind the steering wheel, , he instantly pressed the brakes , damn it, , he looked at himself , the man who had dared to shoot him was fleeing  and turned a corner , he was six foot sux inch tall man , three hundred twenty pound  , it was below his dignity to run after that shirty  just four foit , but he gad done so much damage  and he must pay him back 

noor mahal

...we are going yo live here

Mairab saying this opened the discolored lock   that hasham had failed to unlock , trying for half hour  unsuccessfully the lock was given an angry blow that snapped it open , one half of tge stubborn rusty lock was broken and held in her hand , she flung tge tirn piiece of the lock to one side , pushing the heavy weight wrought iron gate that slowly moved  noisily creaking but  giving way, the gate gad list all its original colour and looks, there was a garage in the front , a cobbled way on the side  leading to the kawn , long over griwn grass had taken appearance of unkemot weedy  patch , very carefully flower beds were  full of dead plants 

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..taib was not happy married to her at all, gulnain thought of asking her mother in law too,

What do you have to do with him, he is happy or not now what matters to you , words were cutting  , she was hurt, good harvest depends enturely on giod base and begining , roses dont grow on  thorny trees, gulnain   picked up and dropoed a few words from the empty  tray in her heavy geart, mother in law was about to say more  but checked herself , but it is possible to graft roses on thirny trees , gulnain  you have a dace of a rise and god willing soon very soon  the family will blossom up, ekder woman s vouce was saturated in syrup, after all she was a widow , what else could she have done except  raise taib , educate him feed him , give him all  necessities of life

gulnain

...her unintentional gaze lifted, her heart filled with  surprise sorrow and heaviness , eyes can  deceive you once ir twice perhaps but the thurd time its your mind cheating on you

I shall definitely speak to him today she thought decisively , its final, its a must, , no chance of any tyoe of mistake ,

The moment she sat down in the vehicle the scene vividly played before her , etes flooded emotionally blurring the scene ,  releasing itsekf overwhelmingly , on the signal she spotted a girl sitting in the front seat , her face was hardly visible  but her outfit was red  and brought  redness to her own tearful eyes, now  this gold ear ring  stabbed her like a knife  into her loving throbbing heart,  the car  smelled of chanel

She had to talk , but she was going to neet him after two years, , she tightly clutched her fists and looked out of the window , was it that her mothers suspicions were real

page 39

..,some people  humiliate others with their permission

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A girl takes thirty five years to reach the age of twenty.

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The last benchers are seen praying  in masjid on the day result is to be out

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Only singles can change the world, the married have no will power  in matrimony

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.tgere is one thing common between tge blazing sun snd a wife, both are dazzling and blinding if one stares at them

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Everything and everyone takes a quick u turn except mother s lashings

nai rah

...he most carefully put his hand into the merchant s pocket to cut it , there was a small leathe pouch , it appeared quite heavy , though he had seen the merchant take it out several times to purchse  gold and silver , his  slave carried  his purchase  and was speaking to his master , the thief believed their  conversation did not matter because it was no threat to him because he was the best of the sharpest  pick pickets in paris who knew excatly what was he doing and how to do it the proper way, tge more such leather puches  he git the higher his fame in the world of pickpockets would be

anokha fraud

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anokha fraud

..  dear, hamid was  busy arranging the gold ornamenrs  in boxes  when he heard a female voice addressing him , he turned to see a woman in her fifties clad in ordinary clothes  , her head covered with white dupatta

Hamid was a staff employed at a jewellers showroom , he had been on this job for over three years now , the owner of the shop was malik  iqbal, an elderly aging person  very experienced wise and kind , absolutely impressed by hamid s honesty and hardwork  and decency, in past three years hamid had never stolen any piece nor  did he pick up any money that wasnt his, that was the main reason he was given the responsibility to take care of the shop , he had the keys with him, his duty was to reach the showroom early morning to open it at nine , clean it up, rearrange the shelves and trays and  put all the boxes in orderly manner

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alvidah

...arent you listening what i am saying, she  asked irritably the man sitting before her , qazim lifted hus gaze to look at her , she was stunned into silence to see mixed feelings of desires loss  want hatred and more in his eyes , she had never before observed such emotions in his eyes , he had a natural habit of keeping himself to himself alone , he had suffered and gone through  many painful experiences with his lowered eyes not revealing his own feelings  silently , but now seeing his eyes expressing the intensity  it was  clear he was experiencing something unbearable

shaitani jheel

....saira  was  thinking if kalander really  had any straight vein , followed by anothrr quick thought  how the situation would unfold , praying she wont have to accompany kalander out of station anywhere , but  unoredictable as he was he had reached her house to  get to this matter , she was home and became nervous   fearing what if her father agreed to give his permission to kalander s  requests

Her father when came to know  of her boss s presence who was standing right outside their house  he also became very nervous, because father knew how difficult it was to get a job and getting promotions , he himself had worked very hard all his life 

Father asked her to keep her boss engaged fir a while and quickly  began  cleaning up the sitting room , arranging the  space  properly  fit enough for a boss , then he welcomed kalander  to step in 

Are you abdul gafur  sahib stretched out his hand kalander as he spoke dryly  happy to meet you

Faltered father  yes yes its our delight  to have you here

page 69

...but you made a promise yet you again  , she dropped her sentence mid air to look at zarar

So, he approached her stumbling , fatima sat  two steps backwards , he looked someone different today , he was not the same man 

So what , he  moved firward , fatima s legs hit the sofa placed in the lounge, zarar clutched her by her hair

Zarar leave me , she tried to  free herself from his clutches , but he was not listening  at all

You will. Dump  me  , he pulled her face closer by  pulling her. Hair  clutched in his hands , his eyes questioning , her face was a display of harrassment, 

What are you doing !her voice trembling her courage cracking

page 54

... the setting sun had  maliciously painted the evening sky orange , office hours were almost over , but noir was waiting in the conference room  , she gad to attend the last meeting silver sat at tge head of the table  pressing her temple with her two fingers, harish entered holding a laptop  and hanging hus coat on hus arm  into the building , he infirmed the secretary , he gad returned after six years , he was  directed towards tge upper cinference hall, loosening up his beck tie he  stepped inside tge lift , he pressed the buttin , his body ached with fatigue  and exhaustion , fever  had again taken  his grip

shafa

....she was  sitting  in the metro, clad in long  white maxi   just a simple dress , a white scarf wrapped around her neck , metro had left the station and crossing the township , the scene from the windiw was  if regular tall multistoreys  , their gkass exteriors brightly reflecting the sunlight, her gaze directly fell on  the section between two windows  on  a  spiritual text written there by someone with a black marker..

Their hearts were filled with anxiety

Lord increased their anxiety

,she kept on staring at the window  text in silence  before questioning herself , what is the defination of sickness  , 

sickness is illness , illness is followed by anxiety, it is not merely physical problem answered the woman sitting by her side who was watching her staring at the text, problem can be of any type , a trouble  , a doubt ,a lack of faith

peshawar

...he likes when the snow falls but only to the extent  that normal life is not disrupted , that day the attitude and the mood of the sniwfall  were fuerce he did not like it , the  winds blowing from hudson river were sharp and cutting , on tge west end avenue  the snow flakes were forced to dance helplessly uncontrollably  with the winds , he was present   outside a flat in the brooks , to get some information he decided to speak to a trashpicker  of the building , , the man was short and his hair were unkempt , he certainly appeared quite stressed, lines of worry etcged deep on his face , he was  gathering one week s  trash outside the building , it was not easy to say if his expression was the result of bad weather or  natural

kitabon ki chori

...he had been just promoted in his deoartment of homocide, his partner spotted a novel in detectives in his table drawer , since then he was given a nick name the reader , twenty two years later  his senior caprain handed him the case to solve of a retired book reader.s death, it was like asking some one called the cook yo solve a murder mystery of a professional chef

page 253

.. angry voices from the neighbour s house were rising  fiercely, the woman spoke to her husband  to go out and see   fearing the neighbours might hit each other deadly blows and kill each other down 

The husband lowered his head  and refused to follow her instructions , perhaps the  fiery argument  he suspected was on his visiting them twice kast week.

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An income tax officer spoke to hus unmarried friend  , you have filled up your form  but you gave mentioned a child too , is this your secretary s mistake 

No, both of us are equally to be blamed, he replied with a smile

akhri gunah

...you musst gave heard of r j kar and jinnie kar, i am their son stew kar  , i am following directly into their  detective footsteps professionally , i obtained a trained private detective s licence before  joining my father , now i work with him  in kar investigation agency , in my story tge role of private detective is not important  but  the begining  point off the narrative  starts frim a criminal till the end is gripping

 In 1993  one mexican american boy was working in the kier hotel  situated in the north west , he did not look  a foreigner  with his born american looks , he was a student in the high school , he was doing thus job to raise enough funds for his education 

dil da hal na jane koi

..bibi jan wrapped up the holy quran and put it away on the sgelf , slipping her feet into her slippers  she opened the doir and got out  into the versnda  where tamar and shumara sat waiting to go to school  , seeing her both the children together spoke up greeting her  aslam walekum bibi jan 

Live long my children walekum, rubbing her palms over their geads praying for gheur prosperity she moved towards the kitchen  from where the aroma of home cooking  filled her nostrils  temptingly , sonia greeted her smilingly as she flipped the frying paratha  from the skillet down and placed it on a pkate

jawab

..it was past midnight early hours at three when naim sab who was fast asleep  his telephone kept on  ringing shrilly , his eyes flew open , unwillingly he answered the phone, it was nayab sahib his neighbor  rebuking him , if he did not stop his dog from barking  he will shoot him diwn, the dog  disturbs him   all the evening  and because of him he cant sleep properly , with that the threatening phone xall ended

Next night at the same time naim sahib returned the phone call, he rang up nayab sahib who was  sleeping soundly  , finally nayab sahib picked the phone up, baim sahib simply stated he wanted to inform his dear neighbour that he did not have any dog as a pet at home

page 215

..the hospital nurse encouraged the  frightened heart patient awaiting his  turn  to not to be scared st all as the heart surgeon had just yesterday seen a television episode on heart surgery

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A young romeo eveteaser   flirted with a pretty girl standing in the queue, i have seen you somewhere,  

The clever girl happily answered of course i  work in a nental hospital

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sarkash

...that  scene  removed  umar s boredom  instantly he turned his full attention  on the stars , all seemed normal and in their own original points yet something was different , umar fixed his gaze on a golden disk of a moon , it was not at all possible to have a moon  like that  in this kind of world

Extraordinary feelings overwgelmed umar  occupying hus mind filling up his  mindset with  strange  thoughts, he felt he could easily catch the golden moon if he only stretched his hand a bit more , his  boredom and stale life suddenly  became interesting and revived his  life energy streams , invisible  waves of energy filled him up leaving him  content and  at peace, he sat up, he looked tiwards an okdvtree  laden with fragrant  flowers  , ethreal silver beams of the night sky  bathed it  enchantingly, he once afain looked up at the moon  but it had completely disappeared

gazal by mhmd mhsn nawaz

... do come back home my dear  what follows is  expected

.to live a life there  what follows us expected

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I shall express my live fir you  so ehat follws  is expected

If you  agree willingly what follows is exoected

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What if you decorate yourself  before making  your appearance

The world will be dazzked  as us expected

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Show your strength of character what follows us expected

Use your  thoughts sharp enough to kill what is really expected

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.desires are  separate from destiny  and fate 

If  admirer us acceptable you kniw what follows

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.identities remain strong even when barriers are broken

Love is a great merger not complete eraser what follows

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.beneath their feet is the world if satusfsction

ashna ajnabi

...like   untrue friends the mood of the weather changed unpredictably, what did not change   and remained unchanged was the inner  complexion of the soul , all outer changes were meaningless completely  because the heavy heart stayed   only in sorrowful autumn

This moment also she was there by her windiw standing  mournful and sad, the window opened on the riad  as she watcged the sky shedding tears, traffic  moved at snail s pace  the scebe was drrenched in  the falling rain, people  running around drenched dripping here and there, embracing the entire scenery she stoid still in complete overwhelming silence, as if trying to find herself amidst them all

drhaqiqat

...you must have certainly heard the old saying  of wisdom in life  what  is seen  does not exist and what really exists can not be seen, so the following story is a narrative on the same theme  whether you believe it or not but as the narrator  i do , in fact these days i remember it frequently everyday , whether one is famous and  popular or  aggressively disliked , whether one is considered  honest in work or dishonest , whether one is being cheated  or falsely accused , people instantly get ready to argue over every matter thinking  they are missing out on something but  what appears on the surface is absolutely different from the truth hidden underneath 

page 39..sunheri batein

.....strange as it may seem but live and respect  are not consistent if they dont  grow they  simply are lost

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.oddly enough  dogooders have charitable nature but  they are not valued , those who are valued  are not neccessarily   dogoodders

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.nobody can steal your destiny and your  good luck, no matter what

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.Many a times someone s prsence is more painful than their absence

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...she had never before  seen so many n y police cars flashing  red blue lights circling their surroundings, the crime scene was  taped   and covered , it was  quite a huge area , a doctor was  taking care of scot in a hospital , a whisper in her ear spoke  paul must have dropped her home by now , get out from here quickly  or you will find yourself in big trouble, but she wanted to  confirm her doubts before she left, she kept on driving  firward making way for herself, a cop was tdying to tackle the traffic , her appriach drew his attention, , her car was almost  touching him , she opened the door to get out , the  grey haired cop pulled out handcuffs instatly, , she opened her handbag , his attitude changed when she showed him her golden badge given by n y p d, 

qatil kasuati

...it was a fantastuc idea , lunch in paul s office on pearl street , what a surprise it will be , she dressed up in paul s favorite apparel   , she confirmed  from his assistant  jene  he was present in his office  but she could not take a risk to keep her arrival a secret after all jene was working for him not her

Enjoying andvrelishing her own idea if giving him a surprise , she reached  his location on a vehicle, she spotted paul exiting his office  , she was forced to apply brakes  because by his side was a red head beauty, her sentiments and romantuc feelings  simpky evaporated and disappeared  in the air , she was closely aqcuainted with his office staff , this  lovely woman was not one of the staff , they were warmly comfirtable and informal with each other, both were happily smiling chatting and laughing as they walked firward , paul stopped a taxi

manzil

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manzil

..he boarded the eleven  p m bus at night, his chosen destination was sadaqbad from where he had received a phone call that fauziya had committed suicide, the phone call was  made by his brother who was located in sadaqbad then  at ten thirty , he was completely aware of  fauzya and his  relationship not only him but her both  brothers also knew of  fauzya s relationship with him  , in fact fauzya s mother also  knew of  it to some extent

He got on the bus from sikhra  , the bus had not gone very far when the busdriver had to stop it suddenly  mumbling  who had left them there on the road at night

He took a peek out from his window to glimpse a herd of sheep crossing the road, he  realsed they had  very far to go , he got engrossed in looking out of the window at the scene and when he turned to look about himself he found a girl had occupied the empty seat next to him

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... jack had not  known it was going to be that  laboriously lengthy process, bruce gad already informed him earlier  it ciukd take a week , after some hesitation hunk    emailed his bank account number  social security number and other details , followed by   a confession of jason swigg his crimes and details 

Hank was self sudpfficient and collected all infirmation from his clients , it was his officual duty to jeep all information secure  but he was himself  letting his own personal data  stolen  without knowing  who was receiving his  details , bruce  insisted they trusted the hired killer   for his loyalty, 

Bruce had  more experience and hank had to  trust his expertise, he had  gathered from news his ex wife s new husband  was olympic athelete   very healthy and fighting fit

karobar

..he  was there  for the first time after his wife s death, the bar was  buzzing with hyper energy, games were being pkayed on six flat screens around when someone showed exceptional  skills he was applauded and admired by the onlookers, everyone was  laughing out loudly and noisily , the noise was  drowning every other word said by anyone , he was sitting on a bar stool  surrounded with  screaming music  and echoing mirthful laughs 

Reaching this place had  melted away mary s memories  fading them  considerably  , the memories which he was unable to shake away no matter what he did , the memorable times spent together  constantly  ran over and over again in his mind screen like a film  replay

besabra

...the matter was quite serious and complicated so  he immediately  started , it was a  chilling  winter morning , , eighth month according to  native lunar xalendar entering  its final phase , according to georgian calender it was december  tenth  and  thursday , he as was his normal routine was ready to reach his police station  , outside his office a group of villagers sat waiting fir him  in the veranda , they looked weary, casting a casual glance over them he stepped into his office

Inside his cabin the  atmispgere was pleasant , the difference  of the mood was  absolutely  opposite from outside where it was uncomfirtably cold and  inside it felt cozy warm like a motherly embrace 

He asked his constable what was the matter why such a big crowd sat outside

Akram explained the chief chaudhary s niece was kidnapped  and her mother murdered

khauf khuda

...noshis abba  arrange  a conversation  with appa today  so long  i have not spoken to her and not seen her  missing her badly, rehmet bibi with that came to sit down near  the hot angithi  rubbing her  shivering hands with her dupatta corner , she had come in after doing wazu from the outside tap water , it was her  diehard habit of  staying  cleansed and wazued

Of course i can arrange a talk between the two of you but  i always regret later that i had helped you to contact your sisters  because your gossip goes on and on endlessly for hours ,  how can you sisters  get to talk over  irrelevant global topics  for so long  my patience is tested  as i wait for you to shut up,  realizing my mistake i  repent , abdul rehman was quite blunt  in his opinion

Come on noshi s father , it is not like that at all  embarrassed rehmet bibi retaliated weakly

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...that is why i have decided  to speak with you spoke shabana looking at him hopefully , please do tell me what to do next in this situation 

Sheraz  became  thoughtful , a few minutes later he asked  if she could show him the relevant dicuments of the plot  because her claim was that she  had all the documents safe with her

Of course, why not , she stood up  to get the important documents  and disappeared inside the house 

They had finished their   breakfast but were still  there talking  about small matters , two minutes later shabana returned holding the files , sheraz carefully  went through the papers  and spoke seriously

Madam these documents are your strength and the  strongest weapon to protect you,  keep them   safe   they are more precious than your life 

I am taking good care of them for over two years   she explained to the lawyer

khudnumai

...he was at home comfirtably percged in his couch watching football match  when his landline  shrilly rang up, though he owns mobile phones yet he trust the old fashioned technology more because its established  and more reliable

Picking up the receiver he announced  private detective  bob right speaking

On the other end it was familiar cooper, what made you call at this ungidly hour, from where did you get this number

I have got all your damn numbers, we need your service

Glad to hear that, i am shutting off , he growled

Just a moment , just hear me out first, there someone is murdered

Now the detective s all senses were put on high alert, where are you  just now 

At curse graves farmers vinery, we found a dead body here

You know i dont work for you, as long as the chuef himself does not phone me up i enjoy my leave watching football match

page 41

..ashar had two sisters and one more brother, sisters were older followed by hafuz and ashar was the youngest of them all , they all were married and settled, hafiz lived in the upper portion with his wife and children, ashar occupied the  lower portion with his mother and wife rashida, they were still childless after two years of marriage

   Ashar s father had died three years.  ago , hafiz worked. In a company and gave allowance to his mother , though he had limited resources, ashar also worked in a company  bigger than his brother s and was handsomely paid  and he had taken complete charge of the entire household 

Rashida was ashar s khala s daughter , this was his mother s choice , he was simply biding his time , he had a personal dream of having a  rich beautiful fair wife possibly a foreigner and  migrate abroad to lead a luxuriously comfortable life

sunhari mauqa

...the airport  entrance was overcrowded with people  waiting there for  their loved ones arrivals, some held flowers bouquets farlands ir nothing at all, amidst them all also was present ashar who was watching  every oassenger emerge  from the airport exit specially the girls very carefully, suzin  his girl friend from america was expected, naturally he was there to receive her, he held a picture and expectantly looked at the females  coming out from the  airport , he would look frequently at the picture to confirm his doubts  before checking  back  but his girlfriend suzin was not among them ,  though several foreigner femal  travelers  had crossed before him , his face was a mask of confusion

Suzin , where are you, he mumbked to himself , at that very moment his gaze fell on a woman walking right behind two men , her hands clutched a tag  in english letters ashar hamid, reaching the  stairs she raised the tag  and started looking around

His imoatience was visible, he was stunned to see the woman holding the  poster with his name, just to make sure he again looked at the picture, he finally consented it was her, out of shape bidy, short, large protruding paunch, apoarently she was obese