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....sheru,  spoke wasi , i have lost my new pair of shoes, , their merry laughter escaped from their mouths , perhaps it was an episode of the stolen shoes , intense fear of ammi jan.  settled on  him bringing hot tears to his eyes

Next stop was at the boat swing 

Depositing the money they. All  climbed up to settled themselves on the wooden planks , they were unstoppable at their mischief  making , a woman sat near by , wasi s elbow hit her bloated stomach  , the expectant mother  gave him two hot slaps on his face,  screaming are you blind  cant you see i am expecting , it was quite embarrassing scene realised wasi

So what  me too , i too have a stomach to take care of 

She looked  at him with surprise  

 Meantime the swing had started  , the excited noise erupted from the criwd, as the speed incread, increased the volume and  crazy shrieks  drowning the screams if this group of boys , wasi dug his teeth in the expecting woman s arm, whose shrieks rose  drowning his  and theirs were sunk together in the rising cresendo , finally their heads began spinning and the swing was stopped mid air, no refund , and extra payment to the victim woman they got down  , he was still walking bare feet , fear of ammi jan  doubled his troubles,  sheru declared he would help and procurred folded pair of  thin handnade pair of leather  provincial shies out of his pocket , he had been hiding them all this time, 

They reached nanu s boundary wall scared to death murmuring is there somebody there

Nobody there, because somebody is here came the angry vouce if nanu from behind the wall

phir uss rah guzrein

...november 21  2005

Time  dusk rapudly descending darkness

To my dear friend adi

I am  constantly praying  life  may shower  on  you  all the wonderful  blessings  from all sides  and you stay forever carefree   happy  as i left you  when i died, i write this letter  addressing only you instead of others  because several uncounted years have passed  but i still remember quite clearly it was only you who always was interested in being the head  of  us all 

You are not jyst my brother  but more than that  like a mother   affectionate and sincere in your love fir me , you were ever ready to protect me and overly cautiious  , this courage to protect  comes naturally to mothers , we were four of us adi, now also we are four of us , because i am certainly present amidst you

yunhi rstey mein

....she was simply  taking one step after another walking forward without thinking unaware of the surrounding world

Mikal is quite nice , dear he will definitely take  wonderful care of you , on her mental screen the morning breakfast scebe replayed like a film scene 

But daddy i dont want to get married  just niw  , she refysed the proposal at her level , either sides of  the  walkway were  lined up with colourful flowers but sge did not see them 

Why  wont you marry him , its a million dollar contract , they are the top  industrial group ready to  partner with us, spoje her stepmom rina 

Still engrossed in her own worrying thoughts  turned the corner on the street

Your mother is right dear , they are willing to transfer several factories on your name 

She had looked into her fsther s eyes where she realised  rina had successfully   managed to register her own thoughts 

No way daddy, i am not agreeing to any of your business  deals 

She wanted desoarately to lose herself in that crowd forever so that she will never be found again 

plan

...it was absolutely unbelievable he tgought , that russle would do something like that  spoke  faltering christan in a voice  drowned in overwhelming sorrow , from his eyes and face   incredible  misery dripped , pamela looked towards him , he sat there on the carpet his head clutched with his both hands , he was powerless  and collaosed  with  defeat

Russle did absolutely wriong, taking  extrene wrong step is not the right solution to any  situation  pamela gently spoke up, she too was grieving why russle did this

When miserable man  feels its impossible to go on  all ways to get out are shut the end has approached  then he loses his sense of judgement, he cant correctly tell right from wrong  , rubbing his eyes commented christan 

 Its so  sad he was your clise friend , what all are you going through is unimaginable  pamela understoid his  situation  completely, just gather yourself  , pamela s tone was consoling

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..in south california  university   he was  given admission and for over a year he was working very hard  earning his living doing part time jobs  overtime , they were not enough but still  he was  managing  somehow , he was a hardworking student like he was in college, he had no other friend besides arthur , he did not want to have a friend circle but then catherine came along into his life

She was their classfellow  but he bever oaid much attention to ger anyway , unlike nirmal girls catherine  was very tall  yet she was proportionate and looked innocent , tge following year both of them represented their class in comoetitions together, both shared  a passion for writing stories , bith were business students but were more deeply interested in literature,  outside their classroom they met a few times and  apparently she was drawn like a moth to him

dushman dost

...introducing catherine to arthur was his life s second most terrible mistake, now every one if you must be thinking what was his first mustake , so let me tell you , the first  biggest mistake  was making friends with arthur, it was when he had just stepoed onto the threshold of youth, he was like any other ignorant youth enjoying every moment in life  unaware of the troubles life   holds  , arthur appeared  with his brown gair  blue pair of eyes  , a clever looking face , the narrator had few friends in college  , he used to sit alone in the classes  and arthur occupied the seat next to him , introduced himself hi i am arthur just got admission yesterday , his tone was informal 

I am christan introduced the narrator himself , i am here from the beginning of the session  , his voice was rather rude , though he was not a loner nor bored it was simpky arthur himself whise prsence christan  actively disliked  then 

Christan, why do you sit so far  cut off from others, silent , dont you have any  friends in the class , his eyes were fixed on a girl sitting two rows ahead , her posture revealed every  attractive  angle  inviting  boys   glances 

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...rukhsar ridiculed simply  if love was not an error and disturbance in mind 

Sayad murad stopped her gently to speak like that  because she was quoting  ghalib s coupket tge latter half part incomplete aand the twisted version to prove her point, but ghalib wrote it to explain his situation ,it was a narrative of his past experience. 

But i am not at all interested in listening to any piets  love life sge spoke impatiently  and i am not passing any law against love and romance  she added annoyed , nasir was in love  with nazbi  and this disturbed state of his mind sent him behind the bars 

I got my answer to my question , whether falling in love with nazbi was nasir s disturbed mind or a matter of heart  clearly rukhsar was unhappy that  nasir chose nazbi