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.....since her  childhood  to the  threshold of her  youth  she was  influenced  by the attitude of her father,  all other siblings got quickly  habituated to his ways except her because  secretly she  desired to be independent  , master of her own life and lifestyle,  she didn't like being  ordered around,  she dreamt  only of herself  being the authority  and not the  docile  subordinate  following  instructions  like a  slave  in silence,  but how could she  get that  position  was bothering her