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....what should I do,  should I tell it , she asked the  tree trunk  talking to it, ,  she continued  speaking to the tree  that it wasn't  something normal  she must  silently  tolerate,  deception and cheating and faithlessness  in the society  and  religious practices are   blown up  by  the wicked  and  staying silent is empowering tgem as you become their partner in crime,  exposing them is difficult  and  she was confessing to the tree 

She  looked at the leaves of the tree,  it was  a  lush green  old mango tree that stood  staring back at her , out of season  devoid of fruit standing there sad and  lonely 

But from where  will she  acquire  the vocabulary  to narrate such a big thing,  her tongue   would  become speechless  bashful because  what she had to tell was extremely bitter acidic and  shameful,  she  was becoming nervous  and weak  just  by the  thought of it, , brought up in a conservative manner  that girl  who had never seen any bollywood movie  in the company of her father and brothers  was  profusely sweating   just at the  idea of having to tell it 

But  by not tell it there  was  again  deliberate  cheating intended,  after effects   of it would be a long shameless hangover  ethically,  criminals  would become more  daring  and insensitive and  hard,  , she picked up a yellow leaf dropped by the tree  and thoughtlessly  crushed it

But if she  shared  what was troubling her mind   that could  aggravate  the matter,  if  some extreme step was taken   she would lose  her standing,  she began thinking  at the  matter in her mind  from  a different perspective