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.....she heard  shahan cry and got up to ready his feeder , appa stopped her and said she would do it , it was a surprise  for  firstly  appa  spoke her name correctly  in years,  second  appa was offering to help her,  but this was  janan s routine  , appa  had observed her closely  that she hadn't  slept last night,  feeder was ready and shahan  went back to sleeping,  jana  went to the lounge where appa was sitting  with lowered eyes, it was true and shameful  sarmad  was going astray,  jana  had just a few clothes  to pack  and lots of memories  , appa  stopped her from leaving  , appa asked her not to cry  because she was a brave woman,  who didn't lose courage  bringing  her children to the world  , when   gudia was  unconscious  in hospital  both sarmad and appa  prayed and cried  but jana  stayed calm and hopeful