page 31

...that software company was smaller than  his expectations  but he was satisfied  to get a platform to  fulfill his  ideas,  if only he got a chance to prove himself  the doors to success would open  to him,  , wealth  and  fame  would  become his soul mates,  , how he had  longed  to taste success,  , he had  lost  so much  in this game of life,  first it was Sameer and the child  then  in the second life  he lost his parents  and  also  perhaps  his  dignity  in their eyes  by disgracing  them,, most importantly his parents lost  their  trust   , ammi could have  some time later  forgiven him  but abbu was strictly stubborn  and  it was impossible  for him to forgive him,  , even if zeshan  won over  the whole world  abbu  wouldn't have  stuck  to his opinion,  , he felt  he gad forever lost abbu,  it was  his first  stay overnight  in that country,  his was a one room apartment  , his company was paying for it,  it was just a walking distance away from his office,  , he had a telephone and internet  facility  , he wanted to  ring up back home but couldn't find enough courage,  

The success he had dreamed off  of was  just  a few steps away  but   his  condition was  unreasonably  dissatisfied,  he couldn't  explain it  why he felt the same way as he did in his first life 

Next day he  officially   started  his project,  all his associates were  gathered    , their support  was  needed but they all looked  not so  enthusiastic, 

 zeshan  began to speak  and Addy cut him short  uncaringly that they had seen the  whole  layout of the project,  in yesterday's  meeting  the matter was discussed so better start   the practical work  instead of  lecturing,  his tone  and intonation was deliberately provoking but  he managed to control himself  and said if Addy was certain he needed no instructions  no guidelines  he was free to go start  straight away his  job, with Addy   stood up Maria and Joseph   to whom zeshan asked to sit down  he still wasn't finished,  Joseph and Maria looked at each other meaningfully  and shrugging their shoulders explained they already knew what to do