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.... shamina s death  for nadim was unbelievably shocking,  , thirty years togetherness  seemed merely an illusion of sheer sentiments,  the shock wasn't  the only thing he was going through  , he also had a lonely life to take care of, it was testing to pass his time,  , according to  their family traditions and social customs  for forty days he had to meet the  mourners   at home,  etiquette  didn't permit him to  avoid them,  for first ten days it was nearly impossible for him to  adjust to this new situation,  he had differences with shamina but  he lost his companion  of thirty years,  , his personality  changed and he missed his smart phone,  breakfast was brought from the market  for him either by bashr or Ahmed,  lunch was given by  Anam and dinner by market but  mainly now he had to tackle his loneliness,  his  self esteem  dropped,  that kind of  low self esteem only shamina could understand