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.......when he emerged from the house  night had fallen,   all the way back home  his mind was constantly  debating  , past memories and  scenes etched into his mind  colored with  intense hatred  of ammi ought to have  aggressively  annoyed him but his heart felt no emotions at all of any kind,  there was no love,  no attachment,  no respect  not even  hatred or anything negative,  he reached home to find ammi impatiently waiting for his return