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....she had  spoiled all their plans,   the  cunning scheme she had  outlined in her mind was  destroyed by her , specimen of helplessness  and misery,  she felt like a lost soul,  , like  a beggar  holding a bowl  before  saira veghum  , listening to her parents takes of shortcomings,  she completely lost her self control  , her sobs were unstoppable  escaping her admirable  lips , saira beghum looked at her lowered  luxuriant  head  with  unemotional  eyes  saying there was no reason to cry because  it  wasn't going to change  the facts of life,  darnaqnoon wiped  her damp  cheeks rubbing her palms , saura beghum  refused to give up, as long as the elder woman  and amma were there alive to take care of her  it was  fine  but what  would  she  do  after  them, it was bitter but reality,  the question  hit  her