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.....after all  why is it impossible to forgive    the accused  ,  why  one's  courage  fails  and  narrow  rigidity  takes over,  so much  so  that  those who love you sincerely  and unconditionally    also  are doubted,  one's   deeds are not forgotten  nor ignored,   in fact sorrows inflicted  by  close  friends  give more pain and become emotional  sores for life  , they are not mere wounds  but  extremely  painful experiences  , he saw his papa and agha  jan going out  and blamed himself  for being a brute to  the woman  who loved him , he had tormented her, harassed  her and been ruthless,  he couldn't  forgive himself