dimaghi fitoor

....he was exhausted and  feeling quite low without doing anything,   this was observed  first of all by his wife,  mir sahib , you slept like a log all night  yet you look so tired,  then turning her face  she remarked  she was on her toes since morning seven  working 

He answered bored it wasn't anything,  

Nothing,  her tone was stormy ready to pick up an argument so he  took it as a warning sign not to give any explanation 

Why don't you speak up

, there is no benefit in talking to you,  one holiday a week and you spend it sleeping  or relaxing alone in your corner 

Will you keep on nagging or get me some tea 

You don't care about me,  do you know what time of day it is 

He looked at the clock and understood why she was getting mad at him,  it was past eleven 

from previous

...there is nothing  difficult nor impossible in this world,  everyone finds it rather difficult  before starting a project  but  nothing  remains difficult  when  courage  comes thus so true God helps them who help themselves,  

page 217

...many a people  spread hatred  in the hope of getting back true love 

.love is not a visible object  or everyone would have   owned it

..beautiful words improve the texture of expression but without goodness they are mere hollow  words 

...difficulties in life are to make life better  like  a sizzling afternoon   brings relief from it in the cool evening   adding importance to the evening 

...over confidence  sometimes  goes haywire  but  low confidence always does

...prayers  can change the destiny but can't recover the time which is wasted 

page 201

...next day  Farhan  completed all his  bank work  thereafter abid took him to sharu s office,  they were introduced 

He is a  licensed  architect  informed  abid about  Farhan  to sharu, he wants to set up his own  company  but I have brought him to solve your problems 

Sharu was about twenty two  and smart  attractive girl  , with a sad face  she asked Farhan how could he help her 

First of all you have to tell me what are your  problems you are facing 

First problem is several people are  obstinately stopping my payments 

Second problem is some construction companies are interfering in my business and not letting things happen 

As long as my husband was alive he was actively looking after to every thing 

Third  is the man who was assisting my husband has taken over my business as a broker 

My finances have reduced to one third in these past few months 

Farhan said  he can't help her in her loss

But  first  she has to think she is starting  a fresh 

Secondly  legal notice will be sent to all those who have stopped your payment,  company legal advisor will do it

Thirdly  you must give me all the details of all the companies  posing obstacles in your business 

But the legal advisor has resigned and left

Farhan thought for a moment 

He was to select his staff for his company  he could also  find some  suitable staff for hers too, her office was  good decent big place  so both of them together  can  take interviews  of the selected candidates  , advertising in the newspaper 

Kaya palat

......abid started his car,  Farhan sat next to him,  he had come to receive him at the airport 

Abid asked him  he had informed him of his arrival but what was his real purpose of coming,  was he missing  him 

There was a purpose but Farhan also missed abid  , he had casually informed which flight he was coming on but didn't expect to see him there to collect him he could have  taken a taxi and  stayed in a hotel 

Abid  didn't like his friend  s suggestion of his staying in some hotel when abid was alive and welcoming 

Farhan tells abid he was there to start a business 

Abid was shocked  because  Farhan had inherited so much  he could simply  waste away his life doing nothing and throwing money everywhere 

Did he lose it all in gambling and spice Girls 

No , he didn't gamble,  nor drink  nor had any bad habits  but he wanted to build up his  construction company  he was a professional architect 

Abud still unmarried  was trying out his third girlfriend  to settle down,  the first two were  cheap flirrts robbing him of his money  not wife material 

So naturally both abid and Farhan could  happily  stay together  and  have fun time together 

page 187

....are you hungry  right now  , suddenly Alfred  cut off  James  narrative 

I haven't eaten since morning  slowly explained James 

Alfred heard in his voice hunger and deprivation 

Just wait , give me few minutes  I will be back and hear your  rest of the story  stood up  Alfred,  he stopped after some steps,  I am coming  back  and all of you four have to tell me his story  before committing suicide,  Alfred was making sure  they stayed alive  till he returned 

Of we remember it you just hurry up  we are  ready to commit suicide  one voice rose  saturated  with  defeat 

Alfred took some ten twelve minutes  holding  some   cartons  containing  burgers  sandwiches and juices 

Come on you four,  eat these first  , James  take a break  and after eating  continue with the rest of your story,  Alfred said picking up one burger and pushing all the rest of the eatables before them,  he thought they will refuse to eat  and he will have to coax them  but he was wrong  and completely surprised to see them four  eagerly grabbing  the food 

bat suno

.... nightfall  was setting on the daytime,  one young man approached the bridge   which stretched across the  noisy  gushing water,  three more youths his age within seconds   came to stand near him  not  connected to each other  all looked at tge water flowing  waves rising and falling to pieces,  the faces of all four  showed  unhappiness  sorrowfulness and sadness,  they all were there with a purpose,  to commit suicide,  it was a notorious suicide point,  the bridge was built for committing suicides,  everyday someone would jump to his death  to escape the unhappiness of his life,  that bridge had swallowed many a lives and today the four young boys stood there to jump 8nto the waters 

page 183

...  as the story goes 

One time it happened  the hazrat  Ibrahim  bought a slave  and asked him  what will you eat 

Whatever you give 

What will you wear 

Whatever you will  give 

What is your name 

Whatever  name you give 

What will you do 

Whatever you will  wish 

Any appeals 

What  appeals  can a slave make 

Hearing him out the hazrat  caught hold of his own collar and  spoke to himself 

You blessed miserable soul,  remember to behave  like this slave   when you pray to your almighty 

page 20

...when his eyes opened  the clock showed eight in the morning,  the first thought if the morning was the bitter memory of the night before,  sleepless night and  headache and heavy eye lids from crying,  he had come into the room  after the night had passed,  on the eastern horizon  the mix of divine lights  were starting to play  in the leftover of the last night's darkness,  but she wasn't even there  at least  not for him   who was the reason for her to be there,  she was completely forgotten  with all her attributes  of beauty  and presence,  no greetings were exchanged  no  explanation for being late no excuses  were given,  he was about to fail down from his wheelchair trying to get into his bed ,  there wasn't any glances  of proximity , dressed in heavy  bridal  sge cane forward to help him,  sitting on his bed he flung her hand off

These are  cheap tactics of you middle class girls,  you can't fool me  enjoy,   life as Mrs sheheryar,   feast and party and have fun , stay away from me,   your fake sympathy is not needed,  leave me alone , he wasn't himself or from his eyes fire would have  burned down the woman heavily clad in bridal  looking at him  in surprise  to a standing pile of ashes

page 179

... dark dusk had turned into  pitch dark,  she  switched her car headlights on,  not slowing down at all  driving at the same speed , every turn she turned  her tyres screeched shattering the  stillness   around  and far away 

Turning a corner  without slowing down was equal to inviting her death  but her troubled mind was still under the hangover of one mind stuck  in her head  ,,flee,  get away from the  clutches of inam shah as fast as possible,   she was guilty and helpless  forced by circumstances to run away  as far as she could go 

In the far straight distance  a neon  signboard was  visible  brightly,  in a  blink  she crossed the neon  signboard  information  of a  toll booth s presence one mile away,  headlights of the car  were shifting  at great speed on that  coiling road 

 Farida  s face was being  incessantly  hit by the  chilling  drifts  from the window  but she was unaffected,  she strongly held the steering wheel  ger eyes focused on the wind screen 

page 177

...her  heart was beating  very fast,  her  mind was soaked in sheer fear  every passing moment intensifying  the fear , heart beats echoed impending  death 

Whatever she had to do could be done only after  sunset in the looming shadows of the darkness,  but it was broad daylight  right now,  each moment  hung  heavy  like time had stopped  densely,  time was tied up  , as if the daylight had  promised never to go away 

She was absolutely afraid of those dark shadows  but today she was overwhelmingly waiting for the darkness  to envelope  her because  the black dark sheet of the darkness only could  embrace her  to protection 

page 155

...situation and events  pointed that the victim  broke into the house to rob , he certainly was aware of the fact that Adil and his family were not at home  , they were away in jamalkot , he tried to take advantage of this situation  , instead of profiting from it he met his inevitable death,  the moment he was to leave with  the booty someone smashed hus head , now the question arises at this point who is responsible for this unidentifiable victim's death 

More questions arise from this first question,  if the victim could easily get inside  across the wall why did he make a hole in the back wall,  what was he looking for,  all the stolen goods disappeared  out of sight how  , what's the exact condition of the interior of the house  for that  one had to see the scene of crime  when the owners were present,  there was perhaps another way to get inside the house from that opening in the wall , it was big enough  two feet square  to allow a man to pass through it , but it was not ethical  so the police officer sent  a messenger to jamalkot to bring back the family  and Adil 

awaz haqq

..... the voice of the rightful can never be suppressed,  the rightful  are a reality  as clear and pure as a fresh morning sunrise 

It was one cold chilling  morning in January,  he reached his   office room   ready  for work  , a constable was waiting  to give him information,  Malik sahib  an odd weird  dead body  is found 

page 153

..life in jungles scared of man 

Bright lights threatening life

How to survive in this deceptive world 

Beautiful soul  I fear your simplicity 

from previous

.... in the waiting room  the unemployed  were  beginning to gather,  it was a weekend,  according to  information in the second half the rush of the needy  was increased,  Shakir gad a plan  to  use on them , 

Shakir after meeting  tausif  was   taking  steps on serial killer mystery,  the first step was he was registering himself with a fake identity,  he reached  third party corporation  , his entire  c v was completely  fictitious,  he was to produce  his c n I c later,  he paid one thousand  rupees for registration,  he had succeeded in obtaining his first target 

page 109

....is Albert found out  asked Paul  his face full of scars and burns made him look  frightening 

Oh yes  answered  Tony 

So finally after seven years h the run ahe was caught way  man is caught,  but the good thing is he didn't tell anything to the police , it's surprising actually  because he had threatened leaving the gang  he would  confess to the police and destroy the gang  but what made him  remain silent,  perhaps he wants to rejoin  our gang  spoke Paul as Tony nodded 

Paul had a big gang of snuggling  money laundering murders and  all sorts of illegal  crimes  under his expert supervision,  on some point his closest  man Albert had left him , it happened seven years ago,  such a long time had elapsed  Albert had given threats of destroying them but nothing really happened  yet  Paul always  stayed prepared  because they were  partners in crime  Albert knew all his  secrets 

angoothi

....is that really true someone is  watching me  thought Albert rather  surprised and worried,  but why would someone  keep an eye on me , why should  someone  anyone be watching me,  several questions rose inside his disturbed mind 

Albert was an advertising manager in a company,  he was married two years ago  but his marriage was a complete failure,  seven months of marriage ended in a divorce,  he lived alone in his flat,  he would start his day by making breakfast for himself,  going to office,   coming back to cook his dinner,  his routine was simple enough nothing to watch  him for 

He told himself  he was leading an ordinary life  , what was this happening  different from  expected,  and what for,  Albert  s mind was engrossed  as he lay sprawling on his long chair,  perhaps his estranged  ex wife was scheming  some mischief,  it could be probably so  but he argued  cutting off his own doubts  that after divorce and before divorce  he had not been involved in anything  that she would have to watch his life  every minute so minutely 

That he was being followed  he had suddenly realized a few days ago,  he was home after work  made coffee as usual and sat down near the window in his large chair,  he was startled to spot a person  clad in black,  black trousers,  black jacket  standing there  before him in the ground   watching his window , he quickly disappeared  amidst the children playing in the ground  when he was seen

from previous

....when Lawrence reached home  Jina was already fast asleep,  he also lay down to sleep, next morning at breakfast he spoke about greesha  he had met at the bar,  Jina didn't show any interest  or curiosity,  he became silent 

Greesha and Lawrence began seeing each other frequently,  every time she met him she  showered praises and admiration  on him , she was apparently aware  of his attributes,  he was getting tired of her 

Once more one night  greesha  expressed her inner feelings  thoroughly  verbally 

Lawrence what's there that you find  in Jina  , why don't you leave her

I have several times before told you  let me tell you once again  in case of separation  seventy percent of business shares have to be returned 

Can't you give her a divorce  and also keep the shares without losing them 

She can  claim her shares lawfully  , what  else law is required to do 

If sge remains alive only then can she claim her legal rights 

Lawrence was shaken  by greesha  s words,  he carefully looked at her,  he couldn't have ever thought of that,  it was definitely probable 

khufya mission

....Lawrence sat with greenhouse in the bar  watching her closely,  she still hadn't spoken anything  about what was it she wanted,  before  meeting him she had strictly  instructed him to reach the place  on time  all alone,  she had something very important to discuss,  Gresham was his wife  Jina s friend,  Jina had introduced them  , he didn't like her at the first glance,  thereafter several more occasions they found seeing each other,  Lawrence was also a face reader, he was quite an expert and accurate therefore  in his mind  her character sketch was imprinted,  his mind  said greenhouse was a greedy selfish woman  ready to do anything to get ber way  , even  ready to take any extreme step 

He shared his feelings  about greenhouse with Jina his wife  , but Jina had smiled  and simply  spoke  greenhouse was a most wonderful person 

page 93

...tell the whole story

I am introducing you to  him who  phoned me  to tell you hus story,  it's better you hear him out firsthand,  but he wants to see you inside closed room only  to keep it secret  and doesn't want audiences 

They reached the trailer side , outside the screen door there stood two wooden steps,  Andrew climbed on one of them knocked at the door,  a few minutes later the was opened,  they stepped inside,  the door was shut after them 

The trailer room was faintly lit , the low ceiling was damp and patchy,  seemingly the signs of leaking,  the walls were  built of  scarred  blemished wooden planks,  the floor was cracking  evenly everywhere,  there was a tiny makeshift  kitchen in a corner,  a corridor from there lead to the bedroom,  behind them were the bathroom, a very old unit

darazdast

....private detective  wali Kosta dodging  a truck  reached  Brazil Avenue  and  on great  speed  took his car to the fifty floor  office tower  by the sky bay 

On the first floor  was situated a snack joint  the most expensive  business place in Miami,  usually  wali didn't eat at such places,  so when  immigration attorney   Alice ardon invited him at the last moment fir lunch  he immediately  canceled his own  reservation at the subway and walked towards her 

Wali stepped into the restaurant   furnished  with expensive  furniture arranged tastefully,  Miami is Latin American  business hub,  Brazil Avenue  its pride  and farman that platform where the powerful and the  influential personalities  arrived  to negotiate  new ventures 

Wali spotted  Alice sitting in a corner  at a small table,  he moved purposefully towards her  and sat down opposite her

It wasn't an important table  but that was the only  thing  to be grateful for,  she had recently  solved an immigration case  and for that she had received a handsome   commission,  she was celebrating her success  and wali was invited 

page 61

....after speaking with Suleman Badr hashmi  waniqa was called for an audition,  shah Murad  accompanied  her on audition,  he gave his daughter  some last moment tips to stay confident,  she was enthusiastic yet slightly   apprehensive,  her audition was successful and sge was selected for a side role  of a mischievous younger sister of the heroine in a serial,  she was quite happy,  the producer handed her the script to read out her lines, and shah Murad eager and impatient read the  whole script himself before her, 

Shah Murad  suggested to his daughter  waniqa to refuse to accept the role 

Why she asked 

In this character  there is no scope to perform,  it is just a filler , drama  can do without this  character,  in this showbiz  world   first entry is most important  and must make a lasting impact 

wahi rastey wahi manzilein

....for aniqa it was an odd situation  unexpected  unthought of,  she remained silent for a while and then said  sir I will ask my father 

Where  is your father  I mean  what does he do  ask  sulman Badr hashmi 

..sir , he is an editor of a magazine,  he also worked as a film director 

Really,   the producer  was startled 

Yes sir 

Can you tell us his name 

Shah Murad 

Oh he   is a  famous name  in the film industry , I have seen many of his movies,  it means you inherited  your father's  talent of acting 

He wasn't an actor but a director sir

TV producer  smiled  deliberately,, madam  nobody is better actor than tge director himself 

page 14

....two months had passed,   third also , , , she couldn't remember anything of his face  except his eyes and that he was in a wheelchair,   , today  in a long luxury car Mrs zulfar had arrived with a  marriage proposition 

Are you scared of getting married  , don't you worry,  nobody is going to give their consent,  people are extremely shameless  to bring marriage proposal of their  crippled son, asking had also thought the same   looking  at the other standing there by the window 

No I am not at all worried,  second time  she had whispered to herself,  what if she was really  married to to him  , the  mesmerizing pair if eyes  ,  she found on were so captivating   , what if she found herself helplessly  taken over,  she saw images of his eyes everywhere  on the walls   in the corners wherever she looked,  the  same  reflection of eyes  that had seeped into her mind silently three months ago 

So what if that man is  crippled  , he is mentally  agile,  they were extremely wealthy,  they must have spent lots on his treatment,  but is looks  he will remain crippled for life,  

How could she say hus eyes were brilliant and intelligent 

Eyes don't lie 

page 55

...I didn't understand  sir  he spoke  surprised 

Let me explain  spoke sergeant Eric,  he then started giving instructions to David  by tomorrow  all the details  should be before me , get to work right now,  drop me first at Mrs brown  s house and then  go away,  take my car, I will catch a taxi back home  from there,   I want to check it out if the dead body is already sent for the postmortem David nodded 

He dropped  the sergeant at Mrs brown s  bungalow,  Eric once again was inside the house,  as  expected  routine  was done  , bodies were taken away for postmortem,  he stayed in the bungalow fir some time  asking questions  about Elizabeth  from miss lorin and the security 

Next morning he reached the office quite late,  he called David  from the police station  

You were absolutely right David dragged a chair smiling  and sat down 

So you have found out something 

Of course  mire than I had  expected 

Good you have really worked hard on it

page 53

...a rather tall  and attractive woman opened the door,   she asked  looking surprised  , what do you want   , 

I am sergeant  Eric and this is officer  David,  3e are here to investigate  Mr Romeo  for a murder case,  his voice was gentle 

What do you want to ask my husband about the murder,  what has my husband got to do with it,  her voice was worried  and anxious 

Madam  it's better you called your husband  we will interrogate him  in your presence  by the way what is your name  , asked the sergeant  in his  professional manner  yet gentle 

I am jacklyn,  you can ask Romeo anything,  I m sure he  has nothing to do with this  he is not this kind of a man that police follow him to interrogate him, there is definitely something wrong  she stood aside  lett the sergeant and the investigating officer walk past her into the room,  they sat down in the drawing room  sge walked towards one side  perhaps to inform Romeo that the police was there waiting to ask questions 

She returned dew minutes later  with a handsome attractive man , his head was still damp  as if he just had had his shower, the sergeant    thought  jacklyn was absolutely right  her husband Romeo was having a bath

maharrak

...elli Jackson was forty  or around it , his hairline was receding rapidly , he was  useless  self centered man,  spectacles on hus soft blue eyes,  hus dressing sense  impeccable immaculate,  hus attire was perfect nit because hus job demanded it but it was hus personal  choice 

When people showed interest in him Jackson would  become surprised  he knew he wasn't  a handsome attractive man  nor a celebrity famous and popular  yet he really liked being admired,  basically he was a loner

from previous

....so what your concern  about this 

 I have no problem just that the boss was overly  annoyed  with me,  I was asked to leave the job  perhaps  within a couple of days I have to go,  she spoke looking at ajaz , he was surprised  and asked  in raspy  tone  but why  does he know about us  our relationship 

Yes ge knows all about us and  I am blamed for not being sincere enough in my job that I  neglect my duties and meet you frequently on the job, boss believes  I am a  traitor  she spoke  confidently 

Ajaz  had   imagined all sorts of things  unnecessarily  he became silent for a while before asking her to really give up her company job,, sge didn't have to worry about working anywhere  anymore  , he would give her the amount equal to her salary 

But sge couldn't  they were not married 

from previous

....ajaz was quite disappointed,  for two days saharsh had not let him contact her , she didn't pick up his calls nor did she ring him up,  what was happening  he thought,  he had  believed she would     stick to him closer  until  the new bulgow  was  bers , when this bulgow  was just an idea  he had all this chain reaction n mind  , he had even  thought of several excuses  to make her stay with him longer  but saharsh didn't react as he wanted to she was uncaring  of him  , he feared perhaps sge knew the truth behind the bungalow  , he enquired if all was well  with saharsh and her family,  he was told she was regularly going to work,  as usual  she on her way back  spent some  time relaxing in the park,  all was fine with her life

Evening was  casting long dar shadows when he phoned her , she instantly answered the phone,  then he asked  eagerly impatiently,  where have you been all this time,  no calls  no contact  are you doing well 

Yess all is well  at this end  just worried about mama, she sighed long 

What happened to mama 

 I disclosed    about our marriage 

I had just started to open the conversation  and 

He cut her short  I had specifically asked you to keep silent   on this matter  and  everything would have become fine  but you have spoiled it all

page 17

.... in the last phase of the night  saharsh stood by her window in her room looking out  , before her was the street lights casting  light on the   vacant  road  disappearing in the distant dark , it was a frozen scene  sge herself also was rooted  to the spot,  for quite long sge was there thinking,  her mind hyper active  and confused,  sge was unable to take a decision,  she was frightened of herself,  she was decided  she would avenge her mother's  cruelty but she was falling weak , ajaz hadn't changed a bit , same tone,  same style  same love and passion  in fact  he was showing more craziness  , perhaps he was aware of  losing her , the moment she appeared  before him  she   simply melted away  ,she feared she would definitely lose the game,   what after that,  the anxious thoughts gave her shivers 

page 255

.....reaching home he informed husnara about his new job,  he showed her the letter , she was extremely happy  , she immediately phoned gunny to thank her

That night  it rained  accompanied with  lightning and thunderstorms,  it became pleasant and cool , the aur was chill , his  small bedroom turned  divine  with cool  incoming drifts,  husnara  s attractions  seemed heavenly  in that  paradise bedroom  filled with pleasantly  blowing  cool winds after the rainfall 

Long before he was married to husnara he had decided not to increase the size of his family until he could afford to provide for them,  

At fajar be woke up to recite hus prayers , he got ready before coming to sit down in the lounge,  he was to leave  for  sakran times as field worker as sahani

muhabbet khwab ummid

...in a dimly lit up room   one night in early winter  , the steaming hot tea cup placed near the window  , autumn sun  spilled the landscape van gogh   blue flowers  a girl  six year old in a pool water of which was so pure and refreshing  nestled amidst  canopies of trees she sat her feet in water

Your phone is ringing 

Her maid brought her her bag, inside it the vell was still ringing,  her first reaction was like a   quill filled with ink ready and eager to scribble m honey s first moment was exactly  like that impatient  , sending the little girl inside she stuck her mobile to her ear listening  and walking  beside the pool

No, all are well,  thankfully  you know  how scared I was

Amma wasn't informed  because I know  sge would never  give permission for home tuitions 

page 15

....that evening saharsh as usual left  her home to go to the park,  outside  chilling  drifts welcomed her , such weather was quite rare for the natives,  pleasant  surroundings and beautiful scenery also failed to uplift her mood,  neither  the chilling  winds nor the  pleasant refreshing air could  give her the experience of  , nor the trees  nor flowers nor the winter air could drawr  her attention,  she was  confused,  unable to  settle  for anything , her destiny was unacceptable,  she was disturbed,  ajaz was constantly  messaging her, she wasn't answering,  his messages were completely ignored,  each message  provoked her to take revenge from shaukat  father of ajaz, , something was restricting ber , this moment also she was moving steadily  thinking of revenge,  suddenly she heard a car halt behind her, , she heard someone's footsteps  approaching,  before she could stop and turn around to see who was it the footsteps started walking  beside her , she had recognized him by his personal perfume,  her heart began racing,  she wasn't  prepared at all  right now fir ajaz s arrival 

Gazal

...all signs on the way to the destination are in sight 

Wherever  the vision is  caravans are on the move

Sometimes  they are remembered like lost happiness 

It feels like being in a spring garden 

Protecting  drenched birds 

Several  attributes  the trees have 

Perhaps they  also love old things 

For many ages birds live I trees

In search of peace  one is ready to go to any level 

Unaware  peace resides only at home 

Mutual trust  courtesies  love and care 

All are active on  the road of love 

Problems we don't want to sort out 

Find them  nestled amidst  buts and ifs confused 

If our vessel sinks it would seem 

Whole sea is sinking all the boats 

They have reached their destination kanwal

Certain of being lifelong companions