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....when I am  speaking  never  interrupt,  this is the  first time  so I forgive you your  mistake  he tightly clutched  her chin and his words seemed  menacing  as he hissed and chewed his words,  , pain shot up in her   and  neha s eyes filled with tears , 

Threatening he declared  he hated  lies,  he was aware  because of her family  background  she couldn't  have known and  sat up so confidently in his bed,  but  certainly he must have touched her, his  open challenge   on her character  made her feel  cheap  , she wanted to bury  herself alive  that very moment,  

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....one and half months later the reports in her hands  proved  she had  to trust  ashman , noor had to drop out from her studies,  ashman took her to a rented  small cottage  , he had taken help from  friends  and the two  of them  were married  , she gave  birth to a healthy child  and the two of them lovingly  gave  him  the  name  shah mir, , time kept  on passing by  and finally  ashman   obtained his degree,   this was the point of  time   to tell his   family  about  noor, 

He didn't want to directly  take her home  without  preparing  his family,  he arranged a hotel room for her to stay in , he would take  shah mir with him, , he promised to return to get her when  the  atmosphere  at home was  better,  and if things don't work well  in their favor  he would  come  back  to her and  live in Lahore,  what could  noor  say

! Leaving her behind in the hotel  he carried  little shah mir  home 

The first person  he  met  was  sayyad bhai who asked whose child was that 

Ashman  replied  it was his  son  clutching  shah mir so tight  fearing  someone mi snatch  him  away 

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....food is served,  come  and  eat it called out Farah,  mamma abd phuphu obediently  came in,  , cleaning up  she  too sat down to eat,  Phuphu had  done  a lot  for  the meal,  Walid Taya jan  came in as tgey all were still eating,  he wanted to meet them before  they left, , he placed his hand over her her head  that made her laugh happily,  they were really about to leave,  ,  bhi, please  instruct  junaid or shah mir to drive them up to  the  stop,  Farhan was to  drop them but he had to  go early morning,  phuphu invited him to sit down  and called  tabassum to get breakfast for mamu   outside where they  sat

Mention of the name shah mir skipped  several  heart beats of mah

Taya jan  refused  to have breakfast so early  instead he asked to have a hot cup of tea,  he took out his  phone from the  pocket and punched a number  and asked shah mir  where was he

Okm get the car keys from your  chachu ashman 

Drop neha and mah at the stop, hearing this  mah para s eyes  dilated,  shah mir was ashnan chachu s son,  she turned to look  meaningfully  at her mamma  who was also now watching  shocked at Walid Taya,  they gad believed  shah mir was ashman  s son and on that belief  a castle  8n the air was built  that suddenly collapsed and with it collapsed  the older woman  as the younger rushed towards her and Taya looked at tge fallen woman turning blue and again punched a number on his phone 

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....excuse me 

He turned to look at the person speaking,  that girl was directly   talking to him,  the veil round her neck was hanging down,  pretty wheatish complexion  didn't  put down her spirits,  quite confident  she stood there,  he was a self confident man yet he got confused when she asked him what had happened to him  that he clutched the ground beneath him 

He staggered nothing  was the matter 

Ok fine then  hold this notice and get copies made  of them 

Adding she instructed him to bring the copies in the canteen where she will be  found,  she left him in a confused state  handed him the money  and the papers with  orders to be followed 

! Then as if suddenly remembered something she firmly  told him not to get overclever  and over smart  because she knew his rollnumber and class and name  so he must be careful 

Poor boy he dare not  anything  he was completely  astounded,  he had seen  so many girls in his life  but this one was amazing  and, how  her attitude showed talking to a complete stranger and compared his own fiance  neha who behaved so  inappropriate 

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....it was  his  adamant  demand that  the next morning  they sat drinking tea by the  natural pond      she shivered  in the  chilling air, the tea they had git from home in thermos, sge broke tge wall of silence  between them  and asked him why was he  going away  , he could   join  some local college instead 

He complained  she herself was hidden behind seven   locks,  what mattered  to her if he was there or not,  he meant  to tease her but hus statement  hurt her badly,  

She could  spend her whole life simply sitting by his side like this,  but she was not allowed to,  their elders decided  fir their  well-being,   they had obligations,  restrictions were  placed to protect them,  nobody was objecting to their  alliance  or they would not be  engaged,  he ought not to misinterpret  things  neha was awfully upset 

And what benefit  is of it to her anyway 

How could she tell  of worldly  benefits she was so inexperienced and young

Only sixteen,  hearing this from her ge broke into a long loud laughter 

If she is so  young  why was sge engaged to get married 

Because you insisted 

Then  he must also be permitted to see her  frequently on his instance 

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....she was busy in the kitchen  and turned at the  unexpected  voice  asking  neha  to give  him a cup of tea  , the tea  tray was almost arranged,  shaman had  surprised her,  what was he doing there 

He argued  if  it was a prohibited area with his  entry banned,  he  helped himself   picking up a glass from the stand and  taking water from the cooler  , she  stood   like  a rock  unmoving  , she was a hopeless case 

Did he not  know  their marriage proposal  was  not concluded  and  the elders were in the next room, if Taya  abbu saw them together  it would  be  awful he must go out of the kitchen,  she was terribly  worried,  the tea in cups  in the tray  was cooling off 

He seemed careless,  her Taya  was his abbu  why was she scared,  he will be scolded  

She was nervous and  speechless  , he agreed to leave,  they were getting engaged,  after that he would  have a right to  command  a little  so she must learn to  be strong,  he pinched her nose and turned to  leave,  

Her breathing rebooted  , she was as much a coward as he was bold , she so plain as he was  dashing 

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.....there was nobody  to surpass  her  in the entire  barat  , first reason  was sge was skilled  makeup artist,  second reason  was that she was blessed with extraordinary beauty,  third was  that she was confident  that her attitude showed,  boys and girls  all admiringly  looked at her , some of them rather enviously,  she in her graceful style walked up to mamma to sit by her side 

Mother asked where was  the veil  to go with her dress 

She gad left it in her room  neatly  folded

Mother  groaned  because  she had liked the  veil  more than  the the frock itself,  she  ordered mahi to get it  , it would  highlight the dress 

Of course Mother you will like it so would  mahi  only the guests and relatives around would not  and certainly they would go around  gossiping  that the latest trend is to post videos  on the internet without  veil  but in this homely  atmosphere  mahi is  showing  off

Mother  became silent  , it was perfectly true  , mahi who was a famous  star makeup artist running her own  private channel on YouTube   with   several  million fan followers  subscribers  became thoughtful  and  joined  the  gathering of visitors  to participate in the  function rituals 

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...mahi phuphu is calling you upstairs,  azma  shouted  halfway  up from the  stairs  and turned to go back 

Phuphu was upstairs in her room  with  a big heap of  different things   piled up on her,   shoes in boxes  to choose from  for the evening  event and   tiny sachets  of raisins  for the Nika function with bigger ones amidst them,  there was a suitcase   in which   from them were packed  bridal clothes,  looking around at t scattered clutter  she glued to the sofa  in a corner asking  her Phuphu  if she had sent for her,  

Phuphu  wanted her to go with junaid and azma to buy something  for herself    Phuphu would settle  the  costs,  she was  tidying   up now  speaking  to her without even  bothering to glance  at  her,  mahi felt like  laughing   over the woman who had never worn  a suit  expensive enough was ready to pay for hers,  mahi  refused  she had an extra  pair with her that she would wear,  no worries,  

Dear,  it's the first time ever  you have come  and someone has made mischief,  just  for her sake  mahi must  go  and buy new clothes for herself,   Phuphu  sounded  quite  worried  , to mahi Phuphu  appeared  falsely  worried,  mahi explained if she  felt  she  needed  new clothes she would have certainly  followed her instructions,  there was no reason  Phuphu  should  be so concerned  mahi had enough  money  to buy  new clothes 

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....it was the last phase of the night her   eyes had  gazed  into,   ,what early hour next morning she slept  was unclear but when she woke  up it was eleven,  usually  wedding  function in the house is not so silent  or peaceful,  it was rawa s room located  away from the  rest of the  house then  being the bride  traditionally  mahi   was left alone  and  mahi took full advantage of this situation,  mother was not in when she opened her eyes   she freshened up  as her breakfast was brought up,  it was  mother  who asked  how was she,  the bride  pulled the  food tray towards herself  inviting  mother  to join her   , mother  politely refused to join  her in eating  because she had pills to take    , bride  mahi  silently began  eating,  mother suggested  she  must eat  enough  so  she could take  shahmir along on some  outing ,  mahi suddenly felt low , before marriage sge gad planned all these  trips but a  morsel  got stuck in her throat,  sge had decided  to see shah Faisal masjid  even alone 8f sgah mir did not  accompany her but now she was nit eager at all, 

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....sara came back breathless  and asked mahi to allow her to take some pictures,  fearing thankful she was not  gone to bed,  mahi walked up to her posing for pictures  , Sara when satisfied  left her to herself,  mahi was back in her  place 

With smiling eyes he expressed her how much everyone including  women too were so impressed by her , he had believed he was the only admirer,  hearing him her tea spilled over, azma who was coming down the stairs overheard them and froze midway on the other hand  mahi who was quite used to  listening to her  ardent admirers  admiration  got confused for this time her heart fluttered,  she quickly got up holding on to  the empty mug, calling azma , her face turned crimson  who was this man  if not shahmir, if this was shahmir then why was he him, but who was that person who she believed was him, he turned towards her concerned  asking if she was fine,  she  gestured him to stay away from her as she stepped into her room  weakly  number, mother wasn't in, certainly  mother was sitting with other women folk, thank God,  mother wasn't there to see her in  this condition  or she would have become  worried 

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....you are mahi, aren't you 

A female voice  addressed her that brought her out from her deep  reverie,  mahi smiled looking at the  fifteen year old girl  and  confirmed  of course she was mahi indeed 

Wow, ever since  we came to know you were  our cousin we picked up only your videos and  began  watching and following you, this make up you  see 8s the result of  stepwise  watching your videos,  the teenager   just for  a moment  was quite embarrassed 

She continued  that she gad been  speaking to her  college friends  about  her,  in fact  she was so thrilled to know  mahi was to attend  rava appi s wedding  , it was unbelievable,  , she admiringly  told mahi how very beautiful she was, her glowing skin tone,    she kept on chattering  enthusiastically 

Thank you dear..said mahi 

Can I take a picture with you 

She nodded  smiling  fingers combing her hair  all set  for a selfish,  the phone  was straightened and picture  was clicked 

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....may   I  sit down here 

She turned to look at the face of the person speaking 

Shah mir..this was the reason she had come 

How could she refuse 

It was hena theme  and he clad in white  salwar shirt, just some time  ago he was dancing bhangra holding a colorful prop , , he rolled his lips in  a whistling manner,  

Is my name written here

No. But to sit down next to the ladies  one must ask for their permission, that is courtesy, he took a chair and wiped his sweat with a tissue paper 

What a great  idea,  so people around here are aware  of culture  and etiquettes

Ever since she had arrived  she was trying her best to control her temper yet her tone  would become   sarcastic 

coffee

,....coffee us a good beverage in any  climate season place  and time,  earlier it was believed   bad for health  is now considered  good for health,  roasted coffee beans   known as brewed coffee  is an antioxidant  that helps regulate  oxygenation in the body to check  irregularities,  some  claim consuming coffee  keeps them wide awake,  others feel energized  with a cup of coffee,  it entirely depends on personal  preference  how one likes to have coffee 

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....the  house was grand wedding  scene all close relatives  had arrived before the hena ceremony,  a most satisfactory smile settled on the face of nusrat beghum,  she was extremely  thankful for her only son  s fate  that he was well educated and qualified  and quickly got a suitable job  from his first  salary to his own house she had offered  innumerable  Thanksgiving  all the way long through out  his journey of progress  and now her dream of  her dearest son  getting married was being fulfilled  how could she not  be present before   the almighty  8n gratitude and prayer  , her heart was  overwhelmingly  overflowing  with contentment ,  her mind was  cleared up from lifelong  troubles 

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.....impatiently  he traveled back home   to reach straight away   his  amm8 s room  , his eyes were  emotional as he narrated  the  episode of his  meeting with arfa, fatigue of waiting  was over, nysrat beghum was satisfied with his  happiness  , she kissed his forehead and he smiled  but why didn't he bring her home 

Would she have  8f he had asked her 

Don't you  trust yourself and your love for her

But  does she  believe in me and my love for her 

Of course she always had trusted you and  today also does 

But I don't want to involve her 8n this war of  love and trust because that would be wrong  he became serious 

Dear son  , this war of love and trust  is  merely  a state of mind  to put one  in  conflict,  the way your heart supported you  your mind  will too, 

He explained to his mother  today he couldn't speak much with  arfa because he didn't want to frighten  arfa or misunderstood him , believing he was ordering her around  thinking  he wanted to control her life,  he in fact  wanted to give  his  own  life s control   in her hands 

And this was absolutely true  where  Haris Zahir was  concerned 

mujhe teri zarurat hy...

.....she was  there before him after six months,  , just standing some distance away,  , surprised like him  but with a difference  on the face of Haris was a warm smile  and on hers  blank expression, several moments were    surrendered to silence  as time stood still  watching them , that moment was special  very  very special,  like a story  half read  and they  were  the  characters  trapped  on separate  sides 

Area,  shall we go a voice rose from  one  side  to shatter  the  stillness  aima came closer to see area was  with  Haris  who said  he frequently  visited the place,  aima also  conversationally said  they had been shopping  there, ,  aima observed  area was very  uncommunicative  so she gad responded  but it was really surprising arfa  was standing  before him

Can we sit down somewhere and talk 

Of course 

 Haris gad asked  and aina had looked at her questioningly  so arfa had softly  nodded 

Heartbeats had  already before  her glances  scattered weakly  affecting her mind , the three of them  reached the coffee house  in the mall, all the time  arfa was the main focus  of his wholesome intense  gaze

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....Rebecca knew it very well  that she held no  place  of importance  in humza  s life,   and that was a major matter of concern,  how  could she  be  meaningless  to  such an ordinary person,  she couldn't digest this  point  secondly  it was  quite humiliating,  ,  she just wanted to avenge  her hurt by getting  closer to him  to a position of importance  to kick him away  so thereafter  he would  for the rest of his life  chase  her and she would remain  unobtainable,  her ego only this way  will be  satisfied,  she had been staying with her parents  for quite long time now but humza had not  sent  even a tiny text message,  she was fuming  offended  but  she remained silent  not  showing her feelings outwardly,  , but whenever she was alone in her room she spent  hours   annoyed at humza and  shehrina  because  eversince  she had met shehrina  before returning  to parents house  she  remembered  several times a day  her words t were  heart stabbing 

page 162...

.....mother's condition was quite  serious,  doctor   Mansour instructed them to take her to  the hospital,  , quickly ambulance was called  and amma was rushed  to the  hospital,  they were  very sensitive to this  case  , always ready for action yet  this time   they seemed to be uncertain  and   weak,, doctor Mansour  was with them,  aware of their emotional state of mind  he asked them to sit down   on one side  and went along  withmother  on stretcher, jahandaad could  see nothing,  sudden flashes  in the mind shook him,   almost running  to the  parking   he sped off  in his  car towards the school ignoring  the traffic lights and breaking  off all the rules to reach the school,  it was eleven,  he knew exactly where  to find her   and he reached the   specific classroom 

Shehreena was writing something on the blackboard  , she  started and turned startled  at his voice greeting her so close  to her,  if something wrong happened to mother  shehrina  alone was to be  blamed,  his voice had become heavy with deep emotions,  he had said what he had to say and turned around,  to leave,  shehrina was absolutely confounded,, she ran after him as the scene was witnessed by many,  jahandaad was opening the car door as she  reached his side to ask what had happened  to amma 

page 160...

....taimur gazni was with khazina  fir three days trying to tell her he was already married before,  but it was  baba s idea he must  tell her  for she was his children  s mother  , taimur could not muster enough courage,  , khazina was  extremely happy with him and he couldn't  hurt her, but he feared what if she  came to know of his first marriage,  ,he was confused,  from where to begin  to tell her, he sat  thinking  over the matter,  what was she saying he didn't hear a word of it,  when she shook him  pulling  his   hand scolding  it was then  that he became aware of her, , if he was startled  so was she  because   he was not listening  and she demanded an   explanation,  , he breathed a long sigh  , he was  telling nothing 

But she argued  there was definitely something 

Nothing  of much importance,  just that there was a friend  facing  a problem and  asked him to help him out,  he is in love with a girl and married her,  a child also was born  khazina asked  what was wrong there, he added rather slowly  the trouble is how can he tell her he was already married,  exclaimed  she  he must  unfriendly such a cheat who was already married and fell 8n love with another woman and married her, he git irritated  , that was not the solution of the problem,  

from previous...

....azra he called out  telling her he would  be late today from work 

 Some meetings to attend   with the board regarding   papers,  Farhan finished his breakfast and spoke to her   so she won't   have to worry   waiting  for him,    all this was  heard earnestly by Emily who  declared  she too  will get late as she put the empty glass of milk back on the table,  she  was now  feeding cerelac  to adan  got startled   Emil  imitated  her father  Farhan  , all girls  heroworship their fathers,   but Emil  also copied  his style of talking  besides  his hairstyle  and postures and body language,  she  brushed  aside her girl s silky hair fallen on her forehead  that  Emil  quickly  brushed  back   on her face , mother  smiled,  it was Emil  s sports day  in school,  , because she was participating  she  would get late,  mother  explained it was alright  Farhan will collect her on his way back home 

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...her face was still  swollen,  amazing thing was that nobody  of the two had noticed it,, he was just a stranger  and did not  care at all about sabin, she was surprised at mother who had put the newcomer  tenant  recently come above her, mother had  started ignoring  her own  progeny,  she was completely horrified  and unable to catch the point,  he had managed to come  through sara regarding   some  business  investments,  she doubled him, was he really  getting  into  the  business  as he had said or just  enjoying his stay home  in a leisurely fashion 

gazal page 1141..

...he wants to hide me in his heart 

To protect me from the world 

To take me away from me

To  steal me from  me

I want to be with him 

He wants to be with me

Selfish he may be 

What he wants to tell me 

Winds dance  with me 

Mud lamp too hums along 

The bonding  broken  down  before 

The same he wants to restore  again 

Bidding adeu to sorrows 

Someone wants to settle down in my heart 

He has fallen in love with me

He wants to hold me  against his heart 

mujhe tum se muhabbet hy...

....storms in the eyes

Sincerity of emotions 

If you come to know about 

You shall  feel 

In the words you reside 

Humming and dancing 

All this poetry

Honors you 

If these  thoughts also 

dedicated to you 

So that simply means 

There is some reason  of it

That I love you 

Shaira farida

valuable sayings...

....usually  dua can not  change  the  decisions of destiny  but dua certainly  can  help  the affected  to accept  their fate

Good time has its own  flaws,  it ends quickly 

Bad time  has a plus point  it  doesn't stay forever 

To lead a successful life  remember   not to let  your tongue  slip  , keep  the tongue in control 

The present  is the time  given  to do things 

The future   is to sum up your actions 

Better to speak up the truth and lose than  telling lies to win 

Beauty is not  skin deep  but   attribute  of the  soul   seen by  the righteous 

page 121...

....like he had  believed  she was waiting for him,  these  days his schedule was quite hectic  and he couldn't give  them enough time as he wanted to,  by the time he returned home  it was quite late,  then   there were  frequent  trips to  the  city  where he  was  trying to  establish himself  in his  headoffice ,today also he was back from the city after two days 

She asked what was the matter with him  that he was  living a life of a nomad,  he suppressed his smile  by  biting his lower lip, she was apparently  angry and  tired of waiting for him,  adan was here today  and somewhere else tomorrow,  sometimes in New cities  roaming new places,  he greeted them all and sat down with them  as she kept on  complaining about his life style 

His explanation was simple  , he was kept busy, he took his jacket off and  relaxed  leaning  comfortably  against the back of  the sofa resting his head backwards  on his folded arms  to speak lightly  that was enough to flare her up

ek lafz muhabbet ka...

....there is nobody outside,  she stopped  

But I did hear a sound  she turned to look at her bashfully 

Perhaps the door was banging  from the  wind  explained she with an expressionless face  seriously

Her heart sinking  she walked  tiredly  back into the lounge  to collapse in the sofa placed by the window  to look out at the  pouring rain,  the  earthy scent rose  to fill up the wet air , the winds  howled , unknown fears gripped her heart 

How long will you wait for him  asking  she also came to  sit next to her

Perhaps till my last breath 

If he had  to come back  he would have she avoided looking at her and  looked the other way  the lawn and climbers  silhouettes  appeared  like  pencil sketches 

But it was you who always  insisted  he would return 

Since when  have you started  following my  instructions 

Ever since  I gave up following my mind to  follow my heart 

You better  be  you and not listen to anyone  except your mind 

from previous...

....razya beghum called abi to her room to specially instruct her to find out from  hena what was her reasons  to refuse this marriage abi smiled  and  asked her mother  to talk  to hena directly herself,  she had no  problems  talking to hena on the matter but wasn't it better  mother  spoke  to her daughter  frankly, , abida  straightforwardly  explained  her point ,

Mother reluctantly agreed  that  abi was right  there was  nothing  closer than mother daughter relationship  but were  they not both  abi and hena    sharing  their  experiences  openly with each other,  , perhaps whatever was troubling hena she could easily  and more comfortably  share with  abi

page 104..

....the whole house  was  buzzing with strange  noisy activities  because hena had refused to marry,  each and every one was shocked at her such  surprising  step, hena was a most practical  and obedient  to  her parents   daughter who was quite sensible,  it was unexpected of her to reject the proposal  at this point,  ,it seemed  impossible  and hopeless  case, razya beghum had finally   nodded her consent  on one  of the  proposals  out from the mountain of  unending  matrimonial  proposals sent them 

page 97...

....though a maid she was  but  she also had a right to dignity and  respect,  she had a right to life,  how could she be  equated  with  or treated like  trash 

The night was  passing by, chorus of nocturnal beatles  started to shatter the  deadly silence,  her mobile was getting low on battery  after the balance was over,  outgoing was stopped,  she couldn't contact anyone nor could she send any messages,  she never had  before  felt the need to recharge  her message section,  there was no necessity  to send messages to anyone,  one or two  now or then to just akram, , with amma  she spoke directly every day but she could receive  incoming  but what if  her phone went dead   , what will she do,  big question marks  dangled before her tearful eyes, she couldn't find any solution 

O lord,  how awesome she had felt  to work for a living   , she was crazy,  blinded with  glamor if television screen,  to just once appear  on a show to become  rich and famous  she did a lot  to achieve her goal,  today also as she left the house  akram  stopped her, she ignored him completely,  o lord,  akram also did not  phone her at all,  must be annoyed with her,  he  didn't worry about her, he didn't miss her, how could she contact him  and inform h8m about her whereabouts,  so he could  help her out, but where was she,  her heart began to sink,  she didn't know where was she

page 89...

....she stood there in the middle of the courtyard 

Tight  pajamas  in fine cotton  that  was a favor  from  amma  who gave her reluctant consent on her long pleadings  to get one stitched  but with the condition  to stay out of baba s sight  because  the shirt was too short , she was extremely overwhelmed  covered herself  in an old red georgette  veil  spinning  around in graceful circles , round and round she went unstoppably  perhaps  she overdid the spins that she couldn't see someone  s  head popping around the door, she clutched her head with both hands shaking unable to balance herself,   she tried to stable her head on her shoulders  when she saw a devilish smile right before her, someone was standing watching her curiously with  deep interest 

page 88...

...unmarried  girls  before they get married  tend to fall in love  with  their prince charming  in their romantic  day dreaming  specially when they are still so  innocent and young,  youth just begins  with  wanting something more from life, she was just an ordinary worker  with a long line of siblings following her,  parents   earned little,  mother for extra income  sewed clothes,  sge perfectly knew what her social  status was, but  dreams are for free, sge would spend time daydreaming,  posing,  styling  , dressing up seeing herself in different ways  different places   different  rich societies  in trance like  unawareness  till her mother  gave  her a good slap to bring her back to reality 

fun e zaiqa..

....crispy drumsticks

Broccoli  tofu stir fry

Palak kofta 

Khuskhus parathas

Baked fish salsa

Fish curry

Chicken egg corn soup 

Afghani Burkhara kebab

Afghani chicken 

 Winters  give  more chances to eat  more  and better 

from previous....

...is that  a month's  ration or  groceries for  six months asked  yezwan seeing her overloading  her trolley, it was a Sunday,  they were come to the super store,  tabur didn't respond  and started moving towards the  vehicle,  he insisted  she hadn't  explained   why so much  extra overloading  just for them two,  they  were now driving back home wards

There us no answer to all questions some are remained  unanswered  , some matters are better  kept undisclosed,  she was speaking in a serious tone as she  searched for something in her handbag 

He grumbled to himself  she must have got a fit after reading some  new novel,  for some  days he had observed her behavior was changed  , entire household setting was rearranged  and she was always found talking  on the phone,  he looked at her doubtfully 

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.....tabur speaking to amma ji ..your house is not so  comfortable   yet you  invite so many  guests  , does not it feel rather tight accommodating  therm all,  anahad s mother was cooking for tge whole house  on log stoves with her daughters,  tabur was hesitant  but amma ji laughed at her query  explaining  the house was small but their hearts were big and generous,  when  hearts  are accommodating  spaces are easy to make  for others  or big houses with lots if open spaces also shrink where hearts are unwilling to adjust 

chabi ki gudiya...

She was  resting  8n her bedroom  when she heard Hasan calling out to dear gudiya to make  him a cup of tea,  so many times had she  instructed him  not to  order gudiya around  doing things for them,   letting her just be  herself,  she had  moaned  and groaned on her husband's  silly  attitude 

She quickly  got out of her bed and emerged from the room to find him sitting comfortably in a sofa watching his favorite television show,  on her arrival he turned to ask his beghum what was the matter  troubling her, why was she glaring at him,  his tone was rather mischievous,  beghum  could barely  control herself arguing  how  many times had she told him  from now on  gudiya won't  be running around  working,  eight days  remained  before she left  that house 

He could  wait for the arrival of their bride daughter in law coming soon 

He changed the topic  to tease her , the topic she was trying to avoid 

He repeated ..my daughter in law.?

She  felt  her throat   choke  on something bitter  , how  girls  are  8n this  modern time 

Gudiya  arrived with a cup of tea  for  baba

Mother  became silent  , how innocent  gudiya was thought Mother 

sabr ka hukum...

....there is a reference  given of the hazrat  with  the hazrat  zeenat  daughter of the  rasool , she had a message sent him asking him to visit  them  because her  child was breathing his  last,   the hazrat  sent a reply   ..dear daughter,   when  almighty takes away  something from   anyone   know it it is His,  if he gives something  to  someone that too is only His 

All things  in the  world belong only to Him, all things   are owned only by Him,  He alone is the absolute  Master of all and can give or take anything  for  which  He has  fixed specific times , learn to accept  it on specific times  things disappear  like people  from the  surface of the earth,  develop  patience