page 81...

Almas rang up zara, with bano appa  she  frequently  spoke to bano appa,  the phone was answered by zara  only,  , ammi was eagerly impatient  to  back,  she was getting  disturbed and uncomfortable  for a couple of days,  , she was scared,  her ticket was booked,  , the flight was next week,  zara was  informing  she was planning to  ring her up, , ammi was sleeping  and was feeling rather  heavy and   not so well,  but if almas wanted to talk to her zara would wake her up, , no no, almas decided to talk to her later when she will wake up herself  rested, , almas put down the phone,  when bano appa was coming  then  why bother her , , now  whatever  came  it was to be  directly confronted,  turning to Sabina she said  all  was  going to be fine  as appa bano was coming,  because  almas was alive she will  talk to arsalan  of the  latest  developments,  Sabina lifted her eyes to look at her mother,  on her mother's face  the expression of warmth and softness  gave her courage,  naturally  mothers  belong to  the  toughest strongest breed of the third kind, who can  fulfill all your  whims and fancies, they are rock by your side,  , Sabina  moved forward and hid her face 8n her mother's bosom,  , mother was saying soothingly  she was blessed  by almighty   it was her duty to take care of it, she must  stay positively hopeful   all shall be fine, , Sabina  felt  a cooling affect  descend on her

page 79...

....his annoyance was an outrageous  outpour  telling her what exactly he thought of her, she had an innocent look but in reality she was a ruthless person  who can  never belong to anyone  sincerely,  he was a straightforward man who didn't know how to speak  in roundabout ways, , he was strictly up to the  point  with no  frills and wrappings  , his mother was also a culprit to blame  because she deliberately  tied her round his neck,  , Sabina s mind  that was  almost passive  by now suddenly  turned on active,  a spark of recollection  lighted up her mind,  was arsalan  referring to her past broken engagement  before she was married to him, almas and she had insisted  arsalan should  be  told about her broken  engagement  but  his mother was Sabina  s phuphu  deliberately  kept it a secret and someone  other  played  mischief  , she realized  and completely comprehended  her precarious situation 

page 78...

....the day seemed very long and  lazy slow crawling,  Time   was passing as if the clock was stuck,  , Sabina looked at tall clock  now and  then, almas on the other hand  sunk herself in useless  tasks  failed to get herself out  from  stress,  , what if jwarsalam didn't return home by evening,  

What would she explain her daughter then 

Since  so  long  so many  doubts  rose against h8m

Daughter s voice was  heard saying she was getting ready  to finally go with arsalan or he might  be annoyed,  Sabina became impatient  waiting  and  began   talking to ammi to destress herself 

Almas nodded her confirmation  and simply looked at her daughter  s face,  her glowing  beauty had  vanished,  in fact  a strange  fear showed in her eyes,  almas  silently  questioned  almighty  what was her fault, there was no reason  for annoyance,  innocent  she  was yet hhe she was guilty,  always  keeping  husband's  position  and status above hers, thinking only of him and his well-being d confessed ,  does a woman only need  a life partner and  must adjust life long to  make  their marriage work 

gazal

.....that the complexion  of my life has changed 

Is a blessing  bestowed on me only by Him

Weird  behavior   of everyone 

Trusting nobody is nobody 

My heart often prays for 

A lifetime  companion  for life 

Never  breaking off ties

Or  the world will belong to noone

Never break hearts like the mirror 

Impossible it is to again put it together 

Pitying you come closer,  so what 

Life is unpredictable  

Nobody is truthfully anybody s

Nobody stands by in troubles 

tumhari yad ka mausam...

....here comes 

The season of memories 

Just Forget all pain and sorrow 

Your  shadows of memories 

Embrace me tight 

Giving  a strange pain 

Fragrance of  your memories 

Magic of you

Bring a glorious glow 

Descends a refreshing feeling 

Steps  get unbalanced 

Singing with joy 

Love  covers  dreams 

Mentioning your name 

Star of my heart 

Sparkles suddenly 

Bringing you closer

In the  town of love 

Spreading a couple of blossoms 

Praying to almighty 

O lord one day 

Before remembering you 

You should I see

Hearing  the  unseen  unheard melody 

gazal..

...incessantly had we wept hugging the walls and doors 

Feeling  sickly for long  moving in town 

Sorry for being sold out completely 

But we meet smiling  like friendly buyers

Morning begins with it in war stayed together 

Various  tasks   are served by the sword

Many  surrounding  visits from them all

Scared we became  so from the ready to battle 

Storms  or veils   or secure  havens  are they

Can't  be saved  from beating showers of  disgrace 

Eyes blinded  waiting watching the path

Yet remained  deprived of  seeing you 

gazal...

....courage  mine will not lessen 

This head will not before you lower 

Let Praise be sincere  you ruthless one 

So to escape  beheading if I may

The more you spread knowledge around 

The  more it will grow  everywhere 

Forget you may  who i am

My love for you  will never  end 

All joys will turn  joyless indeed 

If no sorrows  were around  

That day will definitely arrive  sometime 

From you will not be far away the  forbidden 

gazal

...dust that rose from   the stamping feet   flipped to moonlight 

Fragrant turned the  lanes  from where they happened to  cross 

Sorrowful winds  dried out  all

Flames of lamp of  life  were fanned  

Your thoughts  surrounded  the torch  on the way 

Shooting pain in heart shined the life  so

Promising me a treasure  for life  in a drop

That  drop of tear that  by itself  rolled down 

Unaware were others of  break up

Speaking of it spread  it far and wide

Merely a  mesmeric  gaze  cast away from  the attractive  appearance 

They asked smiling  turnng l away the gaze of interest 

If I wasn't in relation with  someone  real 

Walking along  the proper way was lost 

muhabbet zindabad...

...time was ticking  off at its natural  pace  slow and crawling,  ,  since razya chachi  had  failed to find a suitable match so far, it was possible  senior bi was  making a fool of them,  ,  she recalled what samira had said,  sanobar because of her feelings couldn't say a word,  atya appa  was constantly  unwell,  she was staying  with azma  to get herself  treatment,  how eager she was fir  ahead to get married  but situation was  so   difficult she wasn't able to have her say

She had always  considered  Sabina her sister,  she had never  thought of asking  her to  accept samira  as her daughter in law,  it never crossed her mind  she  must  use force  or emotionally  armtwist  her,  because atya never  supported such a method almass was also keeping  her eyes watchful,  atya appa s condition  was slowly    worsening  but her eyes  remained firmly filled with  her dearest  dreams 

page 62...

.....the day Farida  placed her child into Sofia  s lap their etes filled with tears, , all etes were emotionally involved,  , mother  mother in law,  sister in law and  Ahmed  were  more so, , wait of eleven years ended  with the child in the lap  whi was now theirs  but not theirs  , whole life seemed to have changed,  , her life s main focus  was tge child  she could live for,  , she would forget  entire world  to take care of ata, raise him   train him   and  shower her motherly love  and warmth   on  him 

from previous...

....Sofia suggested  it was high time  he remarried  to not  stay childless,  his argument was she wasn't  infertile,  they both were  healthy  , just that almighty  had  some  other reasons  kept secret  from them  all, , it was definitely a hard test  for both  of them   a trial  they must go through,  , they must  stay together  to get through it, , it wasn't   an  emotionally  painful   experience for  just one  of them,  it affected both  of them equally,  , their integrity  was at stake,   how could she have become  so thankless  that she  completely f forgot  to   stay   grateful to be happily married to him, he was absolutely against getting    a second wife,  he was a man  handsome and strong,  he  stayed   undefeated 8n these ten years of his married life,  he  was deeply in love  with  her, , not having  a child  made no difference to him,  , if he had chosen her  as his  life partner  he was steady  and loyal to her

page 59...

.... as the days were passing  so was Sofia becoming  more  and more  depressed,  sge frequently  visited  the doctor,    after  certain    time  slots were fixed  for   important  tests, all tests  were  similar to the first time  and result also would be the same, this  made her even more disappointed,  soon enough  Ahmed began  taking her to the psychiatrist,  , he couldn't   see her in this condition,  , he was pained to  see her condition worsening,  the treatment  included giving her sedatives and calmposes  with some  instructions   , she began  sleeping more  and for longer periods   , it was ger escape  from the  real  world  and her  miseries  in life   , wake-up  hours were same , she had turned  absolutely  uncaring of herself,  she had no awareness of  timings   to follow her routine,  neglecting her  meal times and  her appearance   on Ahmed s insistence she slowly combed  her hair,  and would  change into fresh  clothes,   once she who was an ardent  namaz  religiously  reciting five times a day  now  just lay back doing  nothing,  not reacting  to the namaz call

page 58...

....this was true both were married ten years and in these ten years not even once did she  get  a chance to become a mother,  the first two years passed away quickly  happily,  then  Sofia became extremely  stubborn  demanding a thorough  medical check up  of herself and Ahmed,  , Ahmed was  fully cooperating  where,  they were together  throughout,  , all the tests  were cleared  and both were  healthy,   there was no matter  , doctors opinion was sometimes  it was natural,  on tge doctors advice they started to follow up a treatment,   a wide range of   including  a variety of alternate treatment  was tried  but the result was just the same,  they remained  childless,  Sofia  slowly  started sinking into deep depression,  with each passing day sge  turned  even more  disappointed 

page 57...

.....her wedding anniversary was approaching just one week away  but as if  nothing mattered now,  only last night  Ahmed asked her what  gift  she  wanted   on her anniversary  and she had refused  any kind of gift right away,  what and how  can  exchanging gifts  and  throwing parties  affect  or change  life,  the house  had  everything they wanted,  all facilities and all comforts and luxuries,  she needed nothing more  so what could she ask for,  now it just didn't matter  what  material things she had,  having and not having all  the same,  when  things bought  with money give you no satisfaction  how  does it comfort you,  it doesn't 

page 50...

...son , just some more time and be patient the hospital is here

Perhaps the sobbing sounds coming from the child had  prompted  khushi Allah to  console him, he was to add more  and was wording  it but shamina  was unable to catch  his words as the vehicle  stopped with a jerk,  her courage failed her and she couldn't get out of the vehicle nor could she  muster enough   courage to get a ward boy to get a wheelchair  by going to the emergency  and see khushi Allah who in fact  himself got down  arguing  and explaining  tge worsening condition  f tge child  because  he wasn't still 8n a position to talk,  then someone  put his head inside the car from the driver's  window  to check  the condition   of the car, tge head was  quickly withdrawn but shamina  had  identified   the face  8n that fleeting moment,  it was waleed

page 25...

....people  were  restricted  to their  residences   , certainly it was quite  limiting  and  suffocating  trapped feeling,  but every one  got to spend enough time  though  forced  by circumstances  with their  loved ones,    each one learned to stay positively  cheerful,  as the holy scripture says   every  problem has a solution or it cannot be  a problem,  , she came closer  to almighty  spiritually,   praying for others  well being before  praying for  self interest 

page 23...

...when he   came to know of sadan was unwell  alyan  wanted to visit him at home,  sadan  stopped him  for  he was improving and  not   that sick,  he also asked him to take good care of aira

From morning  the weather was stormy,  the complexion of the day  was dark,  rain was expected,   naturally  sadan worried about  aira , not wanting her to be late  in the office  in the evening,  altan promised to escort her,  but sadan was aware  how  she reacted to alyan, not  free with him she  never  talked  casually  like friends   how could  she  give him permission to take care of her, how   naive was sadan  and how  strict  was she, what if he could make  a tiny little  plate in her  heart life would have  become far more  wonderful,  he  sighed 

Some  appeal  suppressed  in the heart 

As if  your eyes said something  wordlessly 

Life  spent  as if fully awake 

A spark of life  alive 

Breaths put off for ever

Alyan deeply sighed and looked at tge wristwatch 

page 22...

....before going to bed at night he pondered  on the changes   in aira s nature , she  didn't  like  speaking  freely with  men,, nor had she  made any  male friends in the university,  in fact  she  was quite reserved  with her  male  colleagues in office,  but she was quite  informal  with  her  maternal cousin   Hasan  but that was some years ago,  now she had stopped  Atchison calls,   about which he used to complain  to sadan,  , if she  spoke  with Hasan  on friendly  terms as cousins  there was alyan too who was now  working,  

Sadan  became  quite worried  for  aira,  be stayed awake   worried   and tge stress gave him a flue and fever  by the  next morning,  , when aira came to ask him to get ready  for the office  and seeing him still  in bed   touched his forehead  that was burning  , she  asked him  to allow her to take him to the hospital  but he refused 

khushk chashmey..by aira hyder , patna

.....whatever is descended on man whether  its  blessings  or  problems  , all  must  go through eyes

...The good and the bad both types  are born either way naturally 

...when the decent become  distant  they are formal 

The rascally  appear arrogant  

..eyes are the crown of   dignity  so unprotected   glances can damage  it,

....if someone  deliberately  scattered  thorns  on your  straight  path  in life  don't  avenge  by throwing  thorns  under his feet  or the whole world will  become  a massive thorny place 

....giving  priority to the needy above yourself is true charity 

page 21....

....at that time he was sitting in sadan  s office,   sadan was discussing  new winter collection  by aira,  an idea   cropped up in Albany s mind that he shared  with sadan who liked  it very much,, his idea was to  get aira to   design  dresses for  Pakistani women   in the latest  trendy style it would also promote her business,  sadan agreed to speak  with  her on this matter,   , at that  very moment  aira  who was in the office  stepped into tge room and  got flared up on the part of  their   congratulation she had overheard 

page 19....

....when  sadan returned home  rom his satisfying  and  comfortable  trip    aira was already  fast asleep,  perhaps  she  believed it sadan would not  sta annoyed  from her  very long  and it also  turned  out  right,  his mood  had improved  considerably  by itself,   but then it was aira  who  began seeing his face  everywhere  in the office  thinking  he would   never come back,  but he was back in the  company,  now she couldn't even argue with sadan  on the topic,  she was forced to  compromise 

page 19....

....he spent  lots of time in the  Cafe  before  aimlessly  roaming  around  on the  road because  going back to his small room to  be with  someone like  lal   seemed  impossible because  he always  returned  to  the room  drunk,  in that condition he used filthy  language  and always had to     put  cotton  swabs  into his ears to block  out those  dirty pieces but  it was not  practical to stay out whole night just to avoid his  room mate   , stepping into his room  he was pleasantly surprised to see sadan sitting there instead of lal , lal had asked  the guest to sit there and gone away somewhere  a reason  to annoy  Albany but more so he was ashamed to see sadan like  personality  waiting  in that small dirty room 

my living room

from previous...

...he absolutely trusted  sadan y but because he was hurt by  the words of  miss aira he had just overheard  he had decided  not to work  in the  company  where mutual trust was missing,  he held out  the kerchief from his coat pocket  and  put it before  miss aira on the table  and quickly turned to leave the conference room,  both aira and  sadan were left staring  at him leave  in a state of awe, before sadan could  demand an explanation from her she placed the kerchief in her  hand bag,  and  as swiftly  left the  conference room,   sadan was left shocked  staring after her

page 17....

.....how could you do it sadi

How could you  take  a decision  in  the  company  s interest alone  without  discussing it  and that too for someone  who is absolutely unknown to you

! Who is he

Where from

Whether he is reliable or not 

And you made him marketing  manager in fashion icon

Is  he capable of handling  company  s high standards 

page 15....

....she stood before  the  mirror in the washroom  correcting her ordinary  appearance,  she  had bumped  into that stranger  and  lost her hair catcher  somewhere,, she  was 8n a bad mood, , it was ger most favorite  catcher,  it was a birthday gift from Satan last year, , cursing and swearing   she   made a  bun  of her a different hairdo  and came out from the washroom,  On  the office  treatable  her favorite  breakfast was laid, , what a pleasant surprise  it was,  she  sweetly smiled  remembering  sadan who lovingly  took care of all the little things  that matter to  make her happy,  after  the death of her parents  it was sadan  s integrity  that    kept  her alive  and going  strong,  they were just  two of them siblings,  brother and sister,  , sadan was all her family  substitute  of her father  mother  brother  sister  and relatives and friends,  she prided    in his sincere  affections 

from previous...

.....in short  it happened like this  in a small road accident   alyan  s timely help saved  siman Ibrahim  by taking him to the hospital,  , so  when was discharged from the hospital  he showed his gratitude by giving  Alan a job in his  company,  , he was a fashion designer and  the  company was called  fashion icon, , because  Alan was desperate  for a job quickly joined the company,     though  earlier  Alan had refused the offer  because  it was not ethical  to take advantage of helping someone   during  a road accident,  he believed  it was his  duty towards  humanity  to help the needy

yakin ka safar....

.... he loved winters the most  , it attracted him because  of the mist and fog hanging  in the air and   the evenings  are more delightfully  chill, there  are other  seasons   beautiful   but winters were absolutely fantastic  in mood,  he enjoyed this  town for its wonderful  winters  , specially   misty  mornings though  the local residents  opinion differed  from his but  he couldn't help it born in Karachi Pakistan  where   monsoon  and winters  are prayed for,  he was there  on a study  trip,  his grandmother  sgahjahan  beghum  wished he went  abroad for his higher studies,  but unfortunately  before he  could  fulfill her dreams  grandma  left for the heavenly abode,  he was  still  in  his pursuit  of  his goals 

ehsaas.... taranaum saba Ansari kanpur

....who am I 

A star

That shines all night to fade away

But

A cool light

Is emitted 

A blossom 

That lives just once 

To die another day

But

Its fragrance 

Prevails  around 

That sun

That rises everyday 

To set off at dusk

But

A new life hope is left 

A moth

Circling the flame 

Burns to death 

But

Leaving  unforgettable  thirst behind 

No

I am That flame 

That  before the moth

Burns to ashes

But

Leaves a lingering  feel of light thereafter 

diligence kumar...

.....diligence kumar shall be remembered  ages for  his extraordinary  acting , he  is a legend   ,  son of   the century,  , he was short of hitting  a complete  century by just two  years, , his   die hard admirers  include  all top stars of Bollywood  and his faithful fan following  ardently prayed for his long life, his presence  was felt  and his absence  has left a vacuum  that can never filled by  any other celebrity,  , his way of speaking and dialog delivery was remarkable,  his tone,  tongue  pronunciation of dialogs  were very impressive 

page 119....

....shina s heart   began  throbbing  crazily,   more than something  extraordinary was happening there,  she reached them  on a double  quick  march,   but by then naghina had finished her talk and left, 

Suddenly all had  become so quiet,  the heat of arguments  amongst them  had reached  the youngsters,  , the pleasant  air  had turned  to heavy  sorrowful  atmosphere,  

Shina   watched each and every one into his face  intently  but couldn't  muster   enough courage to ask a thing 

Amma and abba stood up to leave  looking very tired,  , shina stood watching them in silence  unable  to stop them for  tea

Whatever  it was  the manner  naghin had  humiliated them in the gathering  was unforgivable  , , tai Amma s voice  quivered  on a high pitch  in suppressed  anger

shaitan ki kamzoriyan...

....muslim brethren and community on meeting each other  exchange  their  salams

..on starting  any new task  they  chant bissmilla

..before  making any intent  they utter insha Allah 

...repenting  is  practised  to cleansing the wrong done by them

....divine blessings are  showered on  mentioning  the names of the divine 

....these are  the things that keep away  the satanic powers  from  destroying   them