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.... this is absolutely right  that Antonio is my first and last choice  but I shall never  let her know of my feelings for her,  I have  loved her  but  love doesn't mean  one should take advantage of it and  impose one's  incomplete  personal individual   broken  identity on someone  to bring  shame to her  before the ridiculing world,  no matter how much famous I may have become I should remember  the missing arms  make me sn unwanted unworthy man fir my love,  therefore I will never again speak of my feelings 

My love will remain  silent 

Our  sentiments   stringed in words will never be heard 

When eyes opened regarding awareness 

Surrounded I was with the same  hollowness 

Same was myself  sane desiring heart 

Next moment his attention was drawn towards softly approaching footsteps,  Antonio was coming closer smiling at him,  both of them looked at each other respectfully  and politely 

Antonio spoke in a sweet gentle tone 

Good morning Mr Carl 

Very good morning delighted to see you 

Fir some inexplicable reason  Carl had stood up  either to impress her or in respect for the lady