from previous--

-johny  had  tried  to  kill himself, but  every  time  his  mind  and  hands  refused  to  obey  his  wishes, finally  it  was  decided  he  would  not  leave  his  death to  chances  where  he  had  to  take  the  step  of  killing  himself  , he  would  leave  it  to  something  like  a  train  to  complete  the  process of  killing  him instantly  in which he  will not  have  to  wait  painful  death  suffering  and  crying  and  moaning  and  live  a  vegetable  life , or  be  saved, there  were  so  many  rail lines  making  a  web  in his  town  but  he  chose  the  main line  where  trains  were  frequent  and  passed  the  spot  where  he  could  lie  down leaving  it  up  to  the  train to  complete  the  action