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...am I alive or not,  he thought  trembling,  whatever he had learned about death  and people who had tasted death  all those stories  he was experiencing himself 

When someone dies  he experiences  dreamlike state like a living person  goes into  a dream like state  , he can see the dreams but he can't see himself  but he  witnesses everything and every experience,  he speaks  in an inaudible voice  he himself can't hear,  in that dream state he  walks and moves but he feels nothing,  in a blink he can reach anywhere  from here to there  and  back again,  it's like magic,  then he sees his near and dear ones , , he recognizes them   but he finds himself  nit amidst them  he watches their faces from outside  , people are arriving  and  he himself is  wrapped in white sheet  lying on the floor,  his nostrils and ears are plugged with  cotton,  be then is lowered in his grave  and it's then he really opens his eyes to  the world  and finds  himself  staring emptily  into the dark deep grave,  he screams  to draw attention of his  own dear people  but there is nobody to hear his screaming,  he is scared of the  darkness  and  solitude,  fright settles over him  then he realizes he is dead