dusra rukh

... he was then waiting in the university  lawn for sara, busy nibbling   grass blades when suddenly  a pink bag fell before him,  followed by a pair of sandals  with pink feet in them   and milky cream  legs , he stared  at them  without  blinking an eye lid as he heard  sara speaking in his ear sarcastically  as she sat down before him  for  his roaming eyes  feasting on  the sight  

He said he was  not  in a doubtful voice,  she  laughed  at him  , his brain always  got shut off  in her presence,  she cheerfully remarked he was a fool,  he readily agreed  for liking her when the  university was full of lovely  girls,  she   teased him he was complaining like a married man,  , he agreed man was  by nature  pathetic  married or unmarried,  he sighed  in mock   sadness,  she waved her hand  bored and stopped him from being melodramatic,  she asked what was  his reason to be there sitting alone sulking like  a sad owl

He argued why did she always  compare him with  beasts , didn't she  have any  metaphors  of human kind, she enjoyed his complaining  , she had many examples  but  by just looking at him she gave examples of what he looked like,  she found it difficult to suppress her giggle 

cpage 68..

..Adam stop  , Patricia  walked forward  to see  his face was white  like   ice,  his lips  tightly pressed,  his forehead veins  stood out, his eyes  were  fiery,  , the  boy s mouth bled

 The boy fell on his knees,  Adam  caught Patricia  by her hand and walked away quickly,  the boy was  panting  badly,  he called out  breathless  it was  all  meant to be  a joke 

Patricia asked what was all this,  Adam didn't answer  immediately  then he  explained he saw them  hitting her and thought sge was injured,  he  straightened his shirt, he added the  boy will be fine  no worries,   but he too looked  nervous like Patricia 

from previous

...a man   goes to a friend  to ask for a loan of one hundred rupees 

The friend began to cry,  his wife scolded him for having  enough  yet crying and not  giving his friend a loan

The husband explained  he was crying because he ought to have seen  his condition  and  should have helped before he asked for a loan

from previous

...a spendthrift  spoke to a wealthy man  there was   no end to  wealth in this world,   if only  all that wealth is evenly distributed amongst  them all it would  benefit everyone and nobody will remain  poor 

The wealthy man agreed his point was valid  but if evey recipient was a spendthrift like him all the money will be wasted within  a month or two,  then  what will ge do 

The clever man said again  the wealth from the wealthy   will be divided  equally amongst the rest again and again  

gumshuda chaqu..

...Patricia stepped into her house  and  found two things,  the first was a  stranger was sitting there in the living room  and  Second  was  the  apartment was still cool,  her husband  Adam introduced  the man  as detective Moore,  the wird detective  frize her in the  doorway,  what could have happened  , the first thing she thought of was her children,  several doubts rose in her mind,  but Adam was cheerful and from the children's room she could hear them watching a movie

Karol  said Adam,  Karol was their  proprietor  is dead  , someone killed him,  Adam said softly 

Patricia  was shocked,  the grocery bag she carried slipped from her shoulders,  Moore  announced  the bad news  sorrowfully, he wore  Chicago police uniform  , he held a  notepad in his hands , he had already questioned  Adam now it was her turn to answer a few questions 

She was ready to answer  his  questions,  Adam picked up the grocery bag and carried it away,  she took off her coat and hung it in the cabinet  and came to sit down before  the detective  in a couch, the sun had  set  one hour ago,  the living room  was dimly lit by the  bulbs in the ceiling lamp , 

one of the bulbs was fused and just the other two were  casting light

Patricia asked him when did this happen 

His dead body was found a couple of hours ago in the evening 

In his apartment?

Right  there in his apartment , a worker who had come to repair the boiler in the building saw him first 

Karol owned the building  consisting of two  apartments but he cleverly  turned the basement into a third unit

from previous

....Richard  continued speaking   jj was trying to tell him the name of the attacker and how he managed to get out, , bedroom was  a suite  consisting of two rooms divided  between by a partition  that can be removed  and put back anytime,   it needs a key to fix it and  un fix it, , during the search operation  jjwas shocked to see the attendant,  both argued and the attendant shot at jj  then realized  the fire shot  could  draw  an audience  so he bolted the door from within  and removing the  partition  entered the second section  not aware that jj was not dead  and witnessed everything  and would  manage to unlock the door to get out , the attendant used the key to the partition  to allow himself  to slip into the other room,  jj had gestured towards the suite

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....Hilary had just got inside the sleeper compartment when he heard the fire shot,  his pace became faster  and moved towards the double bed  at the other side,  The train    jolted  and he lost his balance  hitting himself  against the  corridor wall, he recovered his  balance   to hear a noise  coming from  ahead, he reached the spot  to freeze   to see the inspector  bending over to check someone  who was half inside  the  coupe and half in the gallery,  there was a pool of blood around,  he  approached his father  to see  below  , it was j j Mac  swinging in the arms of the inspector,  be  was hit by a bullet,   Hilary  bent over to place his left   hand  on his  father's  shoulder 

He was crossing the gallery when he heard the  fire shot  explained the inspector  halting,  the sound had  come from within  the coupe gesturing towards the  coupe,  the door was  shut and he was about to use force to open it when it suddenly opened  and  j j fell  into the gallery,  he tried to break his fall, , jj looked into his eyes and tried  unsuccessfully to say something before  becoming silent 

Hilary asked his daddy what  did he say 

Forget it it isn't anything important 

It won't help,  he is dead,  the inspector looked at his  son,  he realized  he was  eager to know  what was the  dying man's last words 

page 113

...she said she was 

His better half

He declared he was her

Life  master 

She said she was his responsibility 

He said proudly he was  

destiny Maker

She said theirs was  a relationship 

Of  body soul and mind 

He snorted it was

Merely a  paper bond

She explained all was firm

Legal and correct 

He said it was

Just  repetition of the three words

She denied his allegations 

She was his complement 

He didn't like old clothes 

And got himself new ones

She  preached

It was made in heaven 

And he said 

On the earth they get broken 

ek sajda

...after  reciting her aisha namaz  ammi jan  went to bed to  sleep 

, she asked zara her daughter if ashir always returned  so late  , abuda beghum  worried  walked into her room around  eleven at night to enquire,  zara rather embarrassed looked at her, , she quickly couldn't  think of a proper reply,  but  her total silence  explained everything to  abida beghum  increasing  her tension,  she left  her to go back to her own room 

Ashir Ahmed  had promised to come back home by eleven  but now it was one  and  nothing was known of his  whereabouts,  the phone  2as shut off,  , she was  tired  waiting  and walking  up and down,  silently  she took several rounds to the lounge,  she would  stick her face to the mesh of the door staring outside  , disappointed  she would turn to go back to her room  and when she had finally collapsed exhausted onto her bed  he stepped into the room softly  opening the door

Ashir where have you been all this time,  she had  sprung back to action 

,his eyes  bloodshot  he went to the washroom,  she  was puzzled as she stared at his back 

dohri chaal

....when the news about  the famous actress June firan child was published  that she would  participate in the golden globe  award ceremony   people were surprised and  much  interested., because  after her last   successful  movie   performance   gourt  she had gone underground  and stayed out of public view for ten years , neither did she  was ever present  during any  film shooting  nor was she  present in any function,  the news had added  she will appear  with her famous diamond necklace  of yore  at the  function 

The train attendant   holding the papers in his left hand  turned to look at the two  passengers  approach the  compartment, one of them too old  and  the other  ever more  older  but  possessed  a healthy  physique,  he walked  straight 

The attendant thought he must  keep an eye on them,  the old man could  raise problems,, he smiled  and asked them their names,  

 Younger of them answered he was Quinn

Henry and Richard

The attendant  looked at the name list he held and checked their names and  directed them to their compartment  0331 and bedroom B, they will  have to  walk straight through the corridor  to the  end of the train  to reach the last compartment which was alloted them

Hillary said they would not need anything  and smiled at the attendant 

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....at night  ten o clock he parked his car in the parking lot  that was already full yet  wali found some  space  for his car,  he moved towards the club entrance  , he on his way inside  met two men with extraordinary  personality,  dressed in black  one of them asked wali if he carried  any  arms,  wali shook his head in denial  , the other one  decided to check  him for himself for his own satisfaction,  , wali didn't  object,  after his  checking he was given permission to go in, 

The club was  dimly lit, next to  the entrance was  the bar behind which was a  modern dance floor  and  at the end of it was  the stage,  someone was sitting  behind the d j platform  playing the music,  on the sides of the stage  were  fixed huge speakers,  on the wall  was painted  a huge  portrait of Bob  Marley,  couples were dancing on the  d j and the dance floor  to the music 

Wali joined the crowd,  his  gaze searched for Cynthia  Anita and neval,  he  reached the other side of the club,  there  he saw a door opening into a private room,  there  he found the man he was looking for,  Cynthia sat with his three friends  at a table,  perhaps they were  with him in the s u v in the morning,  Cynthia was still clad in the  white,  a cigarette was held in his fingers,  a group of three stood near the door,  one of them was definitely  Anita, he guessed the other two would be her associate agents 

page 95

....hello dear, he was sorry  because he will be late,  the dinner  next time,  ever since he had  phoned her she was fuming,  at least  on this special day  one must  fulfill their promises,  she  grumbled  plaiting her blonde  hair in braids, , then flung her brush  across her  dressing table,  she looked quite depressed,  , it was their wedding anniversary,  , they had planned a dinner out, but bazil phoned late evening and canceled their program,  excusing himself for having an urgent work in the office,  she got out of the room  chewing at her rosy lips,  

She was used to  living in a house full of people  , she was now scared of seeing  empty rooms and  vacant corners,  bazil  used to come back home on time,  he would bring back home for his wife  hot cakes and snacks,  unanimously also kept  two cups if tea hot steaming  waiting,  both would  enjoy their  tea and snacks in the privacy of their room  out of view of family 

page 85

....they were married and within a week Sabina  stopped working  and kept  away from  doing anything and shirked  from responsibility  , shamim beghum  shrewdly   allotted the kitchen  to the other woman  who was happy  cooking  and  after the  traditional  ritual of cooking  sweet rice pudding  in the kitchen  sh took over  and  today she served mixed  veg lentil pullao  which tasted more like chicken  because she had cleverly added a chicken cube to the dish and every one relished a hearty simple home-cooked meal  except  Sabina  who sulking  went to bed and began reading a digest  , a knock at the door and she hid her magazine under her pillow  and waited sitting up, , it was shamim beghum  walking  inside  with  the help of her walking stick  , she paused at the  door to look around carefully  

Shamim beghum  very  little visited  her daughters  in law  that's why  Umag was  nervous to see her, thankfully  the room was kept neat and clean and tidy  yet shamim beghum was successful in finding a fault,  she complained Umag didn't have her head covered before the beghum 

page 51

...there was a lion in a jungle   who on his way met a giraffe that stood  aside  respectfully to let the lion walk past  but the lion  wasn't pleased and roared in rage and asked the giraffe  to answer him  correctly who was the king of the jungle 

The donkey  , several resident monkeys in a tree,  all answered the question  frightened and politely  that  the king of the jungle was  none other than  he himself  , the lions  swayed with pride and  next met an elephant  and repeated his  question  to which  the wild elephant  simply responded by  twirling and swirling the lion in his trunk before   flinging him down on the ground,  with a spinning head lions shaking and embarrassed got up to see  other beasts were watching the show  and  declared the poor idiot  elephant didn't know who  was he

page 49

....was this also told you by Theresa 

Neval  nodded  it was

Then why don't you  approach  d e a whatever you told me report that to him 

 You shall be  taken care of

The boy smiled before asking was  it  really believable  that the  d e a will  not   take  sides,  Nolan  was already known to the d e a and both had worked together  and  that now Nolan  was in Jamaica  and they know it neval was  a member of the rainbow gang, he told them he was looking for  a particular gangster and they promised to help him 

Wali heard him out  very carefully,  if his story was true he couldn't possibly  trust any agent from any country,  wali felt  neval was  telling him the truth,  he would certainly find it impossible  and very hard to convince the d e a and his group that one of them has defected  in fact  neval was  considered a veteran 

Wali asked him  how could he  believe his story 

Neval stuffed his mouth with another piece of meat and said Wali was to locate  the man he was after,  the wanted man had a sister living there and he lives there and was to follow all his activities  fir himself,  neval pulled out a bundle of notes from his pockets and handed him  assuring him all he wanted later , it was very clear to wali  now the boy was  forced into this situation  , he didn't belong to this kind of underworld  , he was desperate like the hunted and doing his best to protect himself from being hunted

page 82

...it seems  the   woman  has   forgotten to  remove the degree from the stove declared   suppressing her annoyance shamin beghum observing  her four sons  waiting  and turning   and tossing  uncomfortably  while   the new bride   who  failed to provide  breakfast for three,,, didn't she know   morning time is breakfast time  for men who  must  leave for   work immediately after breakfast,  what could she be doing inside the kitchen  if food is not ready on time,  shamim beghum  was  grumbling 

When will Sabina return  she asked Kamal, , whenever  shamim beghum was angry she  called her daughters in law  by their formal names 

from previous

...wali now looked at neval  in several different  ways  , he was worried  what  if that boy was armed with a hidden weapon  because such  gangsters and members of criminal groups  always carried  guns ready to kill  but there was something unusual in the boy s tone  that  surprised  wali  and asked him  if what was said about him was true that he   belonged to the rainbow gang

Neval shrugged  he was and also wasn't 

What exactly does it mean 

Neval  simply  leaned forward two years ago  his  step  brother was shot dead by one of the rainbow  , the argument started  over  a girl,  the step brother was elder to him he lived here only in  Miami  and  was buried here , in those days  neval lived with his mama 8n Jamaica  in Port  Antonio  just one hundred  kilometers away from Kingston 

Wali nodded  , he had spent some  time  in Jamaica with his wife  , he was  acquainted with  those  areas, , neval sipped his beer, when his mama was informed of Malcolm  s death she became very upset  that he was step brother to him but  a loved  family member,  he wanted to find out who killed him, a detective  was known to him and his family,  this known detective one day approached  neval and asked if he wanted to  avenge  Malcolm  s death 

jaal

...wali standing by the  local store rack  full of dolls looking at them  how  amazingly  attractive blue eyes they had,  thi week his five year old  niece  was to  celebrate her birthday  , she was the youngest of his brother's  , wali Kosta  adored her she was so cute  every one who saw her  liked her  , Kosta  was proud  uncle of the pretty  child,  he decided to give her a nice  expensive gift  but  his niece's mother  said  barbie doll would  be  a perfect gift  , Kosta had  little  experience in buying  children's stuff,  his  sister in law  helped him in this matter  but he couldn't just give  one barbie doll , that  seemed inadequate,  Sofia  s seven year old elder sister Victoria  would get annoyed and sulk if  uncle walii ignored her, little   in size  the  girls knew how  to make  him dance  on their little finger 

Koni the girls mother didn't like  tight skinned  or short dressed  dolls so Kosta bought two such dolls that were  properly  dressed,  one of them blonde  with shoulder length long straight hair the other wore a ponytail,  he was now moving towards the car parking  when his  cell phone  began ringing,  the screen displayed  an unknown number 

from previous

.....he smiled speaking to zeshan  that every person  looked for happiness in life  the reason  so many  inventions  are done  but even after  so much  advancement and progress  man couldn't find  real  happiness  he seeks,  if only man could  realize  where could he find  satisfaction  that would be   his most successful and important    discovery 

Of course  his  logic  was so right 

Zeshan asked him  to explain his views on what  he believed was  desires 

He quickly got up and invited zeshan to come along with him  to do some practical, zeshan followed him to a dungeon where  strange  machines were fitted,  in a corner was placed a cot,  , he asked him to occupy that cot,  he moved  towards it and  lied down on it,  gesturing towards it ge said it was the dream world,  zeshan  looked at the strange machine  in awe 

page 41

.....he felt himself floating in the air like  most, dreaming he was aware he had experienced this before,  this time he wasn't  scared at all,  , in fact  he  could  feel the rippling sensation run through his entire body,  he remembered Sameer and children, 

Was  the time  carrying him to  them,  a wave of joy  spread  across his mind,  now he was passing from a dark tunnel  but  there  was light in his  space,  when  he woke up he  found himself rested and relaxed like waking up after a satisfying dream,  he stayed that way  eyes closed  relishing the   feeling 

Mr zeshan what do you feel 

This voice quickly  brought him back from the world of dreams to  the  real world,  he opened his eyes,  before him stood  safatalla sahib,  he gave him  a gentle smile,  looking at his face  something  exploded in his mind,  he recalled the scene when they had met for the first time,  then he had spoken to him about his  intentions,  a series of memories  began flashing  like a slide show in his mind 

The day he and Sameer had quarreled he had prayed  and prayed till he fell asleep,  from then onwards  something was missing  from his  memory  that ge was recovering now,  that day he had woken up rather late,  the moment he had opened his eyes  sameera had served him  his breakfast,  she spoke while he ate she was going shopping  because children needed to have  some  new things,  her voice was blank,  that evening they had quarreled,  reminded of that he became  stressed 

He had said she could leave  he would never stop her,  she had given him an  annoyed look and left 

from previous

....on this occasion every one was very happy and arrived with  loads of gifts Nabi bhai  brought a beautiful shawl for amma  and  chilgiza dry fruit  packet  for Abraham  New clothes  and  beautiful barbie doll house,  sweats and woollen shawls for basah, khadija and tahira  new cushions  and flooring  carpets,  fast was extremely  ashamed,  after the meal every one left,  tge paint was done  and bhai had  taken care of everything  without being told,  amma  s attitude   was not liked by  nasa,   to keep the family together she had to  arrange  a family get-together  party,  wasi was to arrive three days later,  everyone decided to give wasi a surprise by picking him up from the  airport 

Wasi got a glimpse of sunny bhai   as he was exiting,  wasi ran to embrace his brother tight,  , sunny became sentimental,  wasi was just seven when  separated from his father,    sunny was his life support,  nasa approached  with  bouncing  afrah cheerfully  gurgling in her arms , wasi was overwhelmed to see the little afrah  before he saw amma  stepping forward from behind a tree, what a pleasant  and unexpected surprise  , he hugged  amma,  every step he took  unfolded more surprises,  carloads  of more relatives  by the time he reached the parking  shamina and family,  khaduja and sisters with families,  tahira and family  all had surrounded him , he was enraptured and felt truly blessed to get such a reception 

page 78

...on afrah  s first birthday  nasah spoke to wasi to celebrate  it on small scale,  both his sisters were  married and settled in different cities but managed to reach  for the function  as it was arranged on a weekend,  shamina bhabhi also  stayed overnight with her children,  after the cake was cut the elders  settled  down in the  comfort zone of the lounge to have their meal  but the gang of children  raided nasah  s bedroom  first  followed by pulling  down all the balloons  from the terrace  down into the lawn,  lighting up the tails of the balloons they left them one by one to float  away n the skies,   the balloons would  lift some  distance above  the house and burst noisily,  children clapped  enjoying the  sight 

Satwat beghum kept  on talking  all through the dinner,  twice  sge found  some reason to walk out to scold Ahmed  , once  she  got up to sweep the  lawn  and picked up a broom, , all married daughters  and  nasah  stopped mother  behaving weird  and were quite embarrassed before  their husbands,  tahira avoided mother but shamina  remained normal 

golden words

...never share  all of your life secrets with friends who would  expose you 

The world teaches them greater lessons in life who failed to learn from their parents 

To maintain peace  keep your eyes and ears open and mouth shut 

Praiseworthy are they who gave up all their possessions for their children 

More Praiseworthy are they who taught their children to  earn and save money 

Women's heart rules her head 

Lack of will power  lowers self-esteem  

Respect others  to be respected 

Empty mind  is devil's workshop 

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...ten years later 

Their  company was on the up riad making money,  they had hundreds of employees  working for them,  his ideas  were   transformed into websites,  computer softwares and mobile publications,    they were now playing in money,  theirs was one of the top most   software companies in America,  his talent was recognized and remarkable  helping out  global users, his achievements were the fruits of his  long struggle  it tasted sweater  because it didn't come easy overnight,  the  passion to  success  no longer  mattered anymore,  the dream had lost its charm,  since it had not brought him any   promises of happiness in life like he used to believe,  , his eyes   now started dreaming new dreams  beyond his  control 

He was married to Anya nine years,  she still hadn't changed,  lively and pretty but  her beauty and  smiles were not for him,  apparently married husband and wife  theirs was merely a professional  partnership in business,  she  spoke only on business matters  , she had been extremely happy to get married to him 

page 35

...she  brought her car out from the parking, it  was the latest model red color  small  but expensive looking,  he expressed his view to Anya who laughed,  her father was wealthy and paying for it

He sarcastically said so she could afford to  have a enjoyable luxurious lifestyle  , why was she wasting her time  studying and looking for a job, she  planned to open up a software company of her own  , she looked at him meaningfully,  he  also dreamed of having  a company of his own,  but he was short of funds, if only he had enough financing,  her voice  changed with delight,  she had funds he needed,  he had brains  she lacked  , why not become partners  to fulfill their  common  goals,  together  they can  succeed,  , Philip  made  progress  and profiting  so much  and what was  he getting  for all his ideas, he deserved to have his own company  and  a huge bank balance 

His eyes  began weaving  new visions,  he who had been disappointed till  just a few minutes ago suddenly  felt  rejuvenated  with  a  long list of imaginary  achievements  believing his future was golden,  he still hadn't  forgotten Sameera and children,  he often   spent time   missing them,  , he had  sacrificed his love for his  country,  parents,  home and sisters  to   muster courage to give them all up for the  coveted success  and now he saw hope  of achieving it, Anya took him to an expensive restaurant,  looking at the menu he hesitated  so she gave  the order,  while eating their dinner  they  talked and talked only about the software company they would  open together,  he took out his wallet to pay the bill  , Anya saw him  and explained the dinner was from her side,  he argued  he  didn't like women paying the bills as he smiled and showed her his debit card

She smiled and commented she liked  eastern men for this reason 

from previous

...he flogged whole day  to come back to  his apartment late evening  missing company  and felt  quite lonely,  many times he would think of calling up home  and share his  troubles with mother and sisters  and  exchange  notes enquiring about them too, , that they should  demand things from him and he would  make promises  to send the things,  thinking of them made him emotionally weak 

He was doing well in life and making progress in his business but the attitude of his colleagues was intolerable,  he was always surrounded with  crowds but always remained isolated and  lonely,, he was once again  feeling depressed  like before,  he began regretting  the day he had decided,  to  come to America,  , whatever his financial condition was  back in Pakistan  he gad people he could  call  his own  who genuinely cared for him,  he could  any time  talk to them,  in this new place  he had nobody to talk to,  it was a city of the dead mute who uttered  sounds  not tc communicate but to    address him only

Finally the day came  when he was to get his first salary,  it was equal to Pakistani four lakhs,  seeing the  amount and holding it in his hands tears came to his eyes, in his entire life he had never seen and held that much amount nor ever dreamed of having it

page 72

...the moment she stepped into the house  by chance she happened to  see  sa8f still sleepy dressed in his  night suit  ruffled hair   cross her path, she quickly  greeted him  salam , he responded with a sweet natural smile and his tone was gentle,  , there stood beghum sahib watching  the entire scene  she quickly picked up a broom and began  sleeping the floors,  zubeda was instructed to clean  up thoroughly  ,  zubeda  assured beghum sahib not to worry at all she  knew how  to shine  the house,  she promptly  began her job as saif went inside,  she had to  knock  at the door slightly  to start cleaning  from there,  sauf was half leaning  against the pillows  and usually he held a cigarette smoking it to her horror  during   the holy month of Ramazan , he ordered  to be thorough while dusting  around,  she dusted the  Almira  , sideboard and the trolley,  he  remained in bed all that time  sge som looked at him through the corners of her  eyes and  secretly admired his style of smoking a cigarette 

Zubeda are you  kalshum s real daughter 

, he added  he had seen  her last year she was so dark obese and  ugly 

There wasn't any resemblance between the mother and daughter,  zubeda lowered her head with mixed feelings,  she was working in the kitchen when he came there and asked her to give him  a washed clean  glass  

khoob surat paigham

.... for masjid the English word is mosque   that  would mean roughly  house of mosquitoes  , so always use the word masjid only 

Mecca  would mean  a drinking  bar is not correctly spelled,  use Makkah for the place 

Mohd is used  for the rasool  akram  whose name is rightly spelled Muhammad,  so always remember it

from previous

...she  insisted she  got her  a red  silk  veil latest  trend   seen in dramas, you know aiza , she too has one such red silk veil and looks so pretty in it,  and she  herself is more beautiful than aiza would look even sweater than her that  every one  will  admire her,  she  stressed   emphasizing  on herself 

Crazy girl,  silk is so expensive,  beghum sahib got one for herself  and  it was  unimaginably  expensive,   more costly than  one month's salary,  seeing  zubeda  s put off  face  jalshum came up with an idea,  excited  zubeda asked what was her plan 

For her wedding dress  kalshum will  sew a red silk pair,  she will  get the  dress  as well as get married off too 

What is wrong with you,  zubeda  argued,  how  could she wear a common silk dress for her own marriage,  her wedding dress has to  be  absolutely stunning  that every girl  who saw it  would want to have it

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...that software company was smaller than  his expectations  but he was satisfied  to get a platform to  fulfill his  ideas,  if only he got a chance to prove himself  the doors to success would open  to him,  , wealth  and  fame  would  become his soul mates,  , how he had  longed  to taste success,  , he had  lost  so much  in this game of life,  first it was Sameer and the child  then  in the second life  he lost his parents  and  also  perhaps  his  dignity  in their eyes  by disgracing  them,, most importantly his parents lost  their  trust   , ammi could have  some time later  forgiven him  but abbu was strictly stubborn  and  it was impossible  for him to forgive him,  , even if zeshan  won over  the whole world  abbu  wouldn't have  stuck  to his opinion,  , he felt  he gad forever lost abbu,  it was  his first  stay overnight  in that country,  his was a one room apartment  , his company was paying for it,  it was just a walking distance away from his office,  , he had a telephone and internet  facility  , he wanted to  ring up back home but couldn't find enough courage,  

The success he had dreamed off  of was  just  a few steps away  but   his  condition was  unreasonably  dissatisfied,  he couldn't  explain it  why he felt the same way as he did in his first life 

Next day he  officially   started  his project,  all his associates were  gathered    , their support  was  needed but they all looked  not so  enthusiastic, 

 zeshan  began to speak  and Addy cut him short  uncaringly that they had seen the  whole  layout of the project,  in yesterday's  meeting  the matter was discussed so better start   the practical work  instead of  lecturing,  his tone  and intonation was deliberately provoking but  he managed to control himself  and said if Addy was certain he needed no instructions  no guidelines  he was free to go start  straight away his  job, with Addy   stood up Maria and Joseph   to whom zeshan asked to sit down  he still wasn't finished,  Joseph and Maria looked at each other meaningfully  and shrugging their shoulders explained they already knew what to do 

, al chunariya shagna wali

...Come on zubeda,  stop sleeping  , it's time for asar namaz, , iftar also must  be ready  on time,  , you sleep  like  a dead fallen log, screaming  kalshum pulled aside  the   thin  mulmul  sheet from over  the sleeping  zubeda 

Zubeda  rudely  spoke to amma for  spoiling all the fun she was having in her dream,  she sat upright  irritated 

Shut up, stop dreaming  useless romantic dreams,  be practical  and genuine,  now quick and out of bed, , prepare  iftar and offer  asar , there is light so she was stitching a shirt,  

Arguing  zubeda  got up but it wasn't  correct of amma  to   take away her right of dreaming  , they had  a right to dream because ordinary people like them lived  their  happiness only in their dreams,  her tone changed tinted with sadness,  roughly tying her hair in a catcher she stood up

Amma  retaliated  she must not read those  magazines,  learning all the wrong things  she has grown  her tongue so long and forgotten to control  her speech,   always  her head is seen sunk in those love stories  naturally all the stories have gone to her head,  now  go quickly to asar namaz before   starting the kitchen 

page 20

... zeshan had spoken to a property dealer  regarding  the house he wanted to let on rent to tenants,  next morning  quite early  he  was there  with a party interested in  the house,  small family consisting of husband wife and their two kids,  the man  was a government employee,  they liked the house and also accepted all his terms and conditions,  , this matter settled  they  reached the village next day,  his  routined life  smoothly  went on, the villagers were exceptionally  nice,  their positive  thinking   improved zeshan  s life  and he began enjoying life once again 

Sameer also  became a better her, she began talking and laughing  but sometimes she  relapsed in complete   silent mode,  he had left her to herself,  some  time later he had to make a trip to the office of the accountant for his salary,  it was  not a difficult  or laboriius time consuming matter,  he was to be  free afterwards, so he thought of taking Sameer along  for an outing and  a treat,  it would do wonders for her,  she refused but on his  constant insistance  she finally agreed 

Throughout the bus journey she kept on staring at the passing scenes  from the window  in complete silence,  he unsuccessfully tried to engage her in a conversation but she didn't seem to show much interest so he gave up trying and sat back quietly too,  his stop arrived and he called her to get up, she didn't  hear him,  he shook her , her head leaning against the bus window fell on her side , she had turned blue and she was icy cold 

page 19..

....both were  boating in the rawal lake,  winds blew her tresses around  falling across her face  but she didn't  seem to mind it at all,  she was engrossed  her eyes searching  for something in the lake waters, , her condition  made her look so  attractive,  , he stared at her his etes glued to her but she wasn't at all aware of his  presence,  , after rawal lake they visited damankoh, shukr masjid and other sites,  he wanted to show her whole  of Islamabad in a day,  , she kept nodding  to his  live commentary  as he took places  , 

The weather was quite pleasant,  he remained in a good mood the entire day,   but  by now her stubborn silence  began to irk him, ,she was with him yet so distant,  he finally enquired what was troubling her,  she faintly smiled men usually complain of gossiping women and he was unhappy to have a silent wife by his side,  it was ger longest statement after their marriage,  he roared with laughter and she  became embarrassed 

phuphu ki dawat

...there was a sudden family feasting trend started,  middle tai with her entire family had just returned from Abraham, naturally every one was eager to meet them  and  giving them a welcoming feast,  today  the eldest tai had invited them,   the arrangements were done in the large hall,  the eldest tai was  fairly famous and popular for her panties,  , her meals were  lavish and  enjoyable treats,, seven different types of dishes  for the main course  with  side dishes and desserts,  the youngest tai always insisted there wasn't any reason  to be so extravagant  on food but the eldest never  heeded,  by now the whole  clan had got used to such  family feasts  and expected  more of them,  

It was that special day all gathered at the eldest tai s ,  with the grace of God  theirs was a full household  full of their wholesome  joint  family members all interconnected, 

Eldest tai and her two sons,  middle tai and her two sons and three daughters, youngest tai with her tgree children,  then  theirs with  five siblings  and younger  chachi  and her children and of course the four phuphus with their  children,  each one  present there was well off

page 17

...he said he was wasim

The door was quickly opened by the girl seeing  someone else  she covered her face  scared,, he really liked that  gesture,, his   adolescence and youth were spent in  improving the  financial condition of the family,  he never got a chance to mingle with the  fairer  gender,  this was the first time  he ever  got  a chance to  meet  someone   who  stole his heart,  wasim looked at th him  before  turning to ask  the  girl  khala was home 

She still seemed  rather  nervous  but asked them to come in,  she showed them in and they followed ber, the courtyard was   neat and clean  next to it was a small  veranda,  she asked them to sit  in room,  she left them to call ammi 

Wasim stopped her to introduce his colleague  zeshan  who was just today  transferred from pending, she  politely  but  watching him  intently  said her walekum he too exchanged the greeting , she then questionedioningly looked at wasim who instructed her to call khala and also  prepare and serve them  a meal,  wasim was quite informal,  they were to eat  their food there only,  the girl  gave wasim a strange look and left,  wasim now smiled at zeshan who grinned sheepishly 

page 54..

...come on let's recite a poem

So The words uttered  come alive 

Just by saying tears 

Your cheeks get washed down with tears 

Saying come 

You would come 

On sit you would come closer 

Putting your head on my shoulder 

On sleep you would  fall asleep 

On paper I scrawl down your lips

To make you smile 

On writing heart your heart would 

Beat for me 

On disappear 

Your  heart disappears 

On Placing my hand over yours 

To magically   show you things weird 

Sigh responds a sigh 

Disturbed  will make you Disturbed 

Removing  the prefix you become 

Rested 

On  each letter  I witte 

You react completely 

When I write love

You  truly  get to be in love with me

from previous.

...hadi lay  all tied up in bandages  on  the other side of the  glass partition,  swinging between life and death   hardly aware of his surroundings,, bibi jan and  gori were crying  incessantly,  , baba sain looked   lifeless and  sick,  , trembling  , only  sargham  strongly  took  snall rounds walking up and down   bravely,  but his eyes were bloodshot,  , face   was hard like  stone and expressionless,  , he was certainly trying  to control  his inner  sentiments from  erupting  , the head injury was the cause of  hadi  s  long  unconsciousness,  the bullet was  hit in the arm,   now it was a life and death  matter,  according to the doctors hadi must quickly  come to or it was dangerous for him,  bibi jan hearing this  fell on her knees  to pray  , she posed another   impossible  situation for others refusing to go back home  nor was her condition  right  to stay there 

from previous

..he was  transferred to a school that was  not quite close to his house and some  one fifty kilometers away,   it was absolutely impossible for him to   reach there every day and also return home,  he  arranged for a temporary  residence for himself near the school,  , he was  rather  doubtful of his new school  but razwan encouraged him  to  accept the situation  and apply for  the joining time    and meantime  Razvan  would try to get him  transferred   back,   he was worried to leave ammi and nothing alone,  he promised  them he would  come  for them  when he finds a decent  place   , he was saddened  and guilty  tge list of his  mistakes was  getting longer  , he regretted  and  couldn't rectify  his mistakes,  , this time  he was punished for  someone else's fault,  , the exams  for which he had taken leave  he couldn't  appear for them  instead  he was  punished,  was he really so  unfortunate  and  foolish that on every turning point 8n life  be missed the chances life offered,  he spent  whole journey  thinking over this matter,  two hours later his bus reached his  destination  and he got down  from this point onwards he was to  go  in a wagon,  he stopped  a man and asked for directions to the school 

The man  looked at him with interest  and asked from where did he come 

Pindi to this place to join the school on transfer 

from previous

...he got a job in the same school from where he had completed his matric,   the old teachers  were still there working,  he respected them for being his teachers  but they all treated him like  he was still a student,  he was a lab attendant  but he was made to run errands for them  personally,  , how could he refuse them,  the nightwatchman  and  other morning  shift guards  were quite  careless and  irresponsible,  teachers didn't  order them for anything,  if they  did  the four guards  defied  them, , only he was  ordered around  he ran around  doing errands for the old teachers,  once he was  on his way to the computer center  after school,   he had paid back his loan but  wasn't  satisfied with life,  a strange  feeling of  inadequacy had descended on him,  he had no desire  no dreams no  goals,  life problems  had hollowed him  

School clerical job was entirely done on computers  , a  trained  I t teacher  handled the computer work because  the clerks were  not  familiar with computers  and it's  operating 

from previous

..he was in the computer center that day  when  his sister came running,  the   sight of  her white  face   drained out his  blood from his face  signaling  danger , seeing him  she explained quickly something  had happened to ammi, she wasn't moving,  he  went back home with her,  just a  glimpse on her  he knew sge got a stroke of paralysis,  she was  mumbling and her entire left side was paralyzed,  in a taxi she was rushed to the hospital, after the c t scan and  depositing  a heavy fees  he was told the reason for the paralysis attack,  Hugh blood pressure  ruptured her brain  vessels  resulting in the stroke,  realizing his  ignorance  he remained quiet  because the damage was done, 

No bed was available in any ward,  medicines were  prescribed and they were sent home,  the savings all of them was spent in just one  trip to the hospital,  

Misfortune  had seen the  door to their house, first it was abbu now  ammi  s turn  to suffer,  he couldn't    see ammi suffer and the wide   vacant eyes of his sister , he broke into  tears, he  was still cursing himself  for  being the cause of sudden  decline  in their  life,  he intensely  wanted to just once  turn  back  the  time and  put off the candle  ,   the house won't burn down  and they all  still be alive and well and prosperous  well off 

page 11

...he began revolving around  colleges,  Circling  institutions,  his future plans were  to sit for  the I C  S exams,  in all the government   colleges  merit was high,  his computer teacher laughed  at this  and asked him to be patient,  parameters were in the start  kept very high,  

page 33

....call your amma 

Amma irritably   spoke to the six year old twin boys sleeping next to  her in the bed, both at that time were watching children's movies on their  grandmother's  mobile 

Abdallah was surprised and not listening attentively  repeated the question 

Bibi scowled and  asked them to call their mother 

Abadalrehman quickly got down from the cot to run out of the room to get his mother,  Abdallah  followed him, bibi jan sighed deeply,  , both  grandsons were her life,  Anaya was just three 

Some time later  gori came in  cbaperned  by  the boys , bibi again  made a face  was it necessary to bring in her  security guards,  gori enjoyed the  joke,  the boys obediently  brought her there before her,  the  maid 

 came in and took  the boys out ,  both women were left alone,  gori asked what was it 

 

Bibi  handed her her mobile  and instructed  to add all  hadi s friends on her social media 

Gori looked intently at bibi who  ever since her return from the city after meeting hadi was behaving weird, gori  tried to  explain it perhaps both hadi and that girl were just casual friends and classmates 

from previous

....hus exams were over and one of  his friends joined a computer center,  he asked his abbu if he too could  join the course,  abbu  kept  looking at him silently,  wasn't he aware of their family financial condition,  abbu  could  hardly  keep his temper under control,  , grown up son must  lend helping hand to his father,  he could instead  get a job in a shop as a salesman  to support the family 

But abbu  it is a computer center  and  just two hours a day,  he squeaked also willing to work in a shop,  just let him  take admission  there,  abbu  became thoughtful  a sign of  encouragement and hope 

He added  explaining  to abbu  computers was the latest trend in development,  computer related jobs are quickly found and  handsomely paid, abbu  agreed on the point  and a wave of happiness  spread over his face 

From next day he began going to a general  store,  computer classes  were,  adjusted for the evenings,  after shop he directly reached his computer center,  typing  on the key board  he found so enjoyable he spent  extra hour or two  practicing this,  quickly he managed to increase his typing speed and polished his skills , the teacher began giving him  typing  work on payment 

page 30

...he said he was going to the city and  on the return trip he would meet hadi  baba  in a   busy manner  looked at bibi who was so silent  he was surprised,  bibi was sitting  up with her head lowered  in her bed, , an alert danger  siren  buzzed in his head,  God forbid, he quickly reached her side  with  lots of suspicions,  he called out her name  battle beghum  and touched her shoulder,  bibi beghum  who was lost in her own thoughts  jumped up startled,  the tab she held  dropped down  on one side,  bibi pulled out from her ears the pair of hand free,  turning she said why didn't he call her if he needed to talk with her,  she was stammering  hesitant  as he  focused his gaze on the fallen tab, he looked at tthe screen and then  at her, bibi jan turned  white, , he pressed a bell and a maid appeared,  baba asked  her to send sargham immediately,  within minutes sargham was in the room,  he saw the tab in baba s hands and  grasped the whole matter   

Baba enquired if it was his master plan 

Sargham  forced his smile  from escaping and  looked down,  bibi jan  stared from her husband to stare at her son then  back at her husband 

Baba asked soberly if women in the haveli would watch  movies  now,  what had the world come to 

Bibi jan argued what happened if she wanted to see the movie  baba also had seen  and their son  helped her out 

page 9...

....there was around two laks in cash  in  that was kept for payment,  that too was burned  to ashes with  the fire,  abbu  collapsed defeated,  ,  all the savings were lost,  the shop was rented, , they had nothing left to reopen their shop,  ammi suggested they took loan and  tried again,  but he rejected the idea,  , he got another job as a salesman in a general store,  the salary was meager,  , it wasn't easy to  run the  house  but they were managing  somehow,  

It was definitely their bad luck  that they fell from  heavens to the ground,  abbu never refused  giving  good life to his family but now he had  to change his open generosity  to controlled  lifestyle,  he  avoided  looking directly at the family in their eyes , feeling guilty  or shifting tbe guilt  on others , mother and sisters all were put off, saira was a first year student in the government College,  the fees wasn't much  but the van commuting was now  unaffordable,  abbu  made her give up her college 

from previous..

...mir had was red with rage  and speaking on the phone  with baba  sain who was merely listening as a  habit  not interrupting  the enraged speaker  until  either his rage cooled off or he was ready to gear baba sain , his silence  was maintained  and  some time later mir shut up , baba sain  asked him   what did it matter to hadi  if just one female  student Aiman didn't like his feudal family background and became  angry,  was it her reaction or his   background  , why did he worry  what she thought,  suddenly the line was cut off, baba smiled meaningfully,  sargham commented  naughtily  mir  was not consulting in this specific matter and  baba  thoughtfully  asked him to wait and watch the developments 

page 17.

....when the seniors declared  they were  throwing a welcome party for the juniors  , the  delay was explained,  juniors were overwhelmed  though  untimely  late yet  they were being welcomed and remembered and invited  to have fun, but they were unaware of the reality,  behind this  delayed party was the scheming mind of the  mastermind  zulfar zaidi,  it was  in fact a conspiracy  to a ragging party 

The day arrived  mir hadi cheerfully  dressed up for the  occasion and joined his friends circle,  the party was arranged in the  university grounds,  soon enough   mir realized   it was a plot to trap the juniors,  he chose to leave looking at the  games like  coloured water thrown at them  spoiling their get up and cruelly laughing over it 

hasil

...he was floating like  soft fog  puffs in the  skies absolutely  without gravity,  he had read it somewhere   this was the condition  experienced in the space  where  gravity   cannot control  one's  body and weight,  so had   he really  reached   a floating point in the space 

The idea quickly made him look down,  his heart skipped a beat,  the earth looked a tiny dot, every  thing on earth  also  was shrunk,  he shut his etes frightened,  , his heartbeats throbbed in his eardrums,  he turned his face upwards and   still scared slowly opened his eyes,  he was looking directly  at the opened cast sky  with no support  ,  clouds were swimming around,  ,  8n between  those  clouds  blue sky was visible in patches,  he mustered courage,  another strange feeling replaced the previous  fright,  before he could enjoy the new feeling  a storm  of strong winds began to blow  in spirals  and circles,  he was thrown  on a side,  , he was moving in just one direction,  he closed his eyes again,  the charging winds blew whistles with renewed energy in his ears,  he was shaking like a fallen yellow leaf,  he opened his mouth to scream but got choked muffled coughing,  he didn't want to open his eyes so merely from the corner of his eye  observed his  latest surroundings and his heart sank heavily  , it was absolutely dark now, he felt  he  was traveling  fast paced through a black tunnel 

Pekar ka mausam

...the night was  at it's height of  youthfulness,  in the village   selected area stood the  illuminated  brighter than  the brightest sunny day  the haveli of avadalqayum, , some distance away   the women folk gathered singing  the  traditional songs for the occasion,  a famous  local  singer  was the main  star,  , the night was  beautiful  and he walked out of his camp, taking small steps  thinking of the sudden resent  changes   that had forced him  to think again about his life,  it was  absolutely unpredictable   life would change  direction 

He had gone looking for his own identity,  to look for his own  potential,  he hadn't planned any stoppage  at this point,  he had  yet to merge  himself into the  complexion of the soil,  but nature  never allows anyone to control  their life, destinies that are written above  can't be  handled by the earthlings 

dahi

....yogurt is a dairy product  a healthy diet and a beauty aid

Curd is  yeast of milk, it is given respect and added to daily diet of the health conscious  consumer community,  included  is yogurt  to every meal for its beneficial  purposes and easy availability and refreshing taste,  just by mixing and cooking  the food with it changes the quality and texture of the meal, dahi can be made from  cattle milk, soya milk and groundnut milk , in summers the heat spoils the milk and turns it sour and curdled  , a spoonful of curdled mixed into lukewarm milk and allowed to sit for a few hours  lets it set quicker than it does in winters,  dahi is a storehouse of minerals vitamins proteins and probiotics 

good friends

...good friends are like  etes and  hands,   eyes shed tears when  hands are hurt,    hands wipe tears when eyes are emotionally flooded 

fazai services

...Japan airlines is the biggest in Asia 

Chekoslovakian airline company  sign is OK

VH Australian  airline company  motto 

Airflot is the biggest  airlines worldwide 

Holland airlines KLM is the oldest  airlines  service 

arzoo

,,,,desires and  expectations  bring sorrow to man  filling his life with  a sense of inadequacy,  unfulfilled  dreams   make life   incredibly stressful,  laughter seems  fake and  joys hollow,  existence  becomes meaningless,  every breath taken  is garland of tears

How naive are they who  wish to possess someone,   beautiful precious moments in life are wasted  longing for someone unobtainable,  soulful  depths  are delved into  staying unaware   that  desires   are illusions  that  stay always  beyond  one's  reach 

from previous

...no dear aziz said ashman   Fatima  this year was very upset  for her ailing father,  during  her entire  semester  specially  during the exams,  everyone was kind of mentally betting  between  her and ashman who  would hold  the top posing the finals aziz laughing  said let us pray her father  falls sick and she gets upset  and loses her position 

Ashman thought there could be many more other reasons for her to get upset besides her father  getting ill

He almost  asked aziz  to do something to keep Fatima omar out of his way to success 

Aziz carefully looked at Ashman and patting him  promised to help him out 

Ashman thanked his friend for being so supportive  it was certain he will  arrange something somehow on the other hand he maintained  friendly amiable  conduct with her in all outdoor group activities,  talking to her politely,  not being rude,  avoiding  sarcasm,  showing positive  attitude,   but he always  avoided  eye contact  lest she saw hatred for her 8n his eyes  because then that's what he believed  that he hated her , it was only after she was dead ge suddenly realized he had never hated her but was  in love with her,  missing her charming presence 

muhabbet gazida

....he was an elderly man,  who stood  at the royal window  with an air of majestic  elegance,  perhaps he was in his mid fifties  and  his  body was lean and strong,  in the  first  glimpse his wrinkles  highlighted his age but the next moment   another  impression was  revealed,  his  demeanor was  attractive  though  time had stiffened his countenance  yet overcome by his prominent  looking  generosity  and alertness,  hus face was chiseled  , sharp features reflected reservedness and somber  air

He stood there at the window but he didn't own it personally  he gad just arrived  some time ago,  he was Julius ceasar the  Roman emperor the uncomfortable  and extraordinary 

Rovio asked what was ge thinking 

In a resonating  voice he said it was Alexandria  he was  worried for  his  focus  of eyes was screwed  to a point of light  five hundred  ninety  feet above  and away  located on a small isle visible  amidst  tge deep blue waters , naturally the beauty of the orient was  enchanting and inviting,  the sunlit scenery was clean and clarity so sharp the fishes under the water  and the sands and rocks and the grass swaying  could be  seen  easily 

page 40

...his opening line was he was ashman paracha  the most sought after  Asian  neurosurgeon    equally famous in other countries as well,  he had made history by  successfully  operating  upon extremely complicated  cases that were  not even attempted by the western  surgeons  and  only he dared  

He ashman paracha has reached  that position  by accomplishing  this  impossible goal  he dreamed of,  he worked hard and paid a high price for it too,  as a growing up child he quickly realized he was better and  more brilliant than his friends,  he was blessed by good looks  and  intelligence,  nobody  could  beat him in his field,  mother always   praised only him  though  Suleman bhai and madiha were also his siblings  so he  assumed    he  was more intelligent amongst them all  and  he decided to remain  ahead and above the rest,  he always  stood first   from  the first day  in  school  from nursery onwards 

Madiha was rather careless  and  never  came first  and if she somehow  improved  her report card  he  was terribly hurt, he felt she has snatched something  precious that belonged  rightfully to him,  it was only for him  to stay above others scoring the best,  he wanted to ride life to prove himself the best in the  playground as well as in his classroom,  he got top rank in all  the finals except  for f s c when a girl from sargodha  obtained  higher than his marks